Thanks

Thanks for everything. You had made me change to become a better person. I've tried my best to be someone special to you but I've failed. I really happy that you still treat me as 1 of your friend, eventhough I've a low status in you. We are only friends.

You're a person who I admire the most. The feeling towards you is undescribeable. I can't believe that I can cry because of you, changed because of you, because of you I've learnt a lot of lesson and loved you for so long. I may have failed, but, you have succeed what I wanted for all these while. If is not you, today's Julius Wong Yi Jin will not exist.

I really don't know what makes me so in love with you. The talent you got, the intelligence you have, the appearance you have, just anything about you. Remember 约定? this is the 1st song that you have played with a piano for me through the phone. There're a lot of memorable memories lie in me. My sacrifieses, time, effort, money, love are not wasted and it is worth to make you happy. I'm not selfish, I'm rasional but I'm stubborn and had a bad temper. I may be easy to get jealous, I might be annoying but everything I do, I'll think of the consequences and ready to accept it. The post that you have given me a big slap, I've it with me always. 4th August 2009.

Well, I guess we're just meant to be friends or best friends. Hope you can forgive about my past, and everything that I've did. I'm sorry that I often made you moody. I've made you mad at me for quite a lot of times. Lastly, good luck and all the best in future. Take care while in NS. God Bless.

It will be the last,
I Love You.
Friends forever.. =)

Christmas

Well, I don't know how do I feel now. Happy? Sad? or is it neutral? i don't know what bother me too. Every year, every time celebrate christmas I always put high hope and excited feelings in myself hoping that it is a perfect day and a special day for me to be remembered. But, maybe what i expect is way too high and will never get to achieve, that is what makes me feel like now.

Every year's Christmas, I always try my best to prepare a special and memorable present eventhough I know the present that I get back is something that is out of expectation. Search high and low, efforts and time. But, why I still try my best to give you a special and nice present? Is because I love you. Before I bought any of those present, I think and think and keep on thinking. How would a simple and low cost present could be special and meaningful.

I don't know what makes me so daring to wrote all these here. Is in my heart, I kept it for more than 2 years. I don't expect any expensive present or what. Whatever present you gave, I kept it nicely and appreciate it, a lot. It maybe the last year. I don't wish to. No one wish to have a last. So do me and you right? I've planned and dare myself to face rejection if I'm about to ask what I've wanted to ask, but, I guess the outcome would be the same.

I guessed, that's all for today's post.

Merry Christmas my friends!
be HAPPY,
be MERRY,
be with your love ones, family and friends.







signing off.....

Mid-Night Blues

You are my love..
Over the hills..
Under the clouds..
Nothing can stop my mind..
Gasping for air as my tears flow..

Everything to me is oni YOU..
Vine waving as wind blow..
On this land of greenery views..
Not oni eu appear in my mind..
Neither do my heart keep thinking of eu..
Eager to find the path to ur heart..

I cant see the truth in ur mind..

Lying to myself for the past years..
Only myself noe how much i love eu..
Viewing through ur beautiful eyes..
Everything aorund came to a stop..

You're the one i love..
Only this moment i could speak it out loud..
Urge to say I LOVE YOU!!!





signing off..

It's Over

Well, it has finally came to an end. High school life ended for at 8th of december 2010. I'm gonna start missing each of everyone of you including my uniform. Happy yet unhappy. Now, we are one step into the hectic society and persue our own dream. As for now, I'M FREEEEEE!!

15th December 2010,
Before we went to Jogoya, we sing out loud at Low Yat redbox with Tai, Min, Ycy, Ting, Me, Lim, Alex, Boon, Ryan, Carmen, Evonne and Vinnie. We missed a group photo at Redbox, wasted. At Jogoya with my buddies to have a blast of celebration after SPM and as for farewell to Kar Min and Boon's Birthday. A farewell not a treat. =P The bill that we paid was RM968.00 but I guessed the amount of food we ate is more than that. LOL. Took bunch of pictures with them.

After that, we went to Pavilion to catch the fake snow. Flooded with peoples and the ambiance is great! It seems like Christmas is here. Took a lot a lot a lot of pictures and met some friends there. Hope this coming Christmas will rewind the past 2 years.


