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During the past, I easily fall in love with someone which is good to me.
But at once, I fal in love with someone that bound me for a long time.
After all ups and down, when I'm ready, I find that I'm hard to fall in love.
Even I don't even know where and how to start.

You'd changed me, I'd challenged myself.
Now, I lost myself again and yet to be found.
I'm strong in my body, I'm weak in my soul.
A broken wound that has been with me for half a decade.
A broken wound with salt just added, it hurts a lot.

Used to emo all day long,
Now, used to dance it out to express it.

Chances are given once, twice but not trice.
When it came, I deny it by confusing myself.
Once it passed, regretted and blame oneself.
It happened past few years, and it came again.

I lost my determination and confidence.
I'll say I love you, and I did.
I'll greet everyday, and I tried.
Do I still loving you, the answer might be yes from the inside,
but not the outside.

Why it get on my nerve?
Why it changed?
Sorry for letting it go, all the best and good luck.

Lastly, half a decade will be continue and I still love you.

Lyrics In My Heart

You ask me if I love you
and I chocked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
and who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you.

( I'd never ask you, but I wish to know the true answer from you )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in my will gone forever )

romance and all its strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
but through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant fighter
still trapped within my youth

( I'm battling myself to improve bcz of romance, jealousy owns me thats what insecure me, I'm writing my own fake story which hiding the truth within my youth )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in me will gone forever )

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the love I'd in me is irrisistable, no matter it had been ages or centuries, yet I'm still in it and never change. why? the answer is obvious but I hope that I'll never lie to myself with that answer.

What I wish is not what I expected.

I thought tht I've changed,
becoming a slightly better and different person,
In the end, I finally realised I was still the same as before.

What I wish for has made me feel happy but the expectation had let me down. I still couldn't fight the devil within myself. Conversation couldn't last wrong and unable to point out my weakness. Why I couldn't face that?

Hot, sweat, nervous and careful of everything I say and do. Why am I still hiding the real side of me? What I need is just natural! =X

Am I still in it yet couldn't climb up from the fall? Why am I so pissed today? I don't really care whether I skipped something important and wasted time on something not urgent but why still I can get mad over that? Simple word, jealousy.

Kick start my college life soon. All the best, good luck and get over it. =)

Is The Beginning

Is been a while that I left my public diary untouchable. Well, let's begin =)


Is gonna be 3 months gone in the year of 2011. It has been a tragic beginning for the year of 2011. It is in the paper and on the TV. Seriously, I do concern on what and how will the earth be as my life goes on. Will it end when I'm just about to begin my real life of being an adult? Well, we will just have to pray and live our life to the fullest!


My high school's life has ended for merely 3 months and everything seems to be okay, some has started their new college life, some gaining experience by working and earning themselves some pocket money, few went for National Service and for me, sports and outing is my life for the past 2 months after I quit working for some reasons. I'm very miserable these few days as SPM results are about to released. Think hard where shall I begin my studies. Many obstacles lies ahead and it drives me crazy! I have to make my mind clear as fast as I can before everything's too late for it.


Next, I do agree that this world has many miracle. =) Finally, I'm having a normal life with a better mood and emotion. Thinking back the past, where I always being emo, sad and unhappy. I begin my brighter side by knowing some of the friends that once we met before as stranger. Thanks to FACEBOOK where I can start off many friendship and stay contact with friends thru it. Beginning with a few ''Hello's'' and comments. Soon after the relationship getting stronger and that's where it begins.

Friends really do influece a lot in a person's life. From that case, it happened to me. After knewing them, they made me felt happier and something weird happen in me myself. Well, hope is jsut a weird by-passing feelings.

Finally, wish every SPM student good luck for Wednesday. No matter is a good or bad result everything is over and just face it. All the best.

Thanks

Thanks for everything. You had made me change to become a better person. I've tried my best to be someone special to you but I've failed. I really happy that you still treat me as 1 of your friend, eventhough I've a low status in you. We are only friends.

You're a person who I admire the most. The feeling towards you is undescribeable. I can't believe that I can cry because of you, changed because of you, because of you I've learnt a lot of lesson and loved you for so long. I may have failed, but, you have succeed what I wanted for all these while. If is not you, today's Julius Wong Yi Jin will not exist.

I really don't know what makes me so in love with you. The talent you got, the intelligence you have, the appearance you have, just anything about you. Remember 约定? this is the 1st song that you have played with a piano for me through the phone. There're a lot of memorable memories lie in me. My sacrifieses, time, effort, money, love are not wasted and it is worth to make you happy. I'm not selfish, I'm rasional but I'm stubborn and had a bad temper. I may be easy to get jealous, I might be annoying but everything I do, I'll think of the consequences and ready to accept it. The post that you have given me a big slap, I've it with me always. 4th August 2009.

