Happy Birthday!! xD

well.. my birthday party just ended.. is kinda special party tht i had.. 1st time open birthday party.. is nt vr successful but i appreciate eu guys come to my house.. tai, min, ycy, ting, lim, zu, alex, boon, ryan, lyn, julia, yin mei, yun ying, carmen and evon.. thx for giving me face to attend this party.. although is my birthday, but still i'm nt vr happy.. i duno y.. i received many many wishes through sms and facebook.. thx for the wishes friends..

there're various of food tht they brought.. fried rice, friend mee hun, hot dog, wedges, nuggets, fries and ice-cream.. ycy and tai brought their guitar here and played it.. i sang many songs with tai tht expressed my feeling.. i hope he noe tht.. many ppl went back early as i thought.. yin mei nt feeling well, julia went out with family.. but i really unhappy bout 1 thing.. lyn told me tht she can go back anytime and quite late.. but i really cant expect tht she went back b4 she manage to taste the cake.. tht is wat i most unhappy about.. besides, i heard something tht really hurts me deeply.. mayb i'm too sensitive oveer it.. mayb is just a joke ba.. oh ya.. carmen, pls dun force her to do something tht she dun lk ba.. no use de.. but thx for ur effort..

bout the present.. currently i just received 2 present from 8 ppl.. lol? tai and min, thx for the white watch.. lyn, hua, vinnie, yin mei, carmen and evon thx for the frog shirt.. is kinda too long for the shirt and too big for the watch.. lol.. well.. is very hard to act happy whn in heart my heart is vr sad.. vr vr xin ku.. lol.. many ups and downs in just a day.. lol.. cool 1.. hmmmmmm... some of them couldn't come i'm really disappointed.. JE and vinnie..

evonne.. lol.. i couldn't bliv tht i couldn't face u.. i'm vr happy whn the moment eu said 生日快乐 to me.. i'm vr vr happy tht moment.. lol.. is kinda funny though.. we ended up lk this.. i really wish to talk to eu.. i really wish to joke with u.. i really wish to take pic with u.. i really wish to hug eu today.. i really wish for many things.. but i just couldn't do it.. y i choose this path.. hope god could let me a nother chance to choose another good path...

anyway.. thanks for coming friends!!
eu all r the best!!


signing off..

CNY is over..

well.. since long time ago i updated my blog.. lols.. this sunday is a vr special day.. is the last day of CNY and is also my birthday.. this year's CNY is vr special.. 1st day was clash with Valentine and nw.. the last day clash with my birthday.. there many ups and downs had happen.. getting lost of myself.. i dunno wat to do and i dun even noe wat the hell am i thinking all these while.. recently vr tired and vr vr vr down.. kip listening to slow and sentimental song.. make the environment vr down.. lay down on my bed, looking up the ceiling thinking watever i wanted to solve and hope.. arms of clock working its way to 12..1..2..3.. and i'm still awake thinking and thinking.. moon glares and morning shines again quickly.. i cant even get enuff sleep.. wat is she thinking.. who am i? wat am i up to?

i injured my leg.. struggling to perform.. nth works for me so far.. getting lazier.. emotional.. well.. thts it i think.. all wells end well pls.. god bless..

sigining off..

Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!xD

2.21 a.m. is the 1st day of CNY and is also Valentine's Day.. just had a wonderful celebration at a nearby temple.. lion dance, fireworks, cheering and lots of stuff.. although i'm happy [i think so] but kinda emo just nw.. lolz.. well.. i still cant giv wat she needs and cant cheer her up while she is bored.. haih.. hmmmm.. still hav some prob with the way she reply my msg.. duno y i felt tht she lk vr arrogant.. lolz.. well.. thts all ba.. tomolo still nid to visit..

signing off..


Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!

Nice Day!

