Well, time is been flying fast these days. Perhaps, we will b saying goodbye to each other as soon as we end our high school life in December. 1st of all, i'm kinda disappointed on something which wat i saw few hours ago mayb? but wat i really ask say is, ''forgive and forget'' does this phrase exist in this world? if is does exist, I would lk to say sorry to all of my friends tht hates me deep inside their heart for wat i've done in the past.
Not all ppl might do tht, as I know some of them was just all the while showing fake colourfull shells. But for once, I've forgive and regretted for watever shit I've done for the past to someone. The freaking response tht i get was really disappointed. For wat as I know is, most of u hav the same thinking towards me and the reason why most of u hate me is because of my attitude. Well, i guess for the past 5 years, I'm the only one tht was being hated the most compare to the others.
I've tried my best to change myself. Forgive or nt to is really out of my hand and is all of u all's decision. Might forgive but may not forget. I dun mind if is still in u all's mind, wat i wan is just to b the same with the others. Every people have different statuses, and I know I've the lowest status level in this class. If there's ppl who really appreciate me as frend, I'm really happy about that. Well, for me friends can hav a million of them but true friend is nt as easy to have even 3 of them. I appreciate each everyone of you all as my frend and I've forgive everything that u all did to me coz I know mostly disliked me.
signing off.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Time f0r a break =)
studied sej for almost 2 hours plus. surprised huh? btw, i've learn a quote which is ''a person's integrity does nt worth more thn the others, we've to respect each other eventhough each person have different status''. this quote really mean a lot to me and it speaks out wat i've always in mind.
well, next, i'm regret and felt guity of nt g0in to school today. yes, i've made the decision nt to go today and i dun hav the rights to regret and guilt of cz i choose nt to go. but, wat the teacher thought of us? how they feel about our attitudes? i'm always lazy to go to school tht i've to admit but this time, the 1st time ever i felt regret of nt goin to school. i really dunno why and i really felt bad after reading Moo's status. seriously, 5s1 is a class which i put all my heart in it and for me this class is everything. 5 years studying together, having exam together, outing together and even absent together. hw many times i've shed my tears regarding to the people of 5s1?
time are getting away from us. do u all think tht there's still chance for us to b in a uniform of blue pinefore, green trousers and white shirt sitting together facing the whiteboard under the ceiling of a class? chatting, playing, laughing together? i'll shit myself if i'm trying to prove something by blogging this post. 2 more weeks left. imagine tht, after SPM, that's all. just 2 more weeks, we'll b seperating and tht's it. the end of high school. i'm nt acting r proving tht i'm good with this post. these are all my thoughts, my feel towards the class and my mate. i'm even sheding my tears while i'm typing this piece of post. i'll miss u guys and the moment we're together, i do, i really mean it.
well, next, i'm regret and felt guity of nt g0in to school today. yes, i've made the decision nt to go today and i dun hav the rights to regret and guilt of cz i choose nt to go. but, wat the teacher thought of us? how they feel about our attitudes? i'm always lazy to go to school tht i've to admit but this time, the 1st time ever i felt regret of nt goin to school. i really dunno why and i really felt bad after reading Moo's status. seriously, 5s1 is a class which i put all my heart in it and for me this class is everything. 5 years studying together, having exam together, outing together and even absent together. hw many times i've shed my tears regarding to the people of 5s1?
time are getting away from us. do u all think tht there's still chance for us to b in a uniform of blue pinefore, green trousers and white shirt sitting together facing the whiteboard under the ceiling of a class? chatting, playing, laughing together? i'll shit myself if i'm trying to prove something by blogging this post. 2 more weeks left. imagine tht, after SPM, that's all. just 2 more weeks, we'll b seperating and tht's it. the end of high school. i'm nt acting r proving tht i'm good with this post. these are all my thoughts, my feel towards the class and my mate. i'm even sheding my tears while i'm typing this piece of post. i'll miss u guys and the moment we're together, i do, i really mean it.
