Damn it~!

today..
08.09.09
the day went bad..

the first time i cry in school~!!
nt cry really.. just gt tears fl0ws out..
i'm really suffering =(
watching them play..
i n0e they're having a lot of fun..
there're best buddy..

y tht guy oni noe hw to school ppl and stare at ppl whn ppl disturb sum1 he lk?
whn eu beat her i saw it~!
hw i felt?!
but well..
dun nid to care bout me..
i'm nt anyone to her too..
she enjoy playing with eu all nt me..
so..
mayb.. i shoudn't care so much bout this matter..

from wat i c from my EYES..
she's having nice time with both of them..
even if i avoid her..
she dun even care or mind bout it..
mayb my act is nt right..
but..
hmmm...
duno larhx..
she bcome vr active recently in class..
duno wat makes her turn lk tht..
well..
i better dun care so much barhx..
she's hapii thn enuff barhx..

ytd..
am i stupid or wat???
i waited her at school..
walking up and down.. fa bai ri mong at corridor..
waited her till 2p.m. which our school ends at 12.30p.m..
i frgt tht she gt tuition..
but.. i was surprise tht she didnt go..
lyn said tht she's having stomache.. she's alright i guess..

wat pisssed myself is..
i didnt even look at her whn i was goin out from the school..
nt even a look or a bye~!!
i'm sry.. i'm such coward..
wat's the matter with me?!!
i felt so bad recently..
i wonder hw she thinks bout me.. haih..
suan larhx..
day by day hour by hour passes throughout my life..
hope for a better tomolo.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 35 :::...

...::: long term friends are always feeling comfortable :::...

...::: end :::...

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