Mentally Disturb

recently, i kept many things to myself.. i cant stand it anymore.. i would say it all out here.. sry if i did said anything wrong.. wat i've done recently i really annoying from my POV.. i'm sure nt all but some ppl do dislike me.. eu all noe urself whether eu dislike me anot.. every cloud gt its silver lining.. yes i admit i do lk to hav girls around and i lk to make funny funny things to disturb them.. but sometimes.. mayb i'm wrong.. jealousy will really spoil buddy's relationship.. the power of love tht leads to jealousy will make a pair of best buddy dislike each other.. issit worth? i dunno whether i gt the rights to say bout ppl.. all these while i kip hiding my feeling to myself deep beneath my heart.. say easier thn done.. wat i see and feel is really annoying.. i don't understand.. y everything i did as the same with others, but always i'm the 1 who ppl thinks tht i'm wrong and the other party will dislike me.. y issit lk this? does the word FAIR do exist in this bloody world?

i'm tired of caring others feeling.. talk to tht girl hav to make sure tht the 1 who admire was nt around.. or whn talking to a girl must nt tease or make jokes or make them laugh infront them.. or else.. a joke would b some kind of flirting stuff.. sensitivty of a person really makes us nt happy.. i do admit sometimes the things i said really make ppl dislike me.. there's no offense in this blog.. i didnt say is who or watever.. dun b self concious.. 1 more lil thing.. even if i owe money.. do eu think it is great to tell the whole world ''JULIUS OWE ME MONEY''.. say till so long also no use.. my blog is bored with all these emo stuff.. just wanna say.. there is no FAIR this word in my dictionary.. frends do betray.. frends do dislike each other.. frends do say bz if they nid help..

Ain't nothing..

is been long time since i updated last post.. hell lot of things happen.. currently having intervension exam for the vr last day.. getting out from hell..xD well.. it seems i've already let her go.. but still.. there's many thing tht will remind me of her.. for wat i've done recently hope tht she felt tht i've let her go.. but yet she is still in my heart deep below.. some say i'm avoiding her..some say i'm just fooling around saying tht i've gave up.. i dun care watever shit they all say.. i noe wat am i doin.. lol.. after this vr important year.. we'll b split.. having own interest and time.. hmmm.. really hope tht someday i could tell her tht i've always been looking at her and still loving her as much as last time..

enough of tht i think.. some bloody issues happened between me and a lil kid.. lolz.. he think he damn good tht i cant even compare with him.. is tht a joke? who do he think he is? putting shit on my face.. yes.. i admit.. hw hardworking am i also.. my result will b nt as good as eu.. but do eu think eu gt the right to say tht i'm nt compatible with eu? for me.. eu're just a kid.. nt much about maturity and eu always think tht eu're aaaaaaaalways better thn me.. go dream better.. i might lose to eu in academic.. just oni tht field.. c urself in shit oni codemn me.. eu ain't nothing.. from nw on.. i won't even respect eu..

well.. let's cheers for the upcoming CNY.. =)

Last Year of School

5th Jan 10..

guess what.. is the beginning of the year 2010..
and i'm back to school for the last year!! xD
but this year should b a stress year for me..
this year is the vital year of my life..
SPM Examination year..
is where my life start and i've to get good result for this exam..
is the turning point of my life.. whether to b in a good path or bad 1..

hmmmmm...
nth much special things happened in school for these 2days..
this year time i'm sitting with tai and min which r 2 of the best student..
lol.. h0pe tht there's no changes made by our new class teacher..
ytd was the 1st day of school and went tuition after..
my tuition started at 4.15 and end up in 7.00 in the evening..
OMG~! i was nt at home for merely 14 hours! lolz..

oh ya.. b4 tht.. i got my result for 2009 end year exam..
once i gt the result.. i was lk.. wtf? am i in deep shit?
i was so disappointed with my result.. it was 23/27..
at the tail of the class.. and i'm the oni 1 to failed history in this class..
is tht wat i call ashamed in a top class??
oh pls dun look me down.. i'm getting start pulling myself up from a deep shit pool..

i really nid to work double harder to get myself of the tail of the class..
if i work hard everything would b smoother later in the year..
when there's a will, there's a road.. i hope tht's right.. lolz..
cheers!

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well..
after all the years..
next year is the year tht all my frends hav to study harder..
is the year tht decide the path of our life..

hmmm..
giving out present is nt about the cost of it..
just the 'xin yi' from urself..
buying expensive present, making a charming present doesnt show any love..
make the one eu love feel ur 'xin yi' out of tht present..

make clear of urself..
whether worth to buy a present for the eu love anot..
make clear of urself..
whether who is she to eu..
make clear of urself..
after all ur effort and there is no reponse, whether eu shud put it down or nt..
make clear of urself..
do eu really love the one tht eu're proposing..

whn is too late..
ppl will think eu use money to buy his/her heart..
whn is too late..
eu will find is stupid to do such thing to him/her..
whn is too late..
ur heart will b broken down into pieces, losing self confidence..
whn is too late..
eu'll find tht eu're wasting time and effort on him/her..

watever eu do to him/her tht is really came from ur heart..
he/she will feel it..
whether right or wrong..
he/she will forgive and cherish watever eu do..
if eu're the one..
he/she will never hurt eu..

happiness r nt given by anyone..
eu r the one who reach for the happiness..
sadness r nt selfborn expression..
eu r the one who made urself sad..
love r nt provide in any circumstances..
eu r the one who find the love out of ur heart and cherish it..

path of ur life, ur heart, ur feelings, ur thaughts, and ur wills r nt sh0wn..
find urself a good path to walk through..
make urself clear of wat eu wan and make every decisions wisely..
once fallen and mistaken..
there's no turning back..

i've learn from many mistake..
i've done many mistake..
i've made many ppl dislike me..
i've made someone who i love feel annoyed..
i've made myself sad and disappointed..
i've made myself dull..

chances r nt always given..
but once there's a chance..
cherish it..

look into urself..
ask urself..
wat shud b done and wat shudn't b done..
is every decision eu made is clear from ur mind..
is it worth to play on relationship or having 2 mates at once..
hw would they feel?

watever it is..
choices r made by ourself..
wat i've done, there's no turning back..
changing the face can change nothing..
facing the change can change everything..
dont compare oneself with another..
tht's insulting urself..

dont turn back and chg the beginning..
move forward and start a new beginning..

