Lyrics In My Heart

You ask me if I love you
and I chocked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
and who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you.

( I'd never ask you, but I wish to know the true answer from you )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in my will gone forever )

romance and all its strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
but through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant fighter
still trapped within my youth

( I'm battling myself to improve bcz of romance, jealousy owns me thats what insecure me, I'm writing my own fake story which hiding the truth within my youth )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in me will gone forever )

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the love I'd in me is irrisistable, no matter it had been ages or centuries, yet I'm still in it and never change. why? the answer is obvious but I hope that I'll never lie to myself with that answer.

What I wish is not what I expected.

I thought tht I've changed,
becoming a slightly better and different person,
In the end, I finally realised I was still the same as before.

What I wish for has made me feel happy but the expectation had let me down. I still couldn't fight the devil within myself. Conversation couldn't last wrong and unable to point out my weakness. Why I couldn't face that?

Hot, sweat, nervous and careful of everything I say and do. Why am I still hiding the real side of me? What I need is just natural! =X

Am I still in it yet couldn't climb up from the fall? Why am I so pissed today? I don't really care whether I skipped something important and wasted time on something not urgent but why still I can get mad over that? Simple word, jealousy.

Kick start my college life soon. All the best, good luck and get over it. =)