Disgrace!!

1st September 2009..
around 9.30p.m..
horrifying incident happened infront of my eyes..

4 motorists..
with 4 parang.. pointing at my bro.. bro's gf and my grandma!!
at first i tot they do not hav any weapon so tht i can try my best to fight..
once i gone down i saw a parang!! omg~!! @@
phone.. license.. ic.. money.. even car key kne rob..
i had insomnia.. cant sleep till 3a.m so skipped school =(

called 999..
guess wat..
those pig come in 15-20minutes.. fast rite?
i'm here to say the shit out of Malaysia Police!!
hw they all pass their police teST?
oni noe rasuah money money money..
if ur family member who r get rob i'll say eu all wont b as steady as eu all r nw..
Malaysua Police really piss Malaysian off..
all also malay.. f**k the shit out of it!!

person who rob also malay..
in nw is ramadhan month..
puasa for waT?
pray for Allah for waT?
disgrace!! is a total disgrace!!
pray n puasa.. Islam thought them to rob?
use ur pig brain think larhx!!
eu all no family or any members who involve in the same situation..
pissed off!!

...::: withdrawn day 29 :::...

...::: Malaysia Police sux for life!! :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -2.35p.m- ]

[ -2nd September 09- ]

Dream

all the while i was just dreaming..
clouds cover up the sun..
leaving me dark in the reality..
envy of other couple..

name written in the stars was just a wish to me..
loving eu was just a dream..
or is it a nightmare?
day by day..
dreaming of the same old matter..

but this dream has change me a lot..
wat i dream nw has come to an end..
this dream really mean a lot to me..
this dream has faded and it doesnt came true at last..

hereby the wind will blow eu the happiness i wish for eu..
as the right one eu were seaching would came to eu..
hope the star will bring eu wat eu dream n wish for..
collapse, corrupted, broken and finally faded away..

as for Stephenie..
i'm here to wish eu 2 happily together.. lolx...
i wonder when would the day came to me?
she'll find hers someday later..
well.. waiting to day to come..
it could b a disasterest day in my life..
God Bless Me.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 27 :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -4.23p.m- ]

[ -31st August 09- ]

eu're rite..

evonne..
eu're rite..
i cant even take care of myself hw could i take care of eu?
sry if i failed to cheer or help eu out something..

i really cant understand myself..
wat i nid..
wat is my ability..
i can even noe wat is up with me..
i'm bz body thts wat i noe..

ppl talking to me..
even she herself call me to giv up..
i'm just being stubborn..
haih..
wat i wan actually?!! GOD!!!

i just wish to noe everything..
i just wish to noe wat others thinking..
i just wish to do i could change everything..
i just wish to hav a happy life lk anyone else!!

in the end..
i torture myself..
i hurt myself..
making myself just thinking on something tht shouldn't been thinking nw..
making my studies down to drain..

wat i gt in the end??
nth..
everything seems worthless..
hurt..
cry..
being hate by ppl..
i'm being such an annoying person..

it seems i dun look lk a guy..
cry n cry n cry..
frends trying to cheer me up..
console me..
but.. i just cant let eu go..
i did count..

i already loving eu for..
785days..
day by day i counted..
well..
my wish is getting simple n much more simple..
nw i just wish to b a best frend of urs..
and hope eu could treat me lk others in 4s1..
haih..

God Bless Me.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 27 :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -1.46a.m- ]

[ -31st August 09- ]

Holidays 0ver..

well..
no inspiration to write blog this few days..
just..
days nt goin so well for me..
nt as hapii as b4.. lolx..

hmmmmm...
as lyn said b4..
things will get better in time..
i h0pe so..

er... duno wat to say.. ><
oh ya..
Manchester United 2 - 1 Arsenal.. ^^
real Man U is back!!

well..
watching FF X.. outdated rite me? nw oni watch..
hmmmmm....
i lk wat Yuna n Tidus made the promises..

Yuna : I promise.. if we were seperated we'll just whistle.. ^^
[[ Tidus teached her to whistle!]]

