[-BrokenHeartz-]

Happy Blessed 18th Birthday Evonne

2011-07-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

Dear Evonne,

First of all, hereby I wish you a Happy Blessed 18th Birthday. Wish that your coming days are full of colours and live life to fullness.

6th July, is a very special day where a beautiful, gorgeous, smart, caring and lovely child was born. It might just an ordinary day for other people but it is a special day for you.

We grow old as the time past each year. The secret to stay young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age. It takes a long time to grow young, the old believe everything, the middle age suspect everything but the young knows everything and in the end, it's not the year in your year that counts, it's the life in your years.

It's another good day for you as god picked another petal on your flower, wishing your flowar may bloom for years. We gets older not with the years that had past, but it's the newer day that we gone through. I never get to forget about your birthday because I never recorded it but I remember it deep through my heart.

As young follows you forever, Young Evonne, live life to the fullness. I wish you once a year, but this year I'll wish you with 27 different languages.

Happy Birthday..
生日快乐..
Bon Anniversaire.. (French)
幸せ誕生日.. (Japanese)
행복한생일.. (Korean)
Selamat Hari Jadi..
Sretan Rodendan.. (Croation)
Tillykke med fodselsdagen.. (Danish)
สุขสันต์วันเกิด.. (Thai)
Breithlá Sona.. (Irish)
Natalis Beati.. (Latin)
Penblwydd Hapus.. (Welsh)
Feliz Cumpleaos.. (Spanish)
Feliz Aniversário.. (Portugese)
Buon Compleanno.. (Italian)
Gratulerer med dagen.. (Norwegian)
Ευτυχισμενα Γενεθλια.. (Greek)
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag.. (German)
fericit ziua de naştere.. (Romanian)
S Dnem Rozhdeniya.. (Russian)
Srecan Rodjendan.. (Serbian)
sreḱen rodenden.. (Macedonian)
chúc mừng sinh nhật.. (Vietnamese)
Hyvää syntymäpäivää.. (Finnish)
feliç aniversari.. (Catalan)
ბედნიერი დაბადების დღე.. (Georgian)
všechno nejlepší k narozeninám.. (Czech)

There you go. It's look simple but I hope you like it.
Happy Birthday once again before I end this post. Hope you like it.

By, Julius Wong to Birthday girl Young Evonne. =)

Changes

2011-07-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

Well, I guessed it will gonna be another emo post. Has been a long time since the last time I emo and I wrote to my bloggie. Suddenly, I felt that many things had changed.

The feelings in me are getting faded. We are now like strangers. Seriously, I don't think that you care for whatever thing I do and say right? Actually, I'm recalling when was the last time I teared infront of my comp when a song is playing. Guess what, I did it again, now. This song is an old song that makes me think of many thing once again. The main question the always hold me back from going forward, Do I still really love you? If no, why I will still thinking of you? We become like this is it because of me and I made these?

I lost my confident, I don't wish to be hurt again by anyone out there. 5 years, the pain is unimaginable. I'm just a ordinary but weak guy on the inside. No one knows how I cry in my heart as I smile loudly, crazily, joyfully outside. Is hard for me to control my emotions especially late night, just have to force myself to do something, not to listen songs or even think of other stuff but only homework and revisions. I'm depressed deeply, besides sports I have nothing to put myself away from thinking about the past and now, the present and coming days.

As everyone said, everyone has his/her own silver linings. When I'm crazily over you, you're just perfect in every aspect, but why now I felt that I'm trying my best to be friendly but the response I get was as if I always being irritated? Am I deserve to be treated like that or is my own problem that I couldn't be normal to you?

sigh, haihhhhhhh....................................................

Random

2011-06-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

During the past, I easily fall in love with someone which is good to me.
But at once, I fal in love with someone that bound me for a long time.
After all ups and down, when I'm ready, I find that I'm hard to fall in love.
Even I don't even know where and how to start.

You'd changed me, I'd challenged myself.
Now, I lost myself again and yet to be found.
I'm strong in my body, I'm weak in my soul.
A broken wound that has been with me for half a decade.
A broken wound with salt just added, it hurts a lot.

Used to emo all day long,
Now, used to dance it out to express it.

Chances are given once, twice but not trice.
When it came, I deny it by confusing myself.
Once it passed, regretted and blame oneself.
It happened past few years, and it came again.

I lost my determination and confidence.
I'll say I love you, and I did.
I'll greet everyday, and I tried.
Do I still loving you, the answer might be yes from the inside,
but not the outside.

Why it get on my nerve?
Why it changed?
Sorry for letting it go, all the best and good luck.

Lastly, half a decade will be continue and I still love you.

Lyrics In My Heart

2011-05-15T01:45:00.004+08:00

You ask me if I love you
and I chocked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
and who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you.

( I'd never ask you, but I wish to know the true answer from you )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in my will gone forever )

romance and all its strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
but through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant fighter
still trapped within my youth

( I'm battling myself to improve bcz of romance, jealousy owns me thats what insecure me, I'm writing my own fake story which hiding the truth within my youth )

and sometimes when we touch
the honestys too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both breakdown and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

( Sometimes we get close to each other, I've closed my eyes and hide myself from the truth and I broken down and cried, if I got the chance to hold you, the fear in me will gone forever )

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the love I'd in me is irrisistable, no matter it had been ages or centuries, yet I'm still in it and never change. why? the answer is obvious but I hope that I'll never lie to myself with that answer.

What I wish is not what I expected.