Friends, I had a wonderful time with you all for the past 5 years. Many ups and downs. I really appreciate everyone of you. Friends forever.



signing off..

Jyin 傅健颖 - 我们会再见MV (Official Version)

Listen to the melody and the meaning of the lyrics. Proceed to the next article too. =)

Friendship Never Breaks

Friends, we have been together for 4 years and most of us are already been together for 5 years. The sorrow that we went through are more than we could ever imagine. Every single moment, every single joy that we have within us, will always be remembered. This coming examination, will be the last time that we will be in the smart uniform, sitting together beneath one roof, in a hectic hall chasing our own dreams together. All the best!

Well, I would like to apologise sincerely for each of every mistake that I've did towards you all. What I gain, I learned, I experienced is really priceless and I will treasures that in my heart as we go on to persue our dream. The sweet memories that I will never forget;

went for school together, crapping around, have meal during recess, teasing around, falling in love with classmate, competing each other during sportsday, supporting and cheer, went tuition, play truancy during the last period, last minute assignment, study untill wee hours during exams, comparing results and last but not least, birthday treats. Remember all these? it happened during our life in high school. The friendship between us will never break.

Tomorrow, 15th November 2010, will be the last day for us to be together and there will be a great bash of party for us. I hope that I wont shed tears during this bash and you all wont shed tears too right? =P After this, we will be facing SPM and that is it, the end. I hope that, after the dismissal, we can have reunion that will be attended by all of you. Tears from my eyes just burst out as I wrote this article. I know, some of you will shed tears tomorrow, but, promise not to tears okay? =')

Well, let's pray and hope that everyone of us will succeed. Friends, you all are the best! Good Luck!

给我答应我们会再见, 给我信心我们会再见, 什么距离都不算远! No matter how far we all will be, I believe that everyone of us will meet again! I will never erased the memories of being with you all.

Love,
Julius. (5S1-2010)

Me

Recently, have a conversation with a friend of mine and I looked deep beneath myself. Looking back at the past, and things that I have done yet mistakes I made. Uncountable mistakes I have that made my day nw; sad, unhappy and emotional. Look at the past, it was like a nightmare during a sleep.

I have made my friend lost patiences within me and cause a lot of problems between us. The ego in me has pawned me alive. Sins of jealousy and envy-ing did the same and I found myself in the grave covering with guilt and forgiveness that I ever wanted. In a blink of an eye, everything came to an end, it is too late for me to be forgive.

She is right, before I fall in love with someone, I should have love myself in the first place. Every steps I take it seems like I am going nearer to the doorgate of Hell. Over doing something, get seduced in the most deadliest sin of jealousy, that it is all begin. Ruined everything beyond my own hand, letting go my spirit and lost hope to myself. Seems like I hav lost my sight and I am going no where but towards a dead end. Trapped myself in a dark and routeless box. Lonely, emotional and unhappy.

He is right and yet he is one of my best friend that have been thru ups and downs. Nothing is perfect in this hectic world. The feeling of dislike within friends do exist in everyone of us, is just the matter of the limit of the feeling. I'm too over about myself, making all decisions and being too possessive and there where it begun the feeling of dislike grows beyond them towards me. I hide my feelings deep beneath myself and being hatred by most of them. Shed tears quietly without being notice is well torturing. Hope it will be better.

As for thou. I made your high school life miserable by falling in love with you. This matter is something that really bothers me because it has pros and cons. I do learn a lot and understand a lot before really getting involve with relationship which I failed. It made our relationship gone no where but backwards. That is my turning point in my school life and the beginning of the life of love. A sentence that I've buried within me. ''You don't even understand yourself and you're trying to understand me''. A task that I've never succeed. A task which proved me wrong and useless. In the sense of maturity, I'm still a kid with a pinch of knowledge. Well, it is too soon.

Did as what I never did before,
Tried to change to be better but never done,
Failed within my hope and goal,
Ended up hopeless and benefitless.





signing off..

Time

Let's starts off with a typical question that not all of us may answer. What is time?

Well, most of us will just answer. ''Time is just something that is measured by using a clock''. That's just a common answer that we usually get, I guessed.



