Happy Blessed 18th Birthday Evonne

Dear Evonne,

First of all, hereby I wish you a Happy Blessed 18th Birthday. Wish that your coming days are full of colours and live life to fullness.

6th July, is a very special day where a beautiful, gorgeous, smart, caring and lovely child was born. It might just an ordinary day for other people but it is a special day for you.

We grow old as the time past each year. The secret to stay young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age. It takes a long time to grow young, the old believe everything, the middle age suspect everything but the young knows everything and in the end, it's not the year in your year that counts, it's the life in your years.

It's another good day for you as god picked another petal on your flower, wishing your flowar may bloom for years. We gets older not with the years that had past, but it's the newer day that we gone through. I never get to forget about your birthday because I never recorded it but I remember it deep through my heart.

As young follows you forever, Young Evonne, live life to the fullness. I wish you once a year, but this year I'll wish you with 27 different languages.

Happy Birthday..
生日快乐..
Bon Anniversaire.. (French)
幸せ誕生日.. (Japanese)
행복한생일.. (Korean)
Selamat Hari Jadi..
Sretan Rodendan.. (Croation)
Tillykke med fodselsdagen.. (Danish)
สุขสันต์วันเกิด.. (Thai)
Breithlá Sona.. (Irish)
Natalis Beati.. (Latin)
Penblwydd Hapus.. (Welsh)
Feliz Cumpleaos.. (Spanish)
Feliz Aniversário.. (Portugese)
Buon Compleanno.. (Italian)
Gratulerer med dagen.. (Norwegian)
Ευτυχισμενα Γενεθλια.. (Greek)
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag.. (German)
fericit ziua de naştere.. (Romanian)
S Dnem Rozhdeniya.. (Russian)
Srecan Rodjendan.. (Serbian)
sreḱen rodenden.. (Macedonian)
chúc mừng sinh nhật.. (Vietnamese)
Hyvää syntymäpäivää.. (Finnish)
feliç aniversari.. (Catalan)
ბედნიერი დაბადების დღე.. (Georgian)
všechno nejlepší k narozeninám.. (Czech)

There you go. It's look simple but I hope you like it.
Happy Birthday once again before I end this post. Hope you like it.

By, Julius Wong to Birthday girl Young Evonne. =)

Changes

Well, I guessed it will gonna be another emo post. Has been a long time since the last time I emo and I wrote to my bloggie. Suddenly, I felt that many things had changed.

The feelings in me are getting faded. We are now like strangers. Seriously, I don't think that you care for whatever thing I do and say right? Actually, I'm recalling when was the last time I teared infront of my comp when a song is playing. Guess what, I did it again, now. This song is an old song that makes me think of many thing once again. The main question the always hold me back from going forward, Do I still really love you? If no, why I will still thinking of you? We become like this is it because of me and I made these?

I lost my confident, I don't wish to be hurt again by anyone out there. 5 years, the pain is unimaginable. I'm just a ordinary but weak guy on the inside. No one knows how I cry in my heart as I smile loudly, crazily, joyfully outside. Is hard for me to control my emotions especially late night, just have to force myself to do something, not to listen songs or even think of other stuff but only homework and revisions. I'm depressed deeply, besides sports I have nothing to put myself away from thinking about the past and now, the present and coming days.

As everyone said, everyone has his/her own silver linings. When I'm crazily over you, you're just perfect in every aspect, but why now I felt that I'm trying my best to be friendly but the response I get was as if I always being irritated? Am I deserve to be treated like that or is my own problem that I couldn't be normal to you?

sigh, haihhhhhhh....................................................

Random

During the past, I easily fall in love with someone which is good to me.
But at once, I fal in love with someone that bound me for a long time.
After all ups and down, when I'm ready, I find that I'm hard to fall in love.
Even I don't even know where and how to start.

You'd changed me, I'd challenged myself.
Now, I lost myself again and yet to be found.
I'm strong in my body, I'm weak in my soul.
A broken wound that has been with me for half a decade.
A broken wound with salt just added, it hurts a lot.

Used to emo all day long,
Now, used to dance it out to express it.

Chances are given once, twice but not trice.
When it came, I deny it by confusing myself.
Once it passed, regretted and blame oneself.
It happened past few years, and it came again.

I lost my determination and confidence.
I'll say I love you, and I did.
I'll greet everyday, and I tried.
Do I still loving you, the answer might be yes from the inside,
but not the outside.

Why it get on my nerve?
Why it changed?
Sorry for letting it go, all the best and good luck.