2011-05-04T16:51:00.002+08:00

I thought tht I've changed,
becoming a slightly better and different person,
In the end, I finally realised I was still the same as before.

What I wish for has made me feel happy but the expectation had let me down. I still couldn't fight the devil within myself. Conversation couldn't last wrong and unable to point out my weakness. Why I couldn't face that?

Hot, sweat, nervous and careful of everything I say and do. Why am I still hiding the real side of me? What I need is just natural! =X

Am I still in it yet couldn't climb up from the fall? Why am I so pissed today? I don't really care whether I skipped something important and wasted time on something not urgent but why still I can get mad over that? Simple word, jealousy.

Kick start my college life soon. All the best, good luck and get over it. =)

Is The Beginning

2011-03-21T19:17:00.006+08:00

Is been a while that I left my public diary untouchable. Well, let's begin =)

Is gonna be 3 months gone in the year of 2011. It has been a tragic beginning for the year of 2011. It is in the paper and on the TV. Seriously, I do concern on what and how will the earth be as my life goes on. Will it end when I'm just about to begin my real life of being an adult? Well, we will just have to pray and live our life to the fullest!

My high school's life has ended for merely 3 months and everything seems to be okay, some has started their new college life, some gaining experience by working and earning themselves some pocket money, few went for National Service and for me, sports and outing is my life for the past 2 months after I quit working for some reasons. I'm very miserable these few days as SPM results are about to released. Think hard where shall I begin my studies. Many obstacles lies ahead and it drives me crazy! I have to make my mind clear as fast as I can before everything's too late for it.

Next, I do agree that this world has many miracle. =) Finally, I'm having a normal life with a better mood and emotion. Thinking back the past, where I always being emo, sad and unhappy. I begin my brighter side by knowing some of the friends that once we met before as stranger. Thanks to FACEBOOK where I can start off many friendship and stay contact with friends thru it. Beginning with a few ''Hello's'' and comments. Soon after the relationship getting stronger and that's where it begins.

Friends really do influece a lot in a person's life. From that case, it happened to me. After knewing them, they made me felt happier and something weird happen in me myself. Well, hope is jsut a weird by-passing feelings.

Finally, wish every SPM student good luck for Wednesday. No matter is a good or bad result everything is over and just face it. All the best.

Thanks

2010-12-26T00:45:00.006+08:00

Thanks for everything. You had made me change to become a better person. I've tried my best to be someone special to you but I've failed. I really happy that you still treat me as 1 of your friend, eventhough I've a low status in you. We are only friends.

You're a person who I admire the most. The feeling towards you is undescribeable. I can't believe that I can cry because of you, changed because of you, because of you I've learnt a lot of lesson and loved you for so long. I may have failed, but, you have succeed what I wanted for all these while. If is not you, today's Julius Wong Yi Jin will not exist.

I really don't know what makes me so in love with you. The talent you got, the intelligence you have, the appearance you have, just anything about you. Remember 约定? this is the 1st song that you have played with a piano for me through the phone. There're a lot of memorable memories lie in me. My sacrifieses, time, effort, money, love are not wasted and it is worth to make you happy. I'm not selfish, I'm rasional but I'm stubborn and had a bad temper. I may be easy to get jealous, I might be annoying but everything I do, I'll think of the consequences and ready to accept it. The post that you have given me a big slap, I've it with me always. 4th August 2009.

Well, I guess we're just meant to be friends or best friends. Hope you can forgive about my past, and everything that I've did. I'm sorry that I often made you moody. I've made you mad at me for quite a lot of times. Lastly, good luck and all the best in future. Take care while in NS. God Bless.

It will be the last,
I Love You.
Friends forever.. =)

Christmas

2010-12-25T18:28:00.003+08:00

Well, I don't know how do I feel now. Happy? Sad? or is it neutral? i don't know what bother me too. Every year, every time celebrate christmas I always put high hope and excited feelings in myself hoping that it is a perfect day and a special day for me to be remembered. But, maybe what i expect is way too high and will never get to achieve, that is what makes me feel like now.

Every year's Christmas, I always try my best to prepare a special and memorable present eventhough I know the present that I get back is something that is out of expectation. Search high and low, efforts and time. But, why I still try my best to give you a special and nice present? Is because I love you. Before I bought any of those present, I think and think and keep on thinking. How would a simple and low cost present could be special and meaningful.

I don't know what makes me so daring to wrote all these here. Is in my heart, I kept it for more than 2 years. I don't expect any expensive present or what. Whatever present you gave, I kept it nicely and appreciate it, a lot. It maybe the last year. I don't wish to. No one wish to have a last. So do me and you right? I've planned and dare myself to face rejection if I'm about to ask what I've wanted to ask, but, I guess the outcome would be the same.

I guessed, that's all for today's post.

Merry Christmas my friends!
be HAPPY,
be MERRY,
be with your love ones, family and friends.

signing off.....

Mid-Night Blues

2010-12-18T03:42:00.003+08:00

You are my love..
Over the hills..
Under the clouds..
Nothing can stop my mind..
Gasping for air as my tears flow..

Everything to me is oni YOU..
Vine waving as wind blow..
On this land of greenery views..
Not oni eu appear in my mind..
Neither do my heart keep thinking of eu..
Eager to find the path to ur heart..

I cant see the truth in ur mind..

Lying to myself for the past years..
Only myself noe how much i love eu..
Viewing through ur beautiful eyes..
Everything aorund came to a stop..