Time is something that will never turn back and there's no U-turn. Once it is passed, we will be moving forward. There are 24 hours a day, 168 hours a week and 8760 hours a year. It seems like, it is still not enough for us to enjoy our life. When we're depressed, we wished the time to fly quickly but when we're happy, we wished that the tie could just stop right there as long as it can. That's what we desire for because we do like to be happy than to be sad right?

Sometimes, humans are really funny and contradict. As for me, when I'm in primary, I wanted to grow up so badly to step into high school's life to expericence the life of being a teenage. But, mid way through high school, I was eager to end high school's life as it is tough and boring it seems. Finally, it has come to an end of high school and I wanted the time to turn back where the fun of our life begins in high school which will be ending in a month!! Optimistically, we're becoming mature. =)

快乐不知时间过. Fun time is almost over and is time to get serious to face up SPM. We used to procrastinate our works by saying ''SPM still far" and ended up facing the computer. But now, it seems like very guilty without reading a book a day or do some questions. Everything turned up to be tensed up now, SPM-ers left 10 days to go!

Alright, hereby I would like to wish everyone of you who are taking SPM. All the best and good luck! Get on with you all's book but bare in mind, all work and no play make Jack a dull boy. =)



signing off..

Life =)

Recently, a quote came across my mind that inspire me to think about tht quote. Seriously, that quote really makes me think and it is really very meaningful.

''Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end and somewhere in the middle that make our lives worth living''

Well, think out of the box. As for frendship, in the beginning everything was just 0. We know nothing about anyone. As soon as we get to know each other, that's where it begins. How long can a friendship last? minutes? hours? days? weeks? or years? To have a beginning is just simple, it can be done in just days. A simple ''Hi'' and let's the conversation do the job. But how about the ending?

An ending is just harder than beginning. Agree? Saying hello to anyone is just easy but saying good-bye is hard. Seriously, good-bye is really a heavy work to blow out of our mouth. As we had been in relationship, well let just b friend. Feeling will grow within ourselves, and feelings are hard to be let go. Feeling is the physical sensation of touch through either perception or experience.

We might be good in remembering things thn memorise stuff as most of us don't like to. What we've been thru with friends, partner, family or even yourself made the middle part of our lives where memories starts to grow. Remembering things are just a natural phenomenon tht happened throughout our live. Everyone remembers their birthdate because we celebrate each of our birthday with firends and family but not by memorising it don't we?

There's another quote that is similar to this post. Start with a smile and end with tears. Every relationship, no matter couple, friends or school life. Everything starts with a smile and at the end, tears just will flow out of our shallow eyes. Time is like a candle, occupy each moment of our day it makes our life looks shorter. Forget bout the past, let it go and move on. It will be easier and lighter to face new problems. Is like i'm goin out of topic, LOL. Well, let's end this post than. Appreciate the ones beside you and enjoy every moment of joy. Explore the simplicity in life would just make life simple, beauty, and joyful.




signing off..

wat can i say?

Well, time is been flying fast these days. Perhaps, we will b saying goodbye to each other as soon as we end our high school life in December. 1st of all, i'm kinda disappointed on something which wat i saw few hours ago mayb? but wat i really ask say is, ''forgive and forget'' does this phrase exist in this world? if is does exist, I would lk to say sorry to all of my friends tht hates me deep inside their heart for wat i've done in the past.

Not all ppl might do tht, as I know some of them was just all the while showing fake colourfull shells. But for once, I've forgive and regretted for watever shit I've done for the past to someone. The freaking response tht i get was really disappointed. For wat as I know is, most of u hav the same thinking towards me and the reason why most of u hate me is because of my attitude. Well, i guess for the past 5 years, I'm the only one tht was being hated the most compare to the others.

I've tried my best to change myself. Forgive or nt to is really out of my hand and is all of u all's decision. Might forgive but may not forget. I dun mind if is still in u all's mind, wat i wan is just to b the same with the others. Every people have different statuses, and I know I've the lowest status level in this class. If there's ppl who really appreciate me as frend, I'm really happy about that. Well, for me friends can hav a million of them but true friend is nt as easy to have even 3 of them. I appreciate each everyone of you all as my frend and I've forgive everything that u all did to me coz I know mostly disliked me.



signing off.

