Dream

fr wat tht hav pass..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..

sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?



history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?


as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..


yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..


is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..

'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''

thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?


but how?
hmmm...


dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..

good, bad and now worse..

well.. many things had happened and days has past.. at first.. happy to b with a friendly and crazyyy friend.. haha!! nice chatting with though..

10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..

as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(

3rd of August 2010

heyya! wassup. long time didnt blog d. hmmmm.. is been already 5~6 months rite? watever.
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~

next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)

soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..

okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..

everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(

lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..

u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(

Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..



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signing off.. peace..