Well, I guess we're just meant to be friends or best friends. Hope you can forgive about my past, and everything that I've did. I'm sorry that I often made you moody. I've made you mad at me for quite a lot of times. Lastly, good luck and all the best in future. Take care while in NS. God Bless.

It will be the last,
I Love You.
Friends forever.. =)

Christmas

Well, I don't know how do I feel now. Happy? Sad? or is it neutral? i don't know what bother me too. Every year, every time celebrate christmas I always put high hope and excited feelings in myself hoping that it is a perfect day and a special day for me to be remembered. But, maybe what i expect is way too high and will never get to achieve, that is what makes me feel like now.

Every year's Christmas, I always try my best to prepare a special and memorable present eventhough I know the present that I get back is something that is out of expectation. Search high and low, efforts and time. But, why I still try my best to give you a special and nice present? Is because I love you. Before I bought any of those present, I think and think and keep on thinking. How would a simple and low cost present could be special and meaningful.

I don't know what makes me so daring to wrote all these here. Is in my heart, I kept it for more than 2 years. I don't expect any expensive present or what. Whatever present you gave, I kept it nicely and appreciate it, a lot. It maybe the last year. I don't wish to. No one wish to have a last. So do me and you right? I've planned and dare myself to face rejection if I'm about to ask what I've wanted to ask, but, I guess the outcome would be the same.

I guessed, that's all for today's post.

Merry Christmas my friends!
be HAPPY,
be MERRY,
be with your love ones, family and friends.







signing off.....

Mid-Night Blues

You are my love..
Over the hills..
Under the clouds..
Nothing can stop my mind..
Gasping for air as my tears flow..

Everything to me is oni YOU..
Vine waving as wind blow..
On this land of greenery views..
Not oni eu appear in my mind..
Neither do my heart keep thinking of eu..
Eager to find the path to ur heart..

I cant see the truth in ur mind..

Lying to myself for the past years..
Only myself noe how much i love eu..
Viewing through ur beautiful eyes..
Everything aorund came to a stop..

You're the one i love..
Only this moment i could speak it out loud..
Urge to say I LOVE YOU!!!





signing off..

It's Over

Well, it has finally came to an end. High school life ended for at 8th of december 2010. I'm gonna start missing each of everyone of you including my uniform. Happy yet unhappy. Now, we are one step into the hectic society and persue our own dream. As for now, I'M FREEEEEE!!

15th December 2010,
Before we went to Jogoya, we sing out loud at Low Yat redbox with Tai, Min, Ycy, Ting, Me, Lim, Alex, Boon, Ryan, Carmen, Evonne and Vinnie. We missed a group photo at Redbox, wasted. At Jogoya with my buddies to have a blast of celebration after SPM and as for farewell to Kar Min and Boon's Birthday. A farewell not a treat. =P The bill that we paid was RM968.00 but I guessed the amount of food we ate is more than that. LOL. Took bunch of pictures with them.

After that, we went to Pavilion to catch the fake snow. Flooded with peoples and the ambiance is great! It seems like Christmas is here. Took a lot a lot a lot of pictures and met some friends there. Hope this coming Christmas will rewind the past 2 years.


Friends, I had a wonderful time with you all for the past 5 years. Many ups and downs. I really appreciate everyone of you. Friends forever.



signing off..

Jyin 傅健颖 - 我们会再见MV (Official Version)

Listen to the melody and the meaning of the lyrics. Proceed to the next article too. =)

Friendship Never Breaks

Friends, we have been together for 4 years and most of us are already been together for 5 years. The sorrow that we went through are more than we could ever imagine. Every single moment, every single joy that we have within us, will always be remembered. This coming examination, will be the last time that we will be in the smart uniform, sitting together beneath one roof, in a hectic hall chasing our own dreams together. All the best!

Well, I would like to apologise sincerely for each of every mistake that I've did towards you all. What I gain, I learned, I experienced is really priceless and I will treasures that in my heart as we go on to persue our dream. The sweet memories that I will never forget;

went for school together, crapping around, have meal during recess, teasing around, falling in love with classmate, competing each other during sportsday, supporting and cheer, went tuition, play truancy during the last period, last minute assignment, study untill wee hours during exams, comparing results and last but not least, birthday treats. Remember all these? it happened during our life in high school. The friendship between us will never break.

Tomorrow, 15th November 2010, will be the last day for us to be together and there will be a great bash of party for us. I hope that I wont shed tears during this bash and you all wont shed tears too right? =P After this, we will be facing SPM and that is it, the end. I hope that, after the dismissal, we can have reunion that will be attended by all of you. Tears from my eyes just burst out as I wrote this article. I know, some of you will shed tears tomorrow, but, promise not to tears okay? =')

Well, let's pray and hope that everyone of us will succeed. Friends, you all are the best! Good Luck!

给我答应我们会再见, 给我信心我们会再见, 什么距离都不算远! No matter how far we all will be, I believe that everyone of us will meet again! I will never erased the memories of being with you all.

Love,
Julius. (5S1-2010)