Time f0r a break =)

studied sej for almost 2 hours plus. surprised huh? btw, i've learn a quote which is ''a person's integrity does nt worth more thn the others, we've to respect each other eventhough each person have different status''. this quote really mean a lot to me and it speaks out wat i've always in mind.

well, next, i'm regret and felt guity of nt g0in to school today. yes, i've made the decision nt to go today and i dun hav the rights to regret and guilt of cz i choose nt to go. but, wat the teacher thought of us? how they feel about our attitudes? i'm always lazy to go to school tht i've to admit but this time, the 1st time ever i felt regret of nt goin to school. i really dunno why and i really felt bad after reading Moo's status. seriously, 5s1 is a class which i put all my heart in it and for me this class is everything. 5 years studying together, having exam together, outing together and even absent together. hw many times i've shed my tears regarding to the people of 5s1?

time are getting away from us. do u all think tht there's still chance for us to b in a uniform of blue pinefore, green trousers and white shirt sitting together facing the whiteboard under the ceiling of a class? chatting, playing, laughing together? i'll shit myself if i'm trying to prove something by blogging this post. 2 more weeks left. imagine tht, after SPM, that's all. just 2 more weeks, we'll b seperating and tht's it. the end of high school. i'm nt acting r proving tht i'm good with this post. these are all my thoughts, my feel towards the class and my mate. i'm even sheding my tears while i'm typing this piece of post. i'll miss u guys and the moment we're together, i do, i really mean it.

What r u all thinking?

after a hectic day of schooling and seminar, finally settled down to blog before signing off for revision again. today we had camwhore in our class which is kinda nice for me, cz it gives me memory with my bunch of kawans. and yea, i gt the chance to represent the school football team to gone up stage to get the certificate for the last time in this school. really missing those training moment in this school. erm, nothing much to post actually, just found out tht our class are made out of few groups. am i a slowpoke? LOL. is tht wat we call as a class? hmmm.

well, there'll b a Majlis Izin Restu for form5 students to shake hands and giving thanks to our teacher tht had taught us. guess wat, amazingly, 5S1 the top class in this school refuses to go to school. tht's really disappoint me, i dunno y. they dun care but y i care so much bout it? tht's my cons i guess. for me, yes, i admit i rather stay at home better thn shaking teachers hand in school, but, hw will the teacher thinks bout us? seriously, i really just wanna say thanks to the teacher tht have taught me. i really dunno wat u all think about it, mayb never thought of teachers feeling? hmmmm, better nt to condemn much. right, off for dinner and study.

really disappointed with them. =(

signing off, cheers.

To You

yes,
this post is for u..

At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.

Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.

Trial Results..

currently..
my trial results are..

Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+

still nid improvement!!

Good Luck for Trials!

23rd September 2010..
SPM Trial officially started..
it will gonne b a harshful 3weeks of exam..

1st week shud b nt tensed up..
2nd and 3rd week are the most challenging week tht we hav to go thru..

well..
wat i can say is..
good luck and all the best!!

Cherish!!

recently..
something happened to my family..
my grandpa admitted to hospital for artery replacement..
he already admitted for about 2 weeks+ and finally operated..
bfore his operation,
i visited him few times and hav some talk, c-ing him smile, walking here and thr..
his condition kinda good and he's lk no fear of the operation..

till today..
he finally have his operation yesterday..
and i had my 1st visit after his operation..
once i reached..
i went to call him and greet him..
he looked and hav a smile on me..
i was relieved and tears about to flow..
in my heart.. i said.. ''thx god''
till thn he sleep all the way and we left he opened his eye say say bye to us..
on da way back..
i kip on thinking about the past..
hw good he treat me, hw good is he..

so,
cherish everyone tht is still around b4 is too late..
god bless.. =)

passed my undang too!
47/50..

start studying for exams d..

Julius 加油!!

Dream

fr wat tht hav pass..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..

sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?



history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?


as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..


yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..


is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..

'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''

thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?


but how?
hmmm...


dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..

good, bad and now worse..

well.. many things had happened and days has past.. at first.. happy to b with a friendly and crazyyy friend.. haha!! nice chatting with though..

