Mentally Disturb

recently, i kept many things to myself.. i cant stand it anymore.. i would say it all out here.. sry if i did said anything wrong.. wat i've done recently i really annoying from my POV.. i'm sure nt all but some ppl do dislike me.. eu all noe urself whether eu dislike me anot.. every cloud gt its silver lining.. yes i admit i do lk to hav girls around and i lk to make funny funny things to disturb them.. but sometimes.. mayb i'm wrong.. jealousy will really spoil buddy's relationship.. the power of love tht leads to jealousy will make a pair of best buddy dislike each other.. issit worth? i dunno whether i gt the rights to say bout ppl.. all these while i kip hiding my feeling to myself deep beneath my heart.. say easier thn done.. wat i see and feel is really annoying.. i don't understand.. y everything i did as the same with others, but always i'm the 1 who ppl thinks tht i'm wrong and the other party will dislike me.. y issit lk this? does the word FAIR do exist in this bloody world?

i'm tired of caring others feeling.. talk to tht girl hav to make sure tht the 1 who admire was nt around.. or whn talking to a girl must nt tease or make jokes or make them laugh infront them.. or else.. a joke would b some kind of flirting stuff.. sensitivty of a person really makes us nt happy.. i do admit sometimes the things i said really make ppl dislike me.. there's no offense in this blog.. i didnt say is who or watever.. dun b self concious.. 1 more lil thing.. even if i owe money.. do eu think it is great to tell the whole world ''JULIUS OWE ME MONEY''.. say till so long also no use.. my blog is bored with all these emo stuff.. just wanna say.. there is no FAIR this word in my dictionary.. frends do betray.. frends do dislike each other.. frends do say bz if they nid help..

Ain't nothing..

is been long time since i updated last post.. hell lot of things happen.. currently having intervension exam for the vr last day.. getting out from hell..xD well.. it seems i've already let her go.. but still.. there's many thing tht will remind me of her.. for wat i've done recently hope tht she felt tht i've let her go.. but yet she is still in my heart deep below.. some say i'm avoiding her..some say i'm just fooling around saying tht i've gave up.. i dun care watever shit they all say.. i noe wat am i doin.. lol.. after this vr important year.. we'll b split.. having own interest and time.. hmmm.. really hope tht someday i could tell her tht i've always been looking at her and still loving her as much as last time..

enough of tht i think.. some bloody issues happened between me and a lil kid.. lolz.. he think he damn good tht i cant even compare with him.. is tht a joke? who do he think he is? putting shit on my face.. yes.. i admit.. hw hardworking am i also.. my result will b nt as good as eu.. but do eu think eu gt the right to say tht i'm nt compatible with eu? for me.. eu're just a kid.. nt much about maturity and eu always think tht eu're aaaaaaaalways better thn me.. go dream better.. i might lose to eu in academic.. just oni tht field.. c urself in shit oni codemn me.. eu ain't nothing.. from nw on.. i won't even respect eu..

well.. let's cheers for the upcoming CNY.. =)

Last Year of School

5th Jan 10..

guess what.. is the beginning of the year 2010..
and i'm back to school for the last year!! xD
but this year should b a stress year for me..
this year is the vital year of my life..
SPM Examination year..
is where my life start and i've to get good result for this exam..
is the turning point of my life.. whether to b in a good path or bad 1..

hmmmmm...
nth much special things happened in school for these 2days..
this year time i'm sitting with tai and min which r 2 of the best student..
lol.. h0pe tht there's no changes made by our new class teacher..
ytd was the 1st day of school and went tuition after..
my tuition started at 4.15 and end up in 7.00 in the evening..
OMG~! i was nt at home for merely 14 hours! lolz..

oh ya.. b4 tht.. i got my result for 2009 end year exam..
once i gt the result.. i was lk.. wtf? am i in deep shit?
i was so disappointed with my result.. it was 23/27..
at the tail of the class.. and i'm the oni 1 to failed history in this class..
is tht wat i call ashamed in a top class??
oh pls dun look me down.. i'm getting start pulling myself up from a deep shit pool..

i really nid to work double harder to get myself of the tail of the class..
if i work hard everything would b smoother later in the year..
when there's a will, there's a road.. i hope tht's right.. lolz..
cheers!

the end..