You're the one i love..
Only this moment i could speak it out loud..
Urge to say I LOVE YOU!!!

signing off..

It's Over

2010-12-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

Well, it has finally came to an end. High school life ended for at 8th of december 2010. I'm gonna start missing each of everyone of you including my uniform. Happy yet unhappy. Now, we are one step into the hectic society and persue our own dream. As for now, I'M FREEEEEE!!

15th December 2010,
Before we went to Jogoya, we sing out loud at Low Yat redbox with Tai, Min, Ycy, Ting, Me, Lim, Alex, Boon, Ryan, Carmen, Evonne and Vinnie. We missed a group photo at Redbox, wasted. At Jogoya with my buddies to have a blast of celebration after SPM and as for farewell to Kar Min and Boon's Birthday. A farewell not a treat. =P The bill that we paid was RM968.00 but I guessed the amount of food we ate is more than that. LOL. Took bunch of pictures with them.

After that, we went to Pavilion to catch the fake snow. Flooded with peoples and the ambiance is great! It seems like Christmas is here. Took a lot a lot a lot of pictures and met some friends there. Hope this coming Christmas will rewind the past 2 years.

Friends, I had a wonderful time with you all for the past 5 years. Many ups and downs. I really appreciate everyone of you. Friends forever.

signing off..

Jyin 傅健颖 - 我们会再见MV (Official Version)

2010-11-15T01:47:00.001+08:00

Listen to the melody and the meaning of the lyrics. Proceed to the next article too. =)

Friendship Never Breaks

2010-11-15T00:22:00.005+08:00

Friends, we have been together for 4 years and most of us are already been together for 5 years. The sorrow that we went through are more than we could ever imagine. Every single moment, every single joy that we have within us, will always be remembered. This coming examination, will be the last time that we will be in the smart uniform, sitting together beneath one roof, in a hectic hall chasing our own dreams together. All the best!

Well, I would like to apologise sincerely for each of every mistake that I've did towards you all. What I gain, I learned, I experienced is really priceless and I will treasures that in my heart as we go on to persue our dream. The sweet memories that I will never forget;

went for school together, crapping around, have meal during recess, teasing around, falling in love with classmate, competing each other during sportsday, supporting and cheer, went tuition, play truancy during the last period, last minute assignment, study untill wee hours during exams, comparing results and last but not least, birthday treats. Remember all these? it happened during our life in high school. The friendship between us will never break.

Tomorrow, 15th November 2010, will be the last day for us to be together and there will be a great bash of party for us. I hope that I wont shed tears during this bash and you all wont shed tears too right? =P After this, we will be facing SPM and that is it, the end. I hope that, after the dismissal, we can have reunion that will be attended by all of you. Tears from my eyes just burst out as I wrote this article. I know, some of you will shed tears tomorrow, but, promise not to tears okay? =')

Well, let's pray and hope that everyone of us will succeed. Friends, you all are the best! Good Luck!

给我答应我们会再见, 给我信心我们会再见, 什么距离都不算远! No matter how far we all will be, I believe that everyone of us will meet again! I will never erased the memories of being with you all.

Love,
Julius. (5S1-2010)

Me

2010-11-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

Recently, have a conversation with a friend of mine and I looked deep beneath myself. Looking back at the past, and things that I have done yet mistakes I made. Uncountable mistakes I have that made my day nw; sad, unhappy and emotional. Look at the past, it was like a nightmare during a sleep.

I have made my friend lost patiences within me and cause a lot of problems between us. The ego in me has pawned me alive. Sins of jealousy and envy-ing did the same and I found myself in the grave covering with guilt and forgiveness that I ever wanted. In a blink of an eye, everything came to an end, it is too late for me to be forgive.

She is right, before I fall in love with someone, I should have love myself in the first place. Every steps I take it seems like I am going nearer to the doorgate of Hell. Over doing something, get seduced in the most deadliest sin of jealousy, that it is all begin. Ruined everything beyond my own hand, letting go my spirit and lost hope to myself. Seems like I hav lost my sight and I am going no where but towards a dead end. Trapped myself in a dark and routeless box. Lonely, emotional and unhappy.

He is right and yet he is one of my best friend that have been thru ups and downs. Nothing is perfect in this hectic world. The feeling of dislike within friends do exist in everyone of us, is just the matter of the limit of the feeling. I'm too over about myself, making all decisions and being too possessive and there where it begun the feeling of dislike grows beyond them towards me. I hide my feelings deep beneath myself and being hatred by most of them. Shed tears quietly without being notice is well torturing. Hope it will be better.

As for thou. I made your high school life miserable by falling in love with you. This matter is something that really bothers me because it has pros and cons. I do learn a lot and understand a lot before really getting involve with relationship which I failed. It made our relationship gone no where but backwards. That is my turning point in my school life and the beginning of the life of love. A sentence that I've buried within me. ''You don't even understand yourself and you're trying to understand me''. A task that I've never succeed. A task which proved me wrong and useless. In the sense of maturity, I'm still a kid with a pinch of knowledge. Well, it is too soon.

Did as what I never did before,
Tried to change to be better but never done,
Failed within my hope and goal,
Ended up hopeless and benefitless.

signing off..

Time

2010-11-12T01:14:00.003+08:00

Let's starts off with a typical question that not all of us may answer. What is time?

Well, most of us will just answer. ''Time is just something that is measured by using a clock''. That's just a common answer that we usually get, I guessed.