10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..

as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(

3rd of August 2010

heyya! wassup. long time didnt blog d. hmmmm.. is been already 5~6 months rite? watever.
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~

next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)

soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..

okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..

everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(

lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..

u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(

Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..



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signing off.. peace..

Happy Birthday!! xD

well.. my birthday party just ended.. is kinda special party tht i had.. 1st time open birthday party.. is nt vr successful but i appreciate eu guys come to my house.. tai, min, ycy, ting, lim, zu, alex, boon, ryan, lyn, julia, yin mei, yun ying, carmen and evon.. thx for giving me face to attend this party.. although is my birthday, but still i'm nt vr happy.. i duno y.. i received many many wishes through sms and facebook.. thx for the wishes friends..

there're various of food tht they brought.. fried rice, friend mee hun, hot dog, wedges, nuggets, fries and ice-cream.. ycy and tai brought their guitar here and played it.. i sang many songs with tai tht expressed my feeling.. i hope he noe tht.. many ppl went back early as i thought.. yin mei nt feeling well, julia went out with family.. but i really unhappy bout 1 thing.. lyn told me tht she can go back anytime and quite late.. but i really cant expect tht she went back b4 she manage to taste the cake.. tht is wat i most unhappy about.. besides, i heard something tht really hurts me deeply.. mayb i'm too sensitive oveer it.. mayb is just a joke ba.. oh ya.. carmen, pls dun force her to do something tht she dun lk ba.. no use de.. but thx for ur effort..

bout the present.. currently i just received 2 present from 8 ppl.. lol? tai and min, thx for the white watch.. lyn, hua, vinnie, yin mei, carmen and evon thx for the frog shirt.. is kinda too long for the shirt and too big for the watch.. lol.. well.. is very hard to act happy whn in heart my heart is vr sad.. vr vr xin ku.. lol.. many ups and downs in just a day.. lol.. cool 1.. hmmmmmm... some of them couldn't come i'm really disappointed.. JE and vinnie..

evonne.. lol.. i couldn't bliv tht i couldn't face u.. i'm vr happy whn the moment eu said 生日快乐 to me.. i'm vr vr happy tht moment.. lol.. is kinda funny though.. we ended up lk this.. i really wish to talk to eu.. i really wish to joke with u.. i really wish to take pic with u.. i really wish to hug eu today.. i really wish for many things.. but i just couldn't do it.. y i choose this path.. hope god could let me a nother chance to choose another good path...

anyway.. thanks for coming friends!!
eu all r the best!!


signing off..

CNY is over..

well.. since long time ago i updated my blog.. lols.. this sunday is a vr special day.. is the last day of CNY and is also my birthday.. this year's CNY is vr special.. 1st day was clash with Valentine and nw.. the last day clash with my birthday.. there many ups and downs had happen.. getting lost of myself.. i dunno wat to do and i dun even noe wat the hell am i thinking all these while.. recently vr tired and vr vr vr down.. kip listening to slow and sentimental song.. make the environment vr down.. lay down on my bed, looking up the ceiling thinking watever i wanted to solve and hope.. arms of clock working its way to 12..1..2..3.. and i'm still awake thinking and thinking.. moon glares and morning shines again quickly.. i cant even get enuff sleep.. wat is she thinking.. who am i? wat am i up to?

i injured my leg.. struggling to perform.. nth works for me so far.. getting lazier.. emotional.. well.. thts it i think.. all wells end well pls.. god bless..

sigining off..

Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!xD

2.21 a.m. is the 1st day of CNY and is also Valentine's Day.. just had a wonderful celebration at a nearby temple.. lion dance, fireworks, cheering and lots of stuff.. although i'm happy [i think so] but kinda emo just nw.. lolz.. well.. i still cant giv wat she needs and cant cheer her up while she is bored.. haih.. hmmmm.. still hav some prob with the way she reply my msg.. duno y i felt tht she lk vr arrogant.. lolz.. well.. thts all ba.. tomolo still nid to visit..

signing off..


Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!

Nice Day!