Lastly, half a decade will be continue and I still love you.

Lyrics In My Heart

You ask me if I love you
and I chocked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
and who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you.

( I'd never ask you, but I wish to know the true answer from you )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in my will gone forever )

romance and all its strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
but through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant fighter
still trapped within my youth

( I'm battling myself to improve bcz of romance, jealousy owns me thats what insecure me, I'm writing my own fake story which hiding the truth within my youth )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in me will gone forever )

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the love I'd in me is irrisistable, no matter it had been ages or centuries, yet I'm still in it and never change. why? the answer is obvious but I hope that I'll never lie to myself with that answer.

What I wish is not what I expected.

I thought tht I've changed,
becoming a slightly better and different person,
In the end, I finally realised I was still the same as before.

What I wish for has made me feel happy but the expectation had let me down. I still couldn't fight the devil within myself. Conversation couldn't last wrong and unable to point out my weakness. Why I couldn't face that?

Hot, sweat, nervous and careful of everything I say and do. Why am I still hiding the real side of me? What I need is just natural! =X

Am I still in it yet couldn't climb up from the fall? Why am I so pissed today? I don't really care whether I skipped something important and wasted time on something not urgent but why still I can get mad over that? Simple word, jealousy.

Kick start my college life soon. All the best, good luck and get over it. =)

Is The Beginning

Is been a while that I left my public diary untouchable. Well, let's begin =)


Is gonna be 3 months gone in the year of 2011. It has been a tragic beginning for the year of 2011. It is in the paper and on the TV. Seriously, I do concern on what and how will the earth be as my life goes on. Will it end when I'm just about to begin my real life of being an adult? Well, we will just have to pray and live our life to the fullest!


My high school's life has ended for merely 3 months and everything seems to be okay, some has started their new college life, some gaining experience by working and earning themselves some pocket money, few went for National Service and for me, sports and outing is my life for the past 2 months after I quit working for some reasons. I'm very miserable these few days as SPM results are about to released. Think hard where shall I begin my studies. Many obstacles lies ahead and it drives me crazy! I have to make my mind clear as fast as I can before everything's too late for it.


Next, I do agree that this world has many miracle. =) Finally, I'm having a normal life with a better mood and emotion. Thinking back the past, where I always being emo, sad and unhappy. I begin my brighter side by knowing some of the friends that once we met before as stranger. Thanks to FACEBOOK where I can start off many friendship and stay contact with friends thru it. Beginning with a few ''Hello's'' and comments. Soon after the relationship getting stronger and that's where it begins.

Friends really do influece a lot in a person's life. From that case, it happened to me. After knewing them, they made me felt happier and something weird happen in me myself. Well, hope is jsut a weird by-passing feelings.

Finally, wish every SPM student good luck for Wednesday. No matter is a good or bad result everything is over and just face it. All the best.

Thanks

Thanks for everything. You had made me change to become a better person. I've tried my best to be someone special to you but I've failed. I really happy that you still treat me as 1 of your friend, eventhough I've a low status in you. We are only friends.

You're a person who I admire the most. The feeling towards you is undescribeable. I can't believe that I can cry because of you, changed because of you, because of you I've learnt a lot of lesson and loved you for so long. I may have failed, but, you have succeed what I wanted for all these while. If is not you, today's Julius Wong Yi Jin will not exist.

I really don't know what makes me so in love with you. The talent you got, the intelligence you have, the appearance you have, just anything about you. Remember 约定? this is the 1st song that you have played with a piano for me through the phone. There're a lot of memorable memories lie in me. My sacrifieses, time, effort, money, love are not wasted and it is worth to make you happy. I'm not selfish, I'm rasional but I'm stubborn and had a bad temper. I may be easy to get jealous, I might be annoying but everything I do, I'll think of the consequences and ready to accept it. The post that you have given me a big slap, I've it with me always. 4th August 2009.

Well, I guess we're just meant to be friends or best friends. Hope you can forgive about my past, and everything that I've did. I'm sorry that I often made you moody. I've made you mad at me for quite a lot of times. Lastly, good luck and all the best in future. Take care while in NS. God Bless.

It will be the last,
I Love You.
Friends forever.. =)

Christmas

Well, I don't know how do I feel now. Happy? Sad? or is it neutral? i don't know what bother me too. Every year, every time celebrate christmas I always put high hope and excited feelings in myself hoping that it is a perfect day and a special day for me to be remembered. But, maybe what i expect is way too high and will never get to achieve, that is what makes me feel like now.