1 more thing..
she said..
she practises smile eventhough she is sad..
she also asked Tidus to laugh out loud.. funny..
haih..
hw gud if we're lk them.. dreaming.. ==

hmmmmmm....
i hav scored 4 goals with my new weapon for 3 consecutive weeks!! ^^
hope this will go on.. lolx..

uhh~~~
feel tht..
my worries n my effort worth nth..
nt oni in ''tht'' matter.. others the same..
many things bothering around..
i'm acting strange as ever.. being annoyed..
haih..
watever it is.. hope for a better tomolo.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 26 :::...

...::: smile just to hide the sadness away :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -1.04p.m- ]

[ -30th August 09- ]

Wat a Day ==

wake up as normal..
11.00a.m.. still feel sleepy coz sleep around 2a.m last nite.. lolx..
boring morning.. zz
text her ask her wat time she go out..
planned nicely.. bath.. eat.. walk to station..
nt even 5 mins train come n met her at Pandan Jaya LRT station..
even she wear casually she is still the prettiest!! ^^
white t with shorts.. nice odour.. but we sit with a gap from each other.. lolx

meet up with yin mei at a cafe name Wong Si Nai.. cute name huh? xD
she ate tuna and drank honey lemon~~ lolx..
quite worry for her stomach.. dun misunderstand.. ><
thn we kip bully her by taking her pic.. which is a disadvantage for my sux phone..==
lolx.. thn she came up with an idea to write something to place on the mirror..
wrote something on it.. just to bla bla bla.. =P
everything go smoothly till tuition..
once again Anwar class was packed!! ><
tot gt a nicely 4 place for me, YM, Evon and KY..
but i sit with hua n ycy coz there gt a place and i dump her again ==
uhh!!! damn it..

after class..
as usual..
no chance to say a bye or even a wave of hand..
duno y feel lk waitin her to say bye~~
went D-Net alone.. play till ngam ngam 5..
waited her at I-Cafe for 5mins..
take a decision to wait at pudu LRT..
stand, walk up n down the stairs till the heavy downpour came..
i met CYC, Reagen, See Couple, Jun Fei Couple..
all ask me waitin wat i.. n i lie saying tht my bro on the way to LRT station.. nt all
waited about 20minutes she said mayb go back by taxi.. uhh~ okay..
wait another 5 mins thr's a train came and i went back alone in the rain..

reached home..

worry..

worry...

worry....

coz the rain is really heavy..
finally she text me whn she reach home..
saying tht she take LRT back..
i was lk..
wat the..
she kip saying sorry.. for?
well.. is my own decision to wait though..
just simply mean nt to wait her next time.. ><

later tuition again..
which i hate tuition at nite nw.. duno y..
uhh~!!

tht's it~!!
oh ya.. frgt

Hapii 27th Evonne!! ^^

...::: withdrawn day 23 :::...

...::: am i annoying? :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -7.41p.m- ]

[ -27th August 09- ]

enjoy? ^^

fisrt of all..
hapii bufdae to..

ZuZu..
Ycy..
Lim..

and thx for all who come for the so call celebration..

Tai..
Min..
Lim..
Zu..
Ycy..
Ryan..
Lyn..
Nie..
JE..
Evon..
Carmen..
Julia..
Yin mei..

hope eu all r having a great fun with today occasion..
especially Zu, Ycy and Lim..
today is really a special day..
sing K thn go bowling..

as for Neway part..
things go smoothly..
1st i've booked a room earlier tht can feat in many ppl..
lolx.. guess wat..
Room No. 27~!! evon hapii with tht? lolx..
can say lucky..
after long hours of singing..
the bill came..
it cost about RM363.40~!! ><

after tht we went for bowling.. oni boys playing ==
for the 1st 2 round oni guys were thr..
but out of no where all the girls came in..
i asked someone..
the reason is..
no place to walk.. ==
ok fine with tht..
many of eu all having great time with each other.. ^^
i'm glad with tht..
oh ya.. for the bowling result..
me 1st..
ycy 2nd.. many ppl replaced..
zuzu 3rd..

well..
as for me..
nt as wat i expected.. ^^
wat i wish non of it came true..
group pictures nt really been taken properly..
nvm barhx.. eu all enjoy thts enuff..
and..
i would lk to say something to Nie..
eu're the prettiest today.. lolxx ^^
thts all..
hope eu all enjoy it..
enjoy marhx? statisfied?