New Year! l0lz

well.
in a blink of an eye..
CHristmas is 0ver and now looking forward for new year..

hmmm.. time passes so fast..
this Christmas season i've been to many places to view the deco of it..
pavillion.. klcc.. times square.. leisure mall.. Pyramid.. sg wang..
but i still love pavillion's deco the most..

well..
this christmas was the most loneliness i had for all these time..
went to evon's church to hav a celebration..
exchange gift.. eat.. chat.. photo.. but sadly..
we didnt managae to take pic together.. i mean just oni me n her..
hmmm..
half of the day i was vr down..
walking alone in shopping mall at pavillion and ts..
bunch of friends were enjoying there... lolz..

well..
nth much to say..
hope eu'll lk my present.. ^^
f0rm 5 life is coming.. let's face it together..
2010 here i come..

hereby.
i wish to my friends..
do enjoy the holiday and cant wait to c eu all in school..
next year woukd b a tough year..
and might b our last year studying together..
i really miss the time whn we're still in 4S1..
lolz.. lets pray.. hope we'll b together forever no matter whr we r..
Friends forever.. ^^

ALL THE BEST!
and

Happy 27th.. =) get well soon..

2.22am****
27th December 2009****

Christmas is here s00n!!

t0day..
16/12/09..
an0ther 0uting with frendz!

..:: NameListz ::..

`` Julius
`` Ev0n
`` Tai
`` CarmEn
`` Min
`` Ycy
`` Ryan
`` Ting
`` Alex
`` B00n
`` Lim

went t0 redb0x early in the aftErn00n.. xD
the price is nice..
the sound system is sux..
the food is uhh~~!!
l0lz.. but i h0pe they enjoy laa..
even i dun..
my throat was terrifying making my v0ice weird while singing..

hmmm...
傻瓜 this song really killing me..
especially she sing it.. is w0nderful..
had quite a l0t 0f fun there..
but..
whn singing N0thing G0nna Change My L0ve F0r Eu..
i was looking at her.. my heart were saying tht t0 her.. l0lz
hmmmm.. l0lz.. speechless..

after tht we went t0 pavilli0n with0ut..
ting, alex and boon coz they went f0r L4D2..
0nce we reached thr we t00k picture with my ph0ne! xD

the 1st pic 0nce we step int0 pavilli0n!

thn we went f0r m0vie..
we keep deciding whether t0 watch wat m0vie..

st0rm warri0rs....z0mbieland..
st0rm warri0rs....santau..
finally..
we..
watched..
The Princess and The Fr0g! ==
bef0re the m0vie start we hav a walk and drink..
all gam mai play me and ev0n.. ==
carmen, ycy and taii.. ><
but i enjoy.. l0lz.. swt.. ==''

well this m0vie quite nice.. funny.. musical~~ l0lz..
hmmmm..
0h ya.. pavilli0n GSC's seat r c0mfy!! xD
is the 2nd time i seat with eu during m0vie.. l0lz..
thn we went back ar0und 6.30..

t00k s0me pics bf0re went h0me..

ev0n smile laaa~~ ^^

terrible thing starts..
m0n0rail was sux!
in just tht 2 stati0ns peri0d..
my heart were pumping extreamly fast..
w0rrying b0ut tht 2 girls..
this and tht bla bla bla..
she even stuck in the train.. @@
but lastly we all safely came 0ut fr0m tht sandwich baker.. l0lz..

went h0me..
bath..
dinner..
0nline..
and nw..

g00d nite!!
hapii day!! ^^

12月16号2009年, 半请半雨天..

hmmmm?

eu're beautiful..
eu're smart..
eu're cool..
eu're adorable..
eu're charm..
eu're my everything..

i dunno hw t0 cherish..
in fact i always find out trouble..

y am i so stubb0rn..
y am i so stupid in every act?
y am i so childish?!

chg Julius chg!
dun b stubborn..
nonody will like it! ==

12月13号2009年, 晴天..

haih....

well well well..
nth much to blog..
holiday passes vr fast..
nt much ppl online..
getting up with the tuition life and getting ready to face f0rm5 challenge..

christmas is coming too..
everywhere in KL shopping mall do have many attractive deco..
the feel of christmas in my heart is growing stronger! xD
Cold War starts again.. ==
y always lk tht?
my fault or ur fault?
v cant get vr well with each other these days..
argh!!!

well..
sry for everything..
eu're free nw..

12月12号2009年, 请天..

Hapii 0r Sad?

well..
0ur c0ld war started again..
countdown 4days le.. lolz..
mayb is good.. can do own things freely..

hmmm...
nth to blog actually..
Christmas is near and i'll get my new phone soon! ^^
errrr...
i duno i shud b hapii or sad whn i heard tht news.. lolz..
anyway.. best wished..

12月12号2009年, 请天....

wat's wr0ng with me!!

wat the hell happen with me..
in this 2days i hav made her pissed 0ff.. in just these 2days!

what's wrong with me~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shud i just shut up..
uhh~~

12月4号2009年, 雨天..