TAI, MIN, YCY, RYAN, LIM, TING, EVON, MARIE and i went to pavillion today.. it was the 2nd time i went out with MARIE.. lolz.. we went for [[大日子]] it was a 10 out of 10 rate of movie for me.. it was vr touching, funny and it consist of some MEMORIES for me too.. 1st time sit with RYAN in the cinema.. dunno y recently vr good with him but still always get scolded by me..xD well.. let's talk bout the story.. Ah Beng is vr sad bcause his neighbour Ah Lian kip ''LC'' him saying tht he cant manage to bring his parents for holiday.. lolz.. the touching part was when they decided to leave another Ah Lian in Kelantan bcause she lied to them saying tht she'll pay salary to them if they willing to train WooHoo (tarian harimau) to represent tht kampung.. she just dowan her Ah Gong to continue WooHoo bause of his age.. so she decided to do tht.. Ah Beng, Ah Huat and another guy i frgt wat name dy.. they were angry and leave the place.. b4 they leave.. they receive ang pau each from Ah Gong and some money from a lil girl.. i nearly cried out.. lol..

hmmm.. bout Mindy and Ah Huat.. they loved each other vr much but still there's something tht distrupt them tht makes them seperated.. i frgt who said tht.. eu wont noe if the one who really love eu is just right beside eu.. i think of SUMONE and i tears soundly.. serious.. =( i really hope tht she'll noe hw much i love her and i really mean it.. is there really obstacles between us? i can feel something is nt right between us but tak tau wats tht.. haih.. times takes it all..

after movie.. we went for food.. while MARIE whn to order food.. i take the chance to talk to her.. just hav a short conversation and MARIE is back.. duno y vr bu zhi zai whn talk to her and her facial expression is vr cute.. =) charming.. lovely.. cut her hair.. still pretty.. ^^ well.. i understand nw the song nothing's gonna change my love for eu this phrase does exsist in real life.. came thru many obstacles but still i'm so in love with eu.. I LOVE YOU!!!

after eat.. whn to TS walk a bout an hour plus.. went to F.O.S bought a shirt cost at RM30.. thx to min and ycy again.. really like eu guys.. but time is short for me with her.. at TS we walk on our own and she walk with MARIE.. soon after.. went home around 5.30 p.m.. got a check with her by texting her whether where she is.. i wonder hw she feels today? wat she feels bout me? do i cared bout her safety or watever bout her and her sis? did i done wat i nid to do? did i get wat she nid for her today? did i brought her happiness today? hmmm.. wat a day it was.. i really happy today.. but still nt a 100% perfect day for me.. =) cheeerr!!

sigining off at 11.55p.m..

sad sad day..

2010 start nt long and i can feel tht this year is nt the year for me.. many things tht is unpredictable will happen.. many things changes.. at first.. i tot i could manage to let go something tht on my back for merely 3 years.. but it nvr happen.. day by day hiding myself in my room thinking something which is nt deserve or dun really nid to think tht thing.. wtf happen to me.. result getting worse.. cant really concentrate in class.. getting much more lazy.. this year's CNY falls together with Valentine's Day.. it shud b a romantic CNY for those who r in relationship.. hope tht this year's valentine wont b feeling lonely and hope tht i really can dun think about Valentine's Day..

smkcp's football team is getting better or weaker i also duno.. we miss Mr.Abdullah the best coach i ever met in my reality.. nw change to a bitch coach Mr.Khairul and Mr.Alias.. but on the player side.. the player r getting quite stronger but the amount of CHINESE is getting lesser and lesser.. over to the educational field.. haih.. full with disappointment.. english society i cant get any position neither do HANG LEKIU our school sports 'house'.. nw my oni hope is badminton club.. i hav no confident this year tht i could make it to school's football team neither do the sport's day 'acara'.. i hav no confident towards myself this year.. =(

hmmm.. really cant think of wat i nid to do.. a heavy backpack is getting much more heavy.. no matter wat i did hw good i treated ... but still there will b no outcome i guess.. i noe i'm wasting my time onsomething tht is imposibble tht many ppl told me b4.. but i really cant let it go.. i've tried vr hard.. but.. =( thts all ba.. hope for a better tomolo..

signing off.. unhappy day.. 040210