...::: withdrawn day 22 :::...

...::: chances r nt given but is cherish :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -8.20p.m- ]

[ -26th August 09- ]

Sorry for everything

ok..
i've deleted some of my post..
i'm here to apologise!
is my mistake n my bad bcoz of misusing the function of blog..
all the while i didnt notice my mistake..
i oni pointed out ppl's mistakes..

many ppl had advices him n helped him a lot..
i'm nt jealousing or wat..
well..
mayb i shouldn't take it so serious..
wat he say is right..
my past it would have spoil my image for nw..
my attitude is the 1 which is killing me all these while..
being too cool, too emo, and think of a lot of thing..

after a talk today after tuition..
i had understand..
nt everything come to my path must b perfect as wat i wish..
wat i did to her i really didnt think of her side..
i being too selfish of myself..
i oni think tht.. i treat eu gud.. sit bside her.. care of her..
have already shown my luv to her..
actually is nt..
i didnt think of her side..
actually..
i always ask her to text me whn she reach her destination..
well.. she dun nid to..
coz.. whr she go n who she with is nt really my prob..
she gt her frend.. she gt her freedom..
thinking of kissing really is my biggest mistake of my life..
mayb i should hide myself up and think of it again..

every cloud has it silver lining..
every star has it own wishes..
every season has it own characteristic..
every person have their own secret hiding bhind..

think n think n think again..
mayb..
i really dun understand anything well at all..
i've learn a lesson..
be myself..
dun care wat others think..
accept wat GOD gives us..
even i'm short..
but i noe de thing ntt less..
so.. i think GOD is always fair..
i'm hapii with wat i havve n dun nid to b 100% perfection.. =)

...::: withdrawn day 21 :::...

...::: every clouds has it silver lining :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -7,28p.m- ]

[ -25th August 09- ]

specialise to 4S1

well..
anything dislike each other or wat just speak it out here..
yes here.. at my blog.. write in the comment..
tired of all this..

i noe no1 is perfect..
but still..
y cant we all just b peacefull?
yaw hua n lyn's prob they'll settle themselves..
and u.. y must eu care? cant eu just fuck off?
the hate in us is real deep..
take a piss n look urself into it..
always say ppl backstab eu..
y cant eu ask urself wat is ur mistake n wat eu did till bother us?
i'm disappointed with eu..
ur attitude has chg from bad to worse..
last time eu weren't lk tht..
nw ur attitude are worse thn shit..
eu think many ppl supported eu?
lolx.. think about it..

there is a lot of misunderstand in our class..
as i'm the middle person..
i noe hell lots of thing..
but still..
i'll zip up my mouth..
dun beg me to tell plsss...

yes..
i do appreciate all of eu as my frend..

Carmen..
i bliv her the most in the class..
i've told her many things..

Babi..
even i lk to scold n zat him..
he still a frend..
he is smart from inside but nt the outside =)

Vinnie..
mysterious..
best to talk with sometimes..
most cute in 4s1..
smart too.. ^^

Min..
cool.. funny.. mature..
he did console me sometimes nt to think too much.. thx..

Alex..
1 of my besties..
we're almost the same..
no interest in study..
interested most in game n football..
1 of the joker in class.. lolx..

Zu..
1 of my besties too..
he is strong at facts subject..
pure type of thinker..
gud patience..

JE
a gud frend to hang out with..
noe many thing bout fashion.. lolx..
lk to solo mic during sing K.. xD

Julia.. Yin Mei.. Jia Jun
they 3 r simply funny and quite good~~ xD

Tai..
my buddy..
help me a lot in study..
quite some ppl dislike him in class duno y..
he could incharge also everything..
sometimes can get things in control..

Lyn..
my buddy too..
helps a lot for my prob..
most of my thing i told her..
settle it for me.. advises me..
appreaciate her most..

