Thanks

Thanks for everything. You had made me change to become a better person. I've tried my best to be someone special to you but I've failed. I really happy that you still treat me as 1 of your friend, eventhough I've a low status in you. We are only friends.

You're a person who I admire the most. The feeling towards you is undescribeable. I can't believe that I can cry because of you, changed because of you, because of you I've learnt a lot of lesson and loved you for so long. I may have failed, but, you have succeed what I wanted for all these while. If is not you, today's Julius Wong Yi Jin will not exist.

I really don't know what makes me so in love with you. The talent you got, the intelligence you have, the appearance you have, just anything about you. Remember 约定? this is the 1st song that you have played with a piano for me through the phone. There're a lot of memorable memories lie in me. My sacrifieses, time, effort, money, love are not wasted and it is worth to make you happy. I'm not selfish, I'm rasional but I'm stubborn and had a bad temper. I may be easy to get jealous, I might be annoying but everything I do, I'll think of the consequences and ready to accept it. The post that you have given me a big slap, I've it with me always. 4th August 2009.

Well, I guess we're just meant to be friends or best friends. Hope you can forgive about my past, and everything that I've did. I'm sorry that I often made you moody. I've made you mad at me for quite a lot of times. Lastly, good luck and all the best in future. Take care while in NS. God Bless.

It will be the last,
I Love You.
Friends forever.. =)

end hurtly.. start a new beginning?

well..
nth much to say actually..
go school as normal..
go tuition as normal..
everyday rain..

it seems many things changes..
i'm mad now.. lolx..
planning for holiday outing.. too early? lolxx..
final exam yet to come.. must work harder..
prove tht i'm nt USELESS~!!

hmmmm...
i'm trying hard to treat everyone fairly..
no one is better or good.. just all are same..
especially her.. but.. it seems for her lk nth~~
the gaps are widening.. nw thr's a big hole between us~~
all come to an end..
should i start from zero? or hav a new beginning?

scene captures by our eyes will last in our heart forever..
picture captures by camera are just a flash back memory tht wont last forever..
every words said will kip in our heart..
every words recorded will once be deleted..
being happy, life goes through happily..
being sad, life feels meaningless..

10月1号2009年晴天..

...::: game over :::...

...::: 来个好的开始好吗? :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -2.15p.m- ]

[ -1st October 2009- ]

eu're rite..

evonne..
eu're rite..
i cant even take care of myself hw could i take care of eu?
sry if i failed to cheer or help eu out something..

i really cant understand myself..
wat i nid..
wat is my ability..
i can even noe wat is up with me..
i'm bz body thts wat i noe..

ppl talking to me..
even she herself call me to giv up..
i'm just being stubborn..
haih..
wat i wan actually?!! GOD!!!

i just wish to noe everything..
i just wish to noe wat others thinking..
i just wish to do i could change everything..
i just wish to hav a happy life lk anyone else!!

in the end..
i torture myself..
i hurt myself..
making myself just thinking on something tht shouldn't been thinking nw..
making my studies down to drain..

wat i gt in the end??
nth..
everything seems worthless..
hurt..
cry..
being hate by ppl..
i'm being such an annoying person..

it seems i dun look lk a guy..
cry n cry n cry..
frends trying to cheer me up..
console me..
but.. i just cant let eu go..
i did count..

i already loving eu for..
785days..
day by day i counted..
well..
my wish is getting simple n much more simple..
nw i just wish to b a best frend of urs..
and hope eu could treat me lk others in 4s1..
haih..

God Bless Me.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 27 :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -1.46a.m- ]

[ -31st August 09- ]

Am i worse thn ever?

i'm vr unwell today..
first of all..
yes.. i disrespect teacher..
it should nt b happening..
and it happens on me..

cant she c i didnt even talk?
yes.. i noe she is teaching.. but i'm bored with wat she is repeating..
but i still didnt talk..
Alex just pass me back a piece of paper and she thought i'm talking..
fine~!!
called me to the front and explain?
yes.. i noe wat is all about..
i just dun wanna go out..
tot just stay quiet she'll continue..
but she play small gas game? went out to the staff room?
nt even 15mins come back? wat for?

finally i explained..
anything still wanna say? say i dun pay attention larhx..
yes.. i'm in big trouble..
is my mistake.. is my wrong..
she BLAME nicely.. mayb is for gud..
alright..
from this occassion..
most of 4S1 will chg the way they think of me..
i dun hav moral.. i disrespect teacher..

tai..
vinnie..
lyn..
carmen..
evonne..
julia..
mee yuk..
jie yi..
yean ching..
kar min..
Alex..

i apologise for all of eu..
i make eu all in trouble for doin 5times correction..
my reputation all gone just for this incident..
as for evonne..
i've gav her a bad inspiration..
as i'm nt a gud person n inmorale person..

a good flower just ruined by just a cut..
tall tree came down timber by just a saw..
everything came dark whn thunderstorm strikes..
i'm doomed..

i noe i made a big mistake..
whn i ignored wat teacher said..
saying her bout being small gas..
i'm 1 of it too..
sry for changing the view of everything..

sry for everything..
mayb i'm really nt a gud guy after all..
for those who hav read this blog..
pls pls pls pls pls..
scold me..
comment bout me..
speak out my mistake..

PLEASE~!!

...::: withdrawn day 16 :::...

...::: there's no turning back to a better beginning :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -7.26p.m- ]

[ -20th August 09- ]

untitled

4th August 09..
something had happen..
coming days it wont b same..
y all this come all of a sudden?

this matter is getting from bad to worst..
last nite..
tears flows out..
2 hours of time it nvr stop..

i'm tired..

deeply hurt..

depressed..

screwed..

wat shud i really do to face this all alone?
well..
yea.. mayb eu're rite..
frend would b more comfortable for both of us..
i noe many ppl backstabbed us..
is really annoying..
and..
i also noe eu dun lk it too..
pls..
dun object me.. i noe eu'll say i dunno eu well..

i'm short..

i'm nt smart..

i'm small gas..

i'm always the emo 1..

well..
hope our relationship of frend can last 4ever..
dun nid to say sry or wat..
yes..
nw i'm awake..
i cant understand eu well..
i duno wat eu think..
i duno hw eu feel..
but..
i really didnt regret in loving eu..
thts all..

erm..
actually..
i've been standing hard for the way eu treat me differently..
and i hope this will stop..
is really hard to stand..
well..
sry for every problem thn i caused..

frend forever? ^^

...::: withdrawn day 1 :::...

...::: letting go of something mayb a gud start :::...

...::: learn from mistake :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -10.39p.m- ]

[ -5th August 09- ]