TAI, MIN, YCY, RYAN, LIM, TING, EVON, MARIE and i went to pavillion today.. it was the 2nd time i went out with MARIE.. lolz.. we went for [[大日子]] it was a 10 out of 10 rate of movie for me.. it was vr touching, funny and it consist of some MEMORIES for me too.. 1st time sit with RYAN in the cinema.. dunno y recently vr good with him but still always get scolded by me..xD well.. let's talk bout the story.. Ah Beng is vr sad bcause his neighbour Ah Lian kip ''LC'' him saying tht he cant manage to bring his parents for holiday.. lolz.. the touching part was when they decided to leave another Ah Lian in Kelantan bcause she lied to them saying tht she'll pay salary to them if they willing to train WooHoo (tarian harimau) to represent tht kampung.. she just dowan her Ah Gong to continue WooHoo bause of his age.. so she decided to do tht.. Ah Beng, Ah Huat and another guy i frgt wat name dy.. they were angry and leave the place.. b4 they leave.. they receive ang pau each from Ah Gong and some money from a lil girl.. i nearly cried out.. lol..

hmmm.. bout Mindy and Ah Huat.. they loved each other vr much but still there's something tht distrupt them tht makes them seperated.. i frgt who said tht.. eu wont noe if the one who really love eu is just right beside eu.. i think of SUMONE and i tears soundly.. serious.. =( i really hope tht she'll noe hw much i love her and i really mean it.. is there really obstacles between us? i can feel something is nt right between us but tak tau wats tht.. haih.. times takes it all..

after movie.. we went for food.. while MARIE whn to order food.. i take the chance to talk to her.. just hav a short conversation and MARIE is back.. duno y vr bu zhi zai whn talk to her and her facial expression is vr cute.. =) charming.. lovely.. cut her hair.. still pretty.. ^^ well.. i understand nw the song nothing's gonna change my love for eu this phrase does exsist in real life.. came thru many obstacles but still i'm so in love with eu.. I LOVE YOU!!!

after eat.. whn to TS walk a bout an hour plus.. went to F.O.S bought a shirt cost at RM30.. thx to min and ycy again.. really like eu guys.. but time is short for me with her.. at TS we walk on our own and she walk with MARIE.. soon after.. went home around 5.30 p.m.. got a check with her by texting her whether where she is.. i wonder hw she feels today? wat she feels bout me? do i cared bout her safety or watever bout her and her sis? did i done wat i nid to do? did i get wat she nid for her today? did i brought her happiness today? hmmm.. wat a day it was.. i really happy today.. but still nt a 100% perfect day for me.. =) cheeerr!!

sigining off at 11.55p.m..

sad sad day..

2010 start nt long and i can feel tht this year is nt the year for me.. many things tht is unpredictable will happen.. many things changes.. at first.. i tot i could manage to let go something tht on my back for merely 3 years.. but it nvr happen.. day by day hiding myself in my room thinking something which is nt deserve or dun really nid to think tht thing.. wtf happen to me.. result getting worse.. cant really concentrate in class.. getting much more lazy.. this year's CNY falls together with Valentine's Day.. it shud b a romantic CNY for those who r in relationship.. hope tht this year's valentine wont b feeling lonely and hope tht i really can dun think about Valentine's Day..

smkcp's football team is getting better or weaker i also duno.. we miss Mr.Abdullah the best coach i ever met in my reality.. nw change to a bitch coach Mr.Khairul and Mr.Alias.. but on the player side.. the player r getting quite stronger but the amount of CHINESE is getting lesser and lesser.. over to the educational field.. haih.. full with disappointment.. english society i cant get any position neither do HANG LEKIU our school sports 'house'.. nw my oni hope is badminton club.. i hav no confident this year tht i could make it to school's football team neither do the sport's day 'acara'.. i hav no confident towards myself this year.. =(

hmmm.. really cant think of wat i nid to do.. a heavy backpack is getting much more heavy.. no matter wat i did hw good i treated ... but still there will b no outcome i guess.. i noe i'm wasting my time onsomething tht is imposibble tht many ppl told me b4.. but i really cant let it go.. i've tried vr hard.. but.. =( thts all ba.. hope for a better tomolo..