Time is something that will never turn back and there's no U-turn. Once it is passed, we will be moving forward. There are 24 hours a day, 168 hours a week and 8760 hours a year. It seems like, it is still not enough for us to enjoy our life. When we're depressed, we wished the time to fly quickly but when we're happy, we wished that the tie could just stop right there as long as it can. That's what we desire for because we do like to be happy than to be sad right?

Sometimes, humans are really funny and contradict. As for me, when I'm in primary, I wanted to grow up so badly to step into high school's life to expericence the life of being a teenage. But, mid way through high school, I was eager to end high school's life as it is tough and boring it seems. Finally, it has come to an end of high school and I wanted the time to turn back where the fun of our life begins in high school which will be ending in a month!! Optimistically, we're becoming mature. =)

快乐不知时间过. Fun time is almost over and is time to get serious to face up SPM. We used to procrastinate our works by saying ''SPM still far" and ended up facing the computer. But now, it seems like very guilty without reading a book a day or do some questions. Everything turned up to be tensed up now, SPM-ers left 10 days to go!

Alright, hereby I would like to wish everyone of you who are taking SPM. All the best and good luck! Get on with you all's book but bare in mind, all work and no play make Jack a dull boy. =)

signing off..

Life =)

2010-11-10T02:02:00.005+08:00

Recently, a quote came across my mind that inspire me to think about tht quote. Seriously, that quote really makes me think and it is really very meaningful.

''Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end and somewhere in the middle that make our lives worth living''

Well, think out of the box. As for frendship, in the beginning everything was just 0. We know nothing about anyone. As soon as we get to know each other, that's where it begins. How long can a friendship last? minutes? hours? days? weeks? or years? To have a beginning is just simple, it can be done in just days. A simple ''Hi'' and let's the conversation do the job. But how about the ending?

An ending is just harder than beginning. Agree? Saying hello to anyone is just easy but saying good-bye is hard. Seriously, good-bye is really a heavy work to blow out of our mouth. As we had been in relationship, well let just b friend. Feeling will grow within ourselves, and feelings are hard to be let go. Feeling is the physical sensation of touch through either perception or experience.

We might be good in remembering things thn memorise stuff as most of us don't like to. What we've been thru with friends, partner, family or even yourself made the middle part of our lives where memories starts to grow. Remembering things are just a natural phenomenon tht happened throughout our live. Everyone remembers their birthdate because we celebrate each of our birthday with firends and family but not by memorising it don't we?

There's another quote that is similar to this post. Start with a smile and end with tears. Every relationship, no matter couple, friends or school life. Everything starts with a smile and at the end, tears just will flow out of our shallow eyes. Time is like a candle, occupy each moment of our day it makes our life looks shorter. Forget bout the past, let it go and move on. It will be easier and lighter to face new problems. Is like i'm goin out of topic, LOL. Well, let's end this post than. Appreciate the ones beside you and enjoy every moment of joy. Explore the simplicity in life would just make life simple, beauty, and joyful.

signing off..

wat can i say?

2010-11-09T21:36:00.005+08:00

Well, time is been flying fast these days. Perhaps, we will b saying goodbye to each other as soon as we end our high school life in December. 1st of all, i'm kinda disappointed on something which wat i saw few hours ago mayb? but wat i really ask say is, ''forgive and forget'' does this phrase exist in this world? if is does exist, I would lk to say sorry to all of my friends tht hates me deep inside their heart for wat i've done in the past.

Not all ppl might do tht, as I know some of them was just all the while showing fake colourfull shells. But for once, I've forgive and regretted for watever shit I've done for the past to someone. The freaking response tht i get was really disappointed. For wat as I know is, most of u hav the same thinking towards me and the reason why most of u hate me is because of my attitude. Well, i guess for the past 5 years, I'm the only one tht was being hated the most compare to the others.

I've tried my best to change myself. Forgive or nt to is really out of my hand and is all of u all's decision. Might forgive but may not forget. I dun mind if is still in u all's mind, wat i wan is just to b the same with the others. Every people have different statuses, and I know I've the lowest status level in this class. If there's ppl who really appreciate me as frend, I'm really happy about that. Well, for me friends can hav a million of them but true friend is nt as easy to have even 3 of them. I appreciate each everyone of you all as my frend and I've forgive everything that u all did to me coz I know mostly disliked me.

signing off.

Time f0r a break =)

2010-11-02T17:49:00.003+08:00

studied sej for almost 2 hours plus. surprised huh? btw, i've learn a quote which is ''a person's integrity does nt worth more thn the others, we've to respect each other eventhough each person have different status''. this quote really mean a lot to me and it speaks out wat i've always in mind.

well, next, i'm regret and felt guity of nt g0in to school today. yes, i've made the decision nt to go today and i dun hav the rights to regret and guilt of cz i choose nt to go. but, wat the teacher thought of us? how they feel about our attitudes? i'm always lazy to go to school tht i've to admit but this time, the 1st time ever i felt regret of nt goin to school. i really dunno why and i really felt bad after reading Moo's status. seriously, 5s1 is a class which i put all my heart in it and for me this class is everything. 5 years studying together, having exam together, outing together and even absent together. hw many times i've shed my tears regarding to the people of 5s1?

time are getting away from us. do u all think tht there's still chance for us to b in a uniform of blue pinefore, green trousers and white shirt sitting together facing the whiteboard under the ceiling of a class? chatting, playing, laughing together? i'll shit myself if i'm trying to prove something by blogging this post. 2 more weeks left. imagine tht, after SPM, that's all. just 2 more weeks, we'll b seperating and tht's it. the end of high school. i'm nt acting r proving tht i'm good with this post. these are all my thoughts, my feel towards the class and my mate. i'm even sheding my tears while i'm typing this piece of post. i'll miss u guys and the moment we're together, i do, i really mean it.