Evonne..
thinking..
studies..
appearance..
attitude..
talent..
simply near to perfection for me..
changes mood the fastest.. lolx..
a princess of mine in my heart..
dun dare to comment so much.. nt really un bout her.. >.<

Julius..
?????
????
???
??
?
comment bout me..

i often plan some event for my frend.. reason is just simple..
c eu all hapii i'm hapii..
i would sacrifies almost everything just to get all of eu all out..
this day who nt free.. chg other..
other day who nt free.. i think n think n think again another day..
till the day which every1 is free but i'm nt.. i sacrifies myself for eu all..
sometimes.. i do get hot easily.. i'm controlling nw.. its better from last time.. i think..
for those who hate me or watever it is..
do wat eu wish to do..
say watever eu wish to say..
think b4 eu say or cc urself b4 eu say..
my time with eu all is nt long..
we'll break out and continue our own journey for future..
left about one n a half year to go..
hope tht eu all wont forget each other..
for every occasion i planned..

i do list down the date n day..
i do list down who n where we went..
i do list down my frend in my heart..
eu all r my everything..

Evonne i luv eu~!!
dun misunderstand nt couple.. ==

...::: withdrawn day 19 :::...

...::: frend forever!! :::..

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -1.36a.m- ]

[ -23rd August 09- ]

Am i worse thn ever?

i'm vr unwell today..
first of all..
yes.. i disrespect teacher..
it should nt b happening..
and it happens on me..

cant she c i didnt even talk?
yes.. i noe she is teaching.. but i'm bored with wat she is repeating..
but i still didnt talk..
Alex just pass me back a piece of paper and she thought i'm talking..
fine~!!
called me to the front and explain?
yes.. i noe wat is all about..
i just dun wanna go out..
tot just stay quiet she'll continue..
but she play small gas game? went out to the staff room?
nt even 15mins come back? wat for?

finally i explained..
anything still wanna say? say i dun pay attention larhx..
yes.. i'm in big trouble..
is my mistake.. is my wrong..
she BLAME nicely.. mayb is for gud..
alright..
from this occassion..
most of 4S1 will chg the way they think of me..
i dun hav moral.. i disrespect teacher..

tai..
vinnie..
lyn..
carmen..
evonne..
julia..
mee yuk..
jie yi..
yean ching..
kar min..
Alex..

i apologise for all of eu..
i make eu all in trouble for doin 5times correction..
my reputation all gone just for this incident..
as for evonne..
i've gav her a bad inspiration..
as i'm nt a gud person n inmorale person..

a good flower just ruined by just a cut..
tall tree came down timber by just a saw..
everything came dark whn thunderstorm strikes..
i'm doomed..

i noe i made a big mistake..
whn i ignored wat teacher said..
saying her bout being small gas..
i'm 1 of it too..
sry for changing the view of everything..

sry for everything..
mayb i'm really nt a gud guy after all..
for those who hav read this blog..
pls pls pls pls pls..
scold me..
comment bout me..
speak out my mistake..

PLEASE~!!

...::: withdrawn day 16 :::...

...::: there's no turning back to a better beginning :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -7.26p.m- ]

[ -20th August 09- ]

U're Welcome

as for today..
ting didnt come to school for the 2 consecutive day..
hope tht he's okay with everything..
noe.. i anti H1N1..

hmmm...
today.. i've accompany her till LRT station oni~~
coz.. i've to take LRT home as the closest way...
and also the furthest destination i manage to sent her home..
we've talk bout many things..
i tried my best nt to let her felt boring..
did i accomplished tht?
i dun think so~~ >.<

i'm being so honest to her these day..
as can say all the while also vr honest.. xD
i'll try nt to hide anything from her..
hope tht she won't avoid me larhx~~~~
lolx.. vr hapii today.. ^^

but still..
i've to keep watch of myself..
nt to get too close or too over bout tht..
just to avoid words from idiots around..
there's a lot though~~
keep some distance is the best way to prevent gossips..
so..
idiots pls SHUT UP~!!

wan talk bad bout us..
come speak it out loud infront of me..
dun say her bad things bhind her..
i'm here to say out loud to idiots..
stop gossiping n stabbing me or her..
in this world any1 gt their rights to love someone..
no big deal..

...::: withdrawn day 15 :::...

...::: prevention is better thn cure :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -11.07p.m- ]

[ -17th August 09- ]