To You

yes,
this post is for u..

At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.

Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.

Trial Results..

currently..
my trial results are..

Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+

still nid improvement!!

Good Luck for Trials!

23rd September 2010..
SPM Trial officially started..
it will gonne b a harshful 3weeks of exam..

1st week shud b nt tensed up..
2nd and 3rd week are the most challenging week tht we hav to go thru..

well..
wat i can say is..
good luck and all the best!!

Cherish!!

recently..
something happened to my family..
my grandpa admitted to hospital for artery replacement..
he already admitted for about 2 weeks+ and finally operated..
bfore his operation,
i visited him few times and hav some talk, c-ing him smile, walking here and thr..
his condition kinda good and he's lk no fear of the operation..

till today..
he finally have his operation yesterday..
and i had my 1st visit after his operation..
once i reached..
i went to call him and greet him..
he looked and hav a smile on me..
i was relieved and tears about to flow..
in my heart.. i said.. ''thx god''
till thn he sleep all the way and we left he opened his eye say say bye to us..
on da way back..
i kip on thinking about the past..
hw good he treat me, hw good is he..

so,
cherish everyone tht is still around b4 is too late..
god bless.. =)

passed my undang too!
47/50..

start studying for exams d..

Julius 加油!!

Dream

fr wat tht hav pass..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..

sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?



history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?


as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..


yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..


is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..

'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''

thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?


but how?
hmmm...


dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..

good, bad and now worse..

well.. many things had happened and days has past.. at first.. happy to b with a friendly and crazyyy friend.. haha!! nice chatting with though..

10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..

as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(

3rd of August 2010

heyya! wassup. long time didnt blog d. hmmmm.. is been already 5~6 months rite? watever.
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~

next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)

soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..

okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..

everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(

lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..

u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(

Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..



.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........
.........

signing off.. peace..

Happy Birthday!! xD

well.. my birthday party just ended.. is kinda special party tht i had.. 1st time open birthday party.. is nt vr successful but i appreciate eu guys come to my house.. tai, min, ycy, ting, lim, zu, alex, boon, ryan, lyn, julia, yin mei, yun ying, carmen and evon.. thx for giving me face to attend this party.. although is my birthday, but still i'm nt vr happy.. i duno y.. i received many many wishes through sms and facebook.. thx for the wishes friends..

there're various of food tht they brought.. fried rice, friend mee hun, hot dog, wedges, nuggets, fries and ice-cream.. ycy and tai brought their guitar here and played it.. i sang many songs with tai tht expressed my feeling.. i hope he noe tht.. many ppl went back early as i thought.. yin mei nt feeling well, julia went out with family.. but i really unhappy bout 1 thing.. lyn told me tht she can go back anytime and quite late.. but i really cant expect tht she went back b4 she manage to taste the cake.. tht is wat i most unhappy about.. besides, i heard something tht really hurts me deeply.. mayb i'm too sensitive oveer it.. mayb is just a joke ba.. oh ya.. carmen, pls dun force her to do something tht she dun lk ba.. no use de.. but thx for ur effort..

bout the present.. currently i just received 2 present from 8 ppl.. lol? tai and min, thx for the white watch.. lyn, hua, vinnie, yin mei, carmen and evon thx for the frog shirt.. is kinda too long for the shirt and too big for the watch.. lol.. well.. is very hard to act happy whn in heart my heart is vr sad.. vr vr xin ku.. lol.. many ups and downs in just a day.. lol.. cool 1.. hmmmmmm... some of them couldn't come i'm really disappointed.. JE and vinnie..

evonne.. lol.. i couldn't bliv tht i couldn't face u.. i'm vr happy whn the moment eu said 生日快乐 to me.. i'm vr vr happy tht moment.. lol.. is kinda funny though.. we ended up lk this.. i really wish to talk to eu.. i really wish to joke with u.. i really wish to take pic with u.. i really wish to hug eu today.. i really wish for many things.. but i just couldn't do it.. y i choose this path.. hope god could let me a nother chance to choose another good path...

anyway.. thanks for coming friends!!
eu all r the best!!


signing off..

CNY is over..

well.. since long time ago i updated my blog.. lols.. this sunday is a vr special day.. is the last day of CNY and is also my birthday.. this year's CNY is vr special.. 1st day was clash with Valentine and nw.. the last day clash with my birthday.. there many ups and downs had happen.. getting lost of myself.. i dunno wat to do and i dun even noe wat the hell am i thinking all these while.. recently vr tired and vr vr vr down.. kip listening to slow and sentimental song.. make the environment vr down.. lay down on my bed, looking up the ceiling thinking watever i wanted to solve and hope.. arms of clock working its way to 12..1..2..3.. and i'm still awake thinking and thinking.. moon glares and morning shines again quickly.. i cant even get enuff sleep.. wat is she thinking.. who am i? wat am i up to?

i injured my leg.. struggling to perform.. nth works for me so far.. getting lazier.. emotional.. well.. thts it i think.. all wells end well pls.. god bless..

sigining off..

Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!xD

2.21 a.m. is the 1st day of CNY and is also Valentine's Day.. just had a wonderful celebration at a nearby temple.. lion dance, fireworks, cheering and lots of stuff.. although i'm happy [i think so] but kinda emo just nw.. lolz.. well.. i still cant giv wat she needs and cant cheer her up while she is bored.. haih.. hmmmm.. still hav some prob with the way she reply my msg.. duno y i felt tht she lk vr arrogant.. lolz.. well.. thts all ba.. tomolo still nid to visit..

signing off..


Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!