Every year's Christmas, I always try my best to prepare a special and memorable present eventhough I know the present that I get back is something that is out of expectation. Search high and low, efforts and time. But, why I still try my best to give you a special and nice present? Is because I love you. Before I bought any of those present, I think and think and keep on thinking. How would a simple and low cost present could be special and meaningful.

I don't know what makes me so daring to wrote all these here. Is in my heart, I kept it for more than 2 years. I don't expect any expensive present or what. Whatever present you gave, I kept it nicely and appreciate it, a lot. It maybe the last year. I don't wish to. No one wish to have a last. So do me and you right? I've planned and dare myself to face rejection if I'm about to ask what I've wanted to ask, but, I guess the outcome would be the same.

I guessed, that's all for today's post.

Merry Christmas my friends!
be HAPPY,
be MERRY,
be with your love ones, family and friends.







signing off.....

Mid-Night Blues

You are my love..
Over the hills..
Under the clouds..
Nothing can stop my mind..
Gasping for air as my tears flow..

Everything to me is oni YOU..
Vine waving as wind blow..
On this land of greenery views..
Not oni eu appear in my mind..
Neither do my heart keep thinking of eu..
Eager to find the path to ur heart..

I cant see the truth in ur mind..

Lying to myself for the past years..
Only myself noe how much i love eu..
Viewing through ur beautiful eyes..
Everything aorund came to a stop..

You're the one i love..
Only this moment i could speak it out loud..
Urge to say I LOVE YOU!!!





signing off..

It's Over

Well, it has finally came to an end. High school life ended for at 8th of december 2010. I'm gonna start missing each of everyone of you including my uniform. Happy yet unhappy. Now, we are one step into the hectic society and persue our own dream. As for now, I'M FREEEEEE!!

15th December 2010,
Before we went to Jogoya, we sing out loud at Low Yat redbox with Tai, Min, Ycy, Ting, Me, Lim, Alex, Boon, Ryan, Carmen, Evonne and Vinnie. We missed a group photo at Redbox, wasted. At Jogoya with my buddies to have a blast of celebration after SPM and as for farewell to Kar Min and Boon's Birthday. A farewell not a treat. =P The bill that we paid was RM968.00 but I guessed the amount of food we ate is more than that. LOL. Took bunch of pictures with them.

After that, we went to Pavilion to catch the fake snow. Flooded with peoples and the ambiance is great! It seems like Christmas is here. Took a lot a lot a lot of pictures and met some friends there. Hope this coming Christmas will rewind the past 2 years.


Friends, I had a wonderful time with you all for the past 5 years. Many ups and downs. I really appreciate everyone of you. Friends forever.



signing off..

Jyin 傅健颖 - 我们会再见MV (Official Version)

Listen to the melody and the meaning of the lyrics. Proceed to the next article too. =)

Friendship Never Breaks

Friends, we have been together for 4 years and most of us are already been together for 5 years. The sorrow that we went through are more than we could ever imagine. Every single moment, every single joy that we have within us, will always be remembered. This coming examination, will be the last time that we will be in the smart uniform, sitting together beneath one roof, in a hectic hall chasing our own dreams together. All the best!

Well, I would like to apologise sincerely for each of every mistake that I've did towards you all. What I gain, I learned, I experienced is really priceless and I will treasures that in my heart as we go on to persue our dream. The sweet memories that I will never forget;

went for school together, crapping around, have meal during recess, teasing around, falling in love with classmate, competing each other during sportsday, supporting and cheer, went tuition, play truancy during the last period, last minute assignment, study untill wee hours during exams, comparing results and last but not least, birthday treats. Remember all these? it happened during our life in high school. The friendship between us will never break.

Tomorrow, 15th November 2010, will be the last day for us to be together and there will be a great bash of party for us. I hope that I wont shed tears during this bash and you all wont shed tears too right? =P After this, we will be facing SPM and that is it, the end. I hope that, after the dismissal, we can have reunion that will be attended by all of you. Tears from my eyes just burst out as I wrote this article. I know, some of you will shed tears tomorrow, but, promise not to tears okay? =')

Well, let's pray and hope that everyone of us will succeed. Friends, you all are the best! Good Luck!

给我答应我们会再见, 给我信心我们会再见, 什么距离都不算远! No matter how far we all will be, I believe that everyone of us will meet again! I will never erased the memories of being with you all.

Love,
Julius. (5S1-2010)

Me

Recently, have a conversation with a friend of mine and I looked deep beneath myself. Looking back at the past, and things that I have done yet mistakes I made. Uncountable mistakes I have that made my day nw; sad, unhappy and emotional. Look at the past, it was like a nightmare during a sleep.