signing off.. unhappy day.. 040210

Mentally Disturb

recently, i kept many things to myself.. i cant stand it anymore.. i would say it all out here.. sry if i did said anything wrong.. wat i've done recently i really annoying from my POV.. i'm sure nt all but some ppl do dislike me.. eu all noe urself whether eu dislike me anot.. every cloud gt its silver lining.. yes i admit i do lk to hav girls around and i lk to make funny funny things to disturb them.. but sometimes.. mayb i'm wrong.. jealousy will really spoil buddy's relationship.. the power of love tht leads to jealousy will make a pair of best buddy dislike each other.. issit worth? i dunno whether i gt the rights to say bout ppl.. all these while i kip hiding my feeling to myself deep beneath my heart.. say easier thn done.. wat i see and feel is really annoying.. i don't understand.. y everything i did as the same with others, but always i'm the 1 who ppl thinks tht i'm wrong and the other party will dislike me.. y issit lk this? does the word FAIR do exist in this bloody world?

i'm tired of caring others feeling.. talk to tht girl hav to make sure tht the 1 who admire was nt around.. or whn talking to a girl must nt tease or make jokes or make them laugh infront them.. or else.. a joke would b some kind of flirting stuff.. sensitivty of a person really makes us nt happy.. i do admit sometimes the things i said really make ppl dislike me.. there's no offense in this blog.. i didnt say is who or watever.. dun b self concious.. 1 more lil thing.. even if i owe money.. do eu think it is great to tell the whole world ''JULIUS OWE ME MONEY''.. say till so long also no use.. my blog is bored with all these emo stuff.. just wanna say.. there is no FAIR this word in my dictionary.. frends do betray.. frends do dislike each other.. frends do say bz if they nid help..

Ain't nothing..

is been long time since i updated last post.. hell lot of things happen.. currently having intervension exam for the vr last day.. getting out from hell..xD well.. it seems i've already let her go.. but still.. there's many thing tht will remind me of her.. for wat i've done recently hope tht she felt tht i've let her go.. but yet she is still in my heart deep below.. some say i'm avoiding her..some say i'm just fooling around saying tht i've gave up.. i dun care watever shit they all say.. i noe wat am i doin.. lol.. after this vr important year.. we'll b split.. having own interest and time.. hmmm.. really hope tht someday i could tell her tht i've always been looking at her and still loving her as much as last time..

enough of tht i think.. some bloody issues happened between me and a lil kid.. lolz.. he think he damn good tht i cant even compare with him.. is tht a joke? who do he think he is? putting shit on my face.. yes.. i admit.. hw hardworking am i also.. my result will b nt as good as eu.. but do eu think eu gt the right to say tht i'm nt compatible with eu? for me.. eu're just a kid.. nt much about maturity and eu always think tht eu're aaaaaaaalways better thn me.. go dream better.. i might lose to eu in academic.. just oni tht field.. c urself in shit oni codemn me.. eu ain't nothing.. from nw on.. i won't even respect eu..

well.. let's cheers for the upcoming CNY.. =)

Last Year of School

5th Jan 10..

guess what.. is the beginning of the year 2010..
and i'm back to school for the last year!! xD
but this year should b a stress year for me..
this year is the vital year of my life..
SPM Examination year..
is where my life start and i've to get good result for this exam..
is the turning point of my life.. whether to b in a good path or bad 1..

hmmmmm...
nth much special things happened in school for these 2days..
this year time i'm sitting with tai and min which r 2 of the best student..
lol.. h0pe tht there's no changes made by our new class teacher..
ytd was the 1st day of school and went tuition after..
my tuition started at 4.15 and end up in 7.00 in the evening..
OMG~! i was nt at home for merely 14 hours! lolz..

oh ya.. b4 tht.. i got my result for 2009 end year exam..
once i gt the result.. i was lk.. wtf? am i in deep shit?
i was so disappointed with my result.. it was 23/27..
at the tail of the class.. and i'm the oni 1 to failed history in this class..
is tht wat i call ashamed in a top class??
oh pls dun look me down.. i'm getting start pulling myself up from a deep shit pool..

i really nid to work double harder to get myself of the tail of the class..
if i work hard everything would b smoother later in the year..
when there's a will, there's a road.. i hope tht's right.. lolz..
cheers!

the end..