What r u all thinking?

2010-11-01T20:34:00.005+08:00

after a hectic day of schooling and seminar, finally settled down to blog before signing off for revision again. today we had camwhore in our class which is kinda nice for me, cz it gives me memory with my bunch of kawans. and yea, i gt the chance to represent the school football team to gone up stage to get the certificate for the last time in this school. really missing those training moment in this school. erm, nothing much to post actually, just found out tht our class are made out of few groups. am i a slowpoke? LOL. is tht wat we call as a class? hmmm.

well, there'll b a Majlis Izin Restu for form5 students to shake hands and giving thanks to our teacher tht had taught us. guess wat, amazingly, 5S1 the top class in this school refuses to go to school. tht's really disappoint me, i dunno y. they dun care but y i care so much bout it? tht's my cons i guess. for me, yes, i admit i rather stay at home better thn shaking teachers hand in school, but, hw will the teacher thinks bout us? seriously, i really just wanna say thanks to the teacher tht have taught me. i really dunno wat u all think about it, mayb never thought of teachers feeling? hmmmm, better nt to condemn much. right, off for dinner and study.

really disappointed with them. =(

signing off, cheers.

To You

2010-10-22T10:42:00.004+08:00

yes,
this post is for u..

At first, u said that i didnt talk to u or watever. The reason is bcz i scare of being hurt or treated cold. At once i've tried my best to talk to u and ur responce was just ask me to kip quiet or dun talk to u. Alright, mayb bcz u're sick or nt feeling well. But, hw come whn others came to u, u can laugh, smile and speak out loudly with them? Nt once, nt twice but many times already. You always thought that if u giv me response, I'll think that u giv me chance or watever. I can say i won't think that way cz we're impossible as u said b4. Bout future we'll nvr know right? But, if u always kept that in mind, do u think we can b frend? We might not even b a normal frend tht u wish for. Yea, I'm a easily jealous person but I've tried my best nt to show any emotional stuff out.

Lastly, I would lk to say Thank You for everything. You've changed me to b a better person, you are the one who influenced me the most. I really owe you, you really changed me a lot. I just really hope tht we will b frend, just normal frend perhaps? As what you wanted. I realised tht, I'm still nt good to b matched up with you. =) All the best ba.

Trial Results..

2010-10-22T10:39:00.004+08:00

currently..
my trial results are..

Bahasa Melayu : A-
English : A
Mathematics : A
P.Moral : A
Sejarah : B
Add. Maths : D
Biology : B
Physics : A-
Chemistry : B+

still nid improvement!!

Good Luck for Trials!

2010-09-24T05:11:00.002+08:00

23rd September 2010..
SPM Trial officially started..
it will gonne b a harshful 3weeks of exam..

1st week shud b nt tensed up..
2nd and 3rd week are the most challenging week tht we hav to go thru..

well..
wat i can say is..
good luck and all the best!!

Cherish!!

2010-09-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

recently..
something happened to my family..
my grandpa admitted to hospital for artery replacement..
he already admitted for about 2 weeks+ and finally operated..
bfore his operation,
i visited him few times and hav some talk, c-ing him smile, walking here and thr..
his condition kinda good and he's lk no fear of the operation..

till today..
he finally have his operation yesterday..
and i had my 1st visit after his operation..
once i reached..
i went to call him and greet him..
he looked and hav a smile on me..
i was relieved and tears about to flow..
in my heart.. i said.. ''thx god''
till thn he sleep all the way and we left he opened his eye say say bye to us..
on da way back..
i kip on thinking about the past..
hw good he treat me, hw good is he..

so,
cherish everyone tht is still around b4 is too late..
god bless.. =)

passed my undang too!
47/50..

start studying for exams d..

Julius 加油!!

Dream

2010-08-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

fr wat tht hav pass..
is just lk a dream..
everything was just lk in dream upon dream.. inceptions?
i guess thts true..
human do create dream themselves..
as for me..
creating and setting up myself in a dream tht is impossible to b happened..
but it did..
and i hav failed to achieve the impossible dream..

sometimes..
many things do turn on u..
even u urself will turn on ourself..
things tht hav passed will b taken out to our mind and rewind it..
making ourself sad, down and moody.. i dunno with others.. but i am..
wat u all think about the pass?

history?
dream?
mistakes?
illusions?

as for me..
it is all about a dream..
sweet dream, nightmaress.. watever it is..
it will always b thr in my mind..
do u all know tht, there's a phrase says..

yesterday is history, today is a gift and tomorrow is future?
if i'm nt mistaken lahh..

is really mean to me..
but i might just chg ytd to bcome dream.. today is a recorder and tomorrow is a mirror..

'' those who are willing to try to rewrite history to make it as wat they wish it to b happen, inevitably fail to learn the lessons that the past can teach them ''

thts wat exactly i'm doin..
hoping, trying to make every past to bcome present..
failed to learn wat had happened and get doomed..
being the old stubborn me is being hate by many of u..
wat i can really do?
start a new life?

but how?
hmmm...

dream never come true if u made a too perfect dream..

good, bad and now worse..

2010-08-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

well.. many things had happened and days has past.. at first.. happy to b with a friendly and crazyyy friend.. haha!! nice chatting with though..