I have made my friend lost patiences within me and cause a lot of problems between us. The ego in me has pawned me alive. Sins of jealousy and envy-ing did the same and I found myself in the grave covering with guilt and forgiveness that I ever wanted. In a blink of an eye, everything came to an end, it is too late for me to be forgive.

She is right, before I fall in love with someone, I should have love myself in the first place. Every steps I take it seems like I am going nearer to the doorgate of Hell. Over doing something, get seduced in the most deadliest sin of jealousy, that it is all begin. Ruined everything beyond my own hand, letting go my spirit and lost hope to myself. Seems like I hav lost my sight and I am going no where but towards a dead end. Trapped myself in a dark and routeless box. Lonely, emotional and unhappy.

He is right and yet he is one of my best friend that have been thru ups and downs. Nothing is perfect in this hectic world. The feeling of dislike within friends do exist in everyone of us, is just the matter of the limit of the feeling. I'm too over about myself, making all decisions and being too possessive and there where it begun the feeling of dislike grows beyond them towards me. I hide my feelings deep beneath myself and being hatred by most of them. Shed tears quietly without being notice is well torturing. Hope it will be better.

As for thou. I made your high school life miserable by falling in love with you. This matter is something that really bothers me because it has pros and cons. I do learn a lot and understand a lot before really getting involve with relationship which I failed. It made our relationship gone no where but backwards. That is my turning point in my school life and the beginning of the life of love. A sentence that I've buried within me. ''You don't even understand yourself and you're trying to understand me''. A task that I've never succeed. A task which proved me wrong and useless. In the sense of maturity, I'm still a kid with a pinch of knowledge. Well, it is too soon.

Did as what I never did before,
Tried to change to be better but never done,
Failed within my hope and goal,
Ended up hopeless and benefitless.





signing off..

Time

Let's starts off with a typical question that not all of us may answer. What is time?

Well, most of us will just answer. ''Time is just something that is measured by using a clock''. That's just a common answer that we usually get, I guessed.



Time is something that will never turn back and there's no U-turn. Once it is passed, we will be moving forward. There are 24 hours a day, 168 hours a week and 8760 hours a year. It seems like, it is still not enough for us to enjoy our life. When we're depressed, we wished the time to fly quickly but when we're happy, we wished that the tie could just stop right there as long as it can. That's what we desire for because we do like to be happy than to be sad right?

Sometimes, humans are really funny and contradict. As for me, when I'm in primary, I wanted to grow up so badly to step into high school's life to expericence the life of being a teenage. But, mid way through high school, I was eager to end high school's life as it is tough and boring it seems. Finally, it has come to an end of high school and I wanted the time to turn back where the fun of our life begins in high school which will be ending in a month!! Optimistically, we're becoming mature. =)

快乐不知时间过. Fun time is almost over and is time to get serious to face up SPM. We used to procrastinate our works by saying ''SPM still far" and ended up facing the computer. But now, it seems like very guilty without reading a book a day or do some questions. Everything turned up to be tensed up now, SPM-ers left 10 days to go!

Alright, hereby I would like to wish everyone of you who are taking SPM. All the best and good luck! Get on with you all's book but bare in mind, all work and no play make Jack a dull boy. =)



signing off..

Life =)

Recently, a quote came across my mind that inspire me to think about tht quote. Seriously, that quote really makes me think and it is really very meaningful.

''Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end and somewhere in the middle that make our lives worth living''

Well, think out of the box. As for frendship, in the beginning everything was just 0. We know nothing about anyone. As soon as we get to know each other, that's where it begins. How long can a friendship last? minutes? hours? days? weeks? or years? To have a beginning is just simple, it can be done in just days. A simple ''Hi'' and let's the conversation do the job. But how about the ending?

An ending is just harder than beginning. Agree? Saying hello to anyone is just easy but saying good-bye is hard. Seriously, good-bye is really a heavy work to blow out of our mouth. As we had been in relationship, well let just b friend. Feeling will grow within ourselves, and feelings are hard to be let go. Feeling is the physical sensation of touch through either perception or experience.

We might be good in remembering things thn memorise stuff as most of us don't like to. What we've been thru with friends, partner, family or even yourself made the middle part of our lives where memories starts to grow. Remembering things are just a natural phenomenon tht happened throughout our live. Everyone remembers their birthdate because we celebrate each of our birthday with firends and family but not by memorising it don't we?