Monday, November 1, 2010
What r u all thinking?
after a hectic day of schooling and seminar, finally settled down to blog before signing off for revision again. today we had camwhore in our class which is kinda nice for me, cz it gives me memory with my bunch of kawans. and yea, i gt the chance to represent the school football team to gone up stage to get the certificate for the last time in this school. really missing those training moment in this school. erm, nothing much to post actually, just found out tht our class are made out of few groups. am i a slowpoke? LOL. is tht wat we call as a class? hmmm.
well, there'll b a Majlis Izin Restu for form5 students to shake hands and giving thanks to our teacher tht had taught us. guess wat, amazingly, 5S1 the top class in this school refuses to go to school. tht's really disappoint me, i dunno y. they dun care but y i care so much bout it? tht's my cons i guess. for me, yes, i admit i rather stay at home better thn shaking teachers hand in school, but, hw will the teacher thinks bout us? seriously, i really just wanna say thanks to the teacher tht have taught me. i really dunno wat u all think about it, mayb never thought of teachers feeling? hmmmm, better nt to condemn much. right, off for dinner and study.
really disappointed with them. =(
signing off, cheers.
well, there'll b a Majlis Izin Restu for form5 students to shake hands and giving thanks to our teacher tht had taught us. guess wat, amazingly, 5S1 the top class in this school refuses to go to school. tht's really disappoint me, i dunno y. they dun care but y i care so much bout it? tht's my cons i guess. for me, yes, i admit i rather stay at home better thn shaking teachers hand in school, but, hw will the teacher thinks bout us? seriously, i really just wanna say thanks to the teacher tht have taught me. i really dunno wat u all think about it, mayb never thought of teachers feeling? hmmmm, better nt to condemn much. right, off for dinner and study.
really disappointed with them. =(
signing off, cheers.
Friday, October 22, 2010
To You
yes,
this post is for u..
At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.
Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.
this post is for u..
At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.
Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.
Trial Results..
currently..
my trial results are..
Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+
still nid improvement!!
my trial results are..
Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+
still nid improvement!!
Friday, September 24, 2010
Good Luck for Trials!
23rd September 2010..
SPM Trial officially started..
it will gonne b a harshful 3weeks of exam..
1st week shud b nt tensed up..
2nd and 3rd week are the most challenging week tht we hav to go thru..
well..
wat i can say is..
good luck and all the best!!
SPM Trial officially started..
it will gonne b a harshful 3weeks of exam..
1st week shud b nt tensed up..
2nd and 3rd week are the most challenging week tht we hav to go thru..
well..
wat i can say is..
good luck and all the best!!
Friday, September 3, 2010
Cherish!!
recently..
something happened to my family..
my grandpa admitted to hospital for artery replacement..
he already admitted for about 2 weeks+ and finally operated..
bfore his operation,
i visited him few times and hav some talk, c-ing him smile, walking here and thr..
his condition kinda good and he's lk no fear of the operation..
till today..
he finally have his operation yesterday..
and i had my 1st visit after his operation..
once i reached..
i went to call him and greet him..
he looked and hav a smile on me..
i was relieved and tears about to flow..
in my heart.. i said.. ''thx god''
till thn he sleep all the way and we left he opened his eye say say bye to us..
on da way back..
i kip on thinking about the past..
hw good he treat me, hw good is he..
so,
cherish everyone tht is still around b4 is too late..
god bless.. =)
passed my undang too!
47/50..
start studying for exams d..
Julius 加油!!
something happened to my family..
my grandpa admitted to hospital for artery replacement..
he already admitted for about 2 weeks+ and finally operated..
bfore his operation,
i visited him few times and hav some talk, c-ing him smile, walking here and thr..
his condition kinda good and he's lk no fear of the operation..
till today..
he finally have his operation yesterday..
and i had my 1st visit after his operation..
once i reached..
i went to call him and greet him..
he looked and hav a smile on me..
i was relieved and tears about to flow..
in my heart.. i said.. ''thx god''
till thn he sleep all the way and we left he opened his eye say say bye to us..
on da way back..
i kip on thinking about the past..
hw good he treat me, hw good is he..
so,
cherish everyone tht is still around b4 is too late..
god bless.. =)
passed my undang too!
47/50..
start studying for exams d..
Julius 加油!!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Dream
fr wat tht hav pass..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..
sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?
history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?
as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..
yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..
is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..
'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''
thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?
but how?
hmmm...
dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..
sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?
history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?
as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..
yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..
is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..
'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''
thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?
but how?
hmmm...
dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
good, bad and now worse..
well.. many things had happened and days has past.. at first.. happy to b with a friendly and crazyyy friend.. haha!! nice chatting with though..
10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..
as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(
10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..
as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
3rd of August 2010
heyya! wassup. long time didnt blog d. hmmmm.. is been already 5~6 months rite? watever.
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~
next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)
soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..
okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..
everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(
lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..
u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(
Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..
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...
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.....
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signing off.. peace..
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~
next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)
soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..
okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..
everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(
lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..
u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(
Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..
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signing off.. peace..
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