10th August 2010.. our school chinese society organised a Singing competition ( 唱出你心中的旋律) and it ended up perfectly.. 11 contestents put many effort on this competition.. congratulation to Young Evonne.. 你真的唱出你心中的旋律了.. ^^ so do Weng Ching and Han Goh.. will it b the last chance for me to hear her sing? hmmm.. hope nt.. Sherilyn Goh and Mee Yuk u 2 did the best too.. for u u u.. yeah u.. touched me a bit.. with ur 20secs talk.. LOL..

as for today.. hmmm.. nth special ba.. really happy these 2 days.. but till nw.. nighttt time.. dunno y vr down.. really wish to b lk last time.. yess.. time wont turn back.. =( sms no reply.. everything just lk.. uhh.. cry and cry and cry.. really useless for a guy.. just.. dunno y.. haaaaaaihh.. god bless me.. crapping d..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
pls..
i wanna b lk last time.. =(

3rd of August 2010

2010-08-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

heyya! wassup. long time didnt blog d. hmmmm.. is been already 5~6 months rite? watever.
haha.. there's a lot of things happened in past 5 to 6 months.. alright.. let's say it all out in this post. at first, i would lk to congratulate those who selected for PLKN!!xD including me myself.. gonna b botak soon.. sad.. =( take good care of urself ar.. after PLKN i wanna hav a meeting ar.. haha.. so call gathering~~~

next, trial coming reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal soon so do SPM examinations.. but, the books still remain untouched.. i guess most of u all also same ba.. =P time flies so faaaaaaaaaast.. school life will come to an end soon.. will miss u guys lots =) well, during the previous school holidays me, min, tai, lyn and vnie went to sunway lagoon to hav a blast.. tht is the first ever wet outing tht we had in our 5 years relationship.. cool huh? hmmmm.. is turned out to b a bad 1 cz of RAIN~!!! damn.. we leave the house at 8 something in the morning and reached home around 10 in the night.. there's an outing tht i'll nvr erased from my memory.. u guys roxxx ya.. =)

soon after.. there's a lil celebration for lyn and evon.. 17 years old le.. haha.. Happy Birthday ya! =P a surprise turned out to b a normal party.. mcam tak surprise pun~~~ haha.. ting left early bcz of some matter~ haaaaih.. duet with her singing 你那么爱他 for the 1st time and it will b the last itme in my life.. wonderful moment.. =) thn wei ting's turn to go back and the bufdae girl went back around 5 something.. left me, min, ycy, lim, carmen, zu, lyn singing and shouting in the k-room.. a fantastic hour we had.. from 1 till 7pm.. cool yea!! many things to say arr!! nvm.. just tell those which ar really highlighted in my life..

okkk.. thn, recently i started talking to her already.. relationship started to have some improvement.. went pizza hut with her for another lil bufdae celebration for her.. have so much fun being together.. chat, talk, sms, msn, and even FB.. =) as for lyn, as close as b4.. nvr been so close b4 in my life.. really enjoy the moment with her.. everyday go home, go tuition and wherever also together.. tht few weeks WAS a perfect week for me.. really vr happy.. the smile tht came really from my heart.. thts the true happiness i had..

everything turned upside down in the same month.. checked PLKN, selected.. nightmares begun.. have a big war with lyn.. she mad at me.. everything changed!! no more sms, no more fb comments, no more fb chat, no talk no nth.. daily school life turned to b a phobia.. next, fight with the closest frend i ever had.. being ignored for 2 weeks.. tears flow.. 1st ever time cry infront of a girl over the phone.. 1st ever time cry infront of ting in the class.. every morning wake up.. goin to school lk goin to hell.. every smile, every laugh is just a fake.. had a vr vr vr bad moood.. mood swings, emo, quiet, less talk.. talk and cry towards a few months old dog.. being licked.. from there onwards.. i lost my life.. is so nt me since after.. a closest frend of mind turned out to b lk me and someone else.. as for her, i'm jsut lk a stranger for her.. on can c, can think, can hope, can wish, but cant do anything else more thn tht.. =( haaaaiih.. wil things really get better in time? =(

lyn,
every moment we been thru will always b in my heart.. i'll nvr frgt tht u're ONCE my bestest frend ever i had.. everythng turned out to b lk this is all bcz of me.. i mad all these..

u,
mayb, is time for me to really let it go.. already 3 weeks u ignoring me.. my everyday is just lk a day.. could hardly past.. i'm so sry for over do many things.. every mistake i made i'll responsible for everything balasan tht i deserved.. i will always love u.. =(

Julius,
every mistake u made u hav to pay for it.. dun ask for anything return.. stop staying in inception and wake up from ur f**king dream.. there's a big challenge coming ahead.. is a key to ur life.. get up, move forward and time will nvr rewind back.. rmb this phrase tht she told u 2 years ago.. '' time will oni go forward and nvr turn back, move forward, face the obstacle and nt avoid it..'' i will rmb this till the last breath of my life..

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signing off.. peace..