There's another quote that is similar to this post. Start with a smile and end with tears. Every relationship, no matter couple, friends or school life. Everything starts with a smile and at the end, tears just will flow out of our shallow eyes. Time is like a candle, occupy each moment of our day it makes our life looks shorter. Forget bout the past, let it go and move on. It will be easier and lighter to face new problems. Is like i'm goin out of topic, LOL. Well, let's end this post than. Appreciate the ones beside you and enjoy every moment of joy. Explore the simplicity in life would just make life simple, beauty, and joyful.




signing off..

wat can i say?

Well, time is been flying fast these days. Perhaps, we will b saying goodbye to each other as soon as we end our high school life in December. 1st of all, i'm kinda disappointed on something which wat i saw few hours ago mayb? but wat i really ask say is, ''forgive and forget'' does this phrase exist in this world? if is does exist, I would lk to say sorry to all of my friends tht hates me deep inside their heart for wat i've done in the past.

Not all ppl might do tht, as I know some of them was just all the while showing fake colourfull shells. But for once, I've forgive and regretted for watever shit I've done for the past to someone. The freaking response tht i get was really disappointed. For wat as I know is, most of u hav the same thinking towards me and the reason why most of u hate me is because of my attitude. Well, i guess for the past 5 years, I'm the only one tht was being hated the most compare to the others.

I've tried my best to change myself. Forgive or nt to is really out of my hand and is all of u all's decision. Might forgive but may not forget. I dun mind if is still in u all's mind, wat i wan is just to b the same with the others. Every people have different statuses, and I know I've the lowest status level in this class. If there's ppl who really appreciate me as frend, I'm really happy about that. Well, for me friends can hav a million of them but true friend is nt as easy to have even 3 of them. I appreciate each everyone of you all as my frend and I've forgive everything that u all did to me coz I know mostly disliked me.



signing off.

Time f0r a break =)

studied sej for almost 2 hours plus. surprised huh? btw, i've learn a quote which is ''a person's integrity does nt worth more thn the others, we've to respect each other eventhough each person have different status''. this quote really mean a lot to me and it speaks out wat i've always in mind.

well, next, i'm regret and felt guity of nt g0in to school today. yes, i've made the decision nt to go today and i dun hav the rights to regret and guilt of cz i choose nt to go. but, wat the teacher thought of us? how they feel about our attitudes? i'm always lazy to go to school tht i've to admit but this time, the 1st time ever i felt regret of nt goin to school. i really dunno why and i really felt bad after reading Moo's status. seriously, 5s1 is a class which i put all my heart in it and for me this class is everything. 5 years studying together, having exam together, outing together and even absent together. hw many times i've shed my tears regarding to the people of 5s1?

time are getting away from us. do u all think tht there's still chance for us to b in a uniform of blue pinefore, green trousers and white shirt sitting together facing the whiteboard under the ceiling of a class? chatting, playing, laughing together? i'll shit myself if i'm trying to prove something by blogging this post. 2 more weeks left. imagine tht, after SPM, that's all. just 2 more weeks, we'll b seperating and tht's it. the end of high school. i'm nt acting r proving tht i'm good with this post. these are all my thoughts, my feel towards the class and my mate. i'm even sheding my tears while i'm typing this piece of post. i'll miss u guys and the moment we're together, i do, i really mean it.

What r u all thinking?

after a hectic day of schooling and seminar, finally settled down to blog before signing off for revision again. today we had camwhore in our class which is kinda nice for me, cz it gives me memory with my bunch of kawans. and yea, i gt the chance to represent the school football team to gone up stage to get the certificate for the last time in this school. really missing those training moment in this school. erm, nothing much to post actually, just found out tht our class are made out of few groups. am i a slowpoke? LOL. is tht wat we call as a class? hmmm.

well, there'll b a Majlis Izin Restu for form5 students to shake hands and giving thanks to our teacher tht had taught us. guess wat, amazingly, 5S1 the top class in this school refuses to go to school. tht's really disappoint me, i dunno y. they dun care but y i care so much bout it? tht's my cons i guess. for me, yes, i admit i rather stay at home better thn shaking teachers hand in school, but, hw will the teacher thinks bout us? seriously, i really just wanna say thanks to the teacher tht have taught me. i really dunno wat u all think about it, mayb never thought of teachers feeling? hmmmm, better nt to condemn much. right, off for dinner and study.

really disappointed with them. =(

signing off, cheers.

To You

yes,
this post is for u..

At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.

Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.

Trial Results..

currently..
my trial results are..

Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+

still nid improvement!!