Happy Birthday!! xD

2010-02-28T21:41:00.002+08:00

well.. my birthday party just ended.. is kinda special party tht i had.. 1st time open birthday party.. is nt vr successful but i appreciate eu guys come to my house.. tai, min, ycy, ting, lim, zu, alex, boon, ryan, lyn, julia, yin mei, yun ying, carmen and evon.. thx for giving me face to attend this party.. although is my birthday, but still i'm nt vr happy.. i duno y.. i received many many wishes through sms and facebook.. thx for the wishes friends..

there're various of food tht they brought.. fried rice, friend mee hun, hot dog, wedges, nuggets, fries and ice-cream.. ycy and tai brought their guitar here and played it.. i sang many songs with tai tht expressed my feeling.. i hope he noe tht.. many ppl went back early as i thought.. yin mei nt feeling well, julia went out with family.. but i really unhappy bout 1 thing.. lyn told me tht she can go back anytime and quite late.. but i really cant expect tht she went back b4 she manage to taste the cake.. tht is wat i most unhappy about.. besides, i heard something tht really hurts me deeply.. mayb i'm too sensitive oveer it.. mayb is just a joke ba.. oh ya.. carmen, pls dun force her to do something tht she dun lk ba.. no use de.. but thx for ur effort..

bout the present.. currently i just received 2 present from 8 ppl.. lol? tai and min, thx for the white watch.. lyn, hua, vinnie, yin mei, carmen and evon thx for the frog shirt.. is kinda too long for the shirt and too big for the watch.. lol.. well.. is very hard to act happy whn in heart my heart is vr sad.. vr vr xin ku.. lol.. many ups and downs in just a day.. lol.. cool 1.. hmmmmmm... some of them couldn't come i'm really disappointed.. JE and vinnie..

evonne.. lol.. i couldn't bliv tht i couldn't face u.. i'm vr happy whn the moment eu said 生日快乐 to me.. i'm vr vr happy tht moment.. lol.. is kinda funny though.. we ended up lk this.. i really wish to talk to eu.. i really wish to joke with u.. i really wish to take pic with u.. i really wish to hug eu today.. i really wish for many things.. but i just couldn't do it.. y i choose this path.. hope god could let me a nother chance to choose another good path...

anyway.. thanks for coming friends!!
eu all r the best!!

signing off..

CNY is over..

2010-02-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

well.. since long time ago i updated my blog.. lols.. this sunday is a vr special day.. is the last day of CNY and is also my birthday.. this year's CNY is vr special.. 1st day was clash with Valentine and nw.. the last day clash with my birthday.. there many ups and downs had happen.. getting lost of myself.. i dunno wat to do and i dun even noe wat the hell am i thinking all these while.. recently vr tired and vr vr vr down.. kip listening to slow and sentimental song.. make the environment vr down.. lay down on my bed, looking up the ceiling thinking watever i wanted to solve and hope.. arms of clock working its way to 12..1..2..3.. and i'm still awake thinking and thinking.. moon glares and morning shines again quickly.. i cant even get enuff sleep.. wat is she thinking.. who am i? wat am i up to?

i injured my leg.. struggling to perform.. nth works for me so far.. getting lazier.. emotional.. well.. thts it i think.. all wells end well pls.. god bless..

sigining off..

Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!xD

2010-02-14T02:21:00.002+08:00

2.21 a.m. is the 1st day of CNY and is also Valentine's Day.. just had a wonderful celebration at a nearby temple.. lion dance, fireworks, cheering and lots of stuff.. although i'm happy [i think so] but kinda emo just nw.. lolz.. well.. i still cant giv wat she needs and cant cheer her up while she is bored.. haih.. hmmmm.. still hav some prob with the way she reply my msg.. duno y i felt tht she lk vr arrogant.. lolz.. well.. thts all ba.. tomolo still nid to visit..

signing off..

Happy Chinese New Valentine Year!!

Nice Day!

2010-02-07T23:38:00.004+08:00

TAI, MIN, YCY, RYAN, LIM, TING, EVON, MARIE and i went to pavillion today.. it was the 2nd time i went out with MARIE.. lolz.. we went for [[大日子]] it was a 10 out of 10 rate of movie for me.. it was vr touching, funny and it consist of some MEMORIES for me too.. 1st time sit with RYAN in the cinema.. dunno y recently vr good with him but still always get scolded by me..xD well.. let's talk bout the story.. Ah Beng is vr sad bcause his neighbour Ah Lian kip ''LC'' him saying tht he cant manage to bring his parents for holiday.. lolz.. the touching part was when they decided to leave another Ah Lian in Kelantan bcause she lied to them saying tht she'll pay salary to them if they willing to train WooHoo (tarian harimau) to represent tht kampung.. she just dowan her Ah Gong to continue WooHoo bause of his age.. so she decided to do tht.. Ah Beng, Ah Huat and another guy i frgt wat name dy.. they were angry and leave the place.. b4 they leave.. they receive ang pau each from Ah Gong and some money from a lil girl.. i nearly cried out.. lol..

hmmm.. bout Mindy and Ah Huat.. they loved each other vr much but still there's something tht distrupt them tht makes them seperated.. i frgt who said tht.. eu wont noe if the one who really love eu is just right beside eu.. i think of SUMONE and i tears soundly.. serious.. =( i really hope tht she'll noe hw much i love her and i really mean it.. is there really obstacles between us? i can feel something is nt right between us but tak tau wats tht.. haih.. times takes it all..

after movie.. we went for food.. while MARIE whn to order food.. i take the chance to talk to her.. just hav a short conversation and MARIE is back.. duno y vr bu zhi zai whn talk to her and her facial expression is vr cute.. =) charming.. lovely.. cut her hair.. still pretty.. ^^ well.. i understand nw the song nothing's gonna change my love for eu this phrase does exsist in real life.. came thru many obstacles but still i'm so in love with eu.. I LOVE YOU!!!

after eat.. whn to TS walk a bout an hour plus.. went to F.O.S bought a shirt cost at RM30.. thx to min and ycy again.. really like eu guys.. but time is short for me with her.. at TS we walk on our own and she walk with MARIE.. soon after.. went home around 5.30 p.m.. got a check with her by texting her whether where she is.. i wonder hw she feels today? wat she feels bout me? do i cared bout her safety or watever bout her and her sis? did i done wat i nid to do? did i get wat she nid for her today? did i brought her happiness today? hmmm.. wat a day it was.. i really happy today.. but still nt a 100% perfect day for me.. =) cheeerr!!

sigining off at 11.55p.m..

sad sad day..

2010-02-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

2010 start nt long and i can feel tht this year is nt the year for me.. many things tht is unpredictable will happen.. many things changes.. at first.. i tot i could manage to let go something tht on my back for merely 3 years.. but it nvr happen.. day by day hiding myself in my room thinking something which is nt deserve or dun really nid to think tht thing.. wtf happen to me.. result getting worse.. cant really concentrate in class.. getting much more lazy.. this year's CNY falls together with Valentine's Day.. it shud b a romantic CNY for those who r in relationship.. hope tht this year's valentine wont b feeling lonely and hope tht i really can dun think about Valentine's Day..

smkcp's football team is getting better or weaker i also duno.. we miss Mr.Abdullah the best coach i ever met in my reality.. nw change to a bitch coach Mr.Khairul and Mr.Alias.. but on the player side.. the player r getting quite stronger but the amount of CHINESE is getting lesser and lesser.. over to the educational field.. haih.. full with disappointment.. english society i cant get any position neither do HANG LEKIU our school sports 'house'.. nw my oni hope is badminton club.. i hav no confident this year tht i could make it to school's football team neither do the sport's day 'acara'.. i hav no confident towards myself this year.. =(

hmmm.. really cant think of wat i nid to do.. a heavy backpack is getting much more heavy.. no matter wat i did hw good i treated ... but still there will b no outcome i guess.. i noe i'm wasting my time onsomething tht is imposibble tht many ppl told me b4.. but i really cant let it go.. i've tried vr hard.. but.. =( thts all ba.. hope for a better tomolo..

signing off.. unhappy day.. 040210

Mentally Disturb

2010-01-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

recently, i kept many things to myself.. i cant stand it anymore.. i would say it all out here.. sry if i did said anything wrong.. wat i've done recently i really annoying from my POV.. i'm sure nt all but some ppl do dislike me.. eu all noe urself whether eu dislike me anot.. every cloud gt its silver lining.. yes i admit i do lk to hav girls around and i lk to make funny funny things to disturb them.. but sometimes.. mayb i'm wrong.. jealousy will really spoil buddy's relationship.. the power of love tht leads to jealousy will make a pair of best buddy dislike each other.. issit worth? i dunno whether i gt the rights to say bout ppl.. all these while i kip hiding my feeling to myself deep beneath my heart.. say easier thn done.. wat i see and feel is really annoying.. i don't understand.. y everything i did as the same with others, but always i'm the 1 who ppl thinks tht i'm wrong and the other party will dislike me.. y issit lk this? does the word FAIR do exist in this bloody world?

i'm tired of caring others feeling.. talk to tht girl hav to make sure tht the 1 who admire was nt around.. or whn talking to a girl must nt tease or make jokes or make them laugh infront them.. or else.. a joke would b some kind of flirting stuff.. sensitivty of a person really makes us nt happy.. i do admit sometimes the things i said really make ppl dislike me.. there's no offense in this blog.. i didnt say is who or watever.. dun b self concious.. 1 more lil thing.. even if i owe money.. do eu think it is great to tell the whole world ''JULIUS OWE ME MONEY''.. say till so long also no use.. my blog is bored with all these emo stuff.. just wanna say.. there is no FAIR this word in my dictionary.. frends do betray.. frends do dislike each other.. frends do say bz if they nid help..

Ain't nothing..

2010-01-27T19:27:00.003+08:00

is been long time since i updated last post.. hell lot of things happen.. currently having intervension exam for the vr last day.. getting out from hell..xD well.. it seems i've already let her go.. but still.. there's many thing tht will remind me of her.. for wat i've done recently hope tht she felt tht i've let her go.. but yet she is still in my heart deep below.. some say i'm avoiding her..some say i'm just fooling around saying tht i've gave up.. i dun care watever shit they all say.. i noe wat am i doin.. lol.. after this vr important year.. we'll b split.. having own interest and time.. hmmm.. really hope tht someday i could tell her tht i've always been looking at her and still loving her as much as last time..

enough of tht i think.. some bloody issues happened between me and a lil kid.. lolz.. he think he damn good tht i cant even compare with him.. is tht a joke? who do he think he is? putting shit on my face.. yes.. i admit.. hw hardworking am i also.. my result will b nt as good as eu.. but do eu think eu gt the right to say tht i'm nt compatible with eu? for me.. eu're just a kid.. nt much about maturity and eu always think tht eu're aaaaaaaalways better thn me.. go dream better.. i might lose to eu in academic.. just oni tht field.. c urself in shit oni codemn me.. eu ain't nothing.. from nw on.. i won't even respect eu..

well.. let's cheers for the upcoming CNY.. =)

Last Year of School

2010-01-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

5th Jan 10..

guess what.. is the beginning of the year 2010..
and i'm back to school for the last year!! xD
but this year should b a stress year for me..
this year is the vital year of my life..
SPM Examination year..
is where my life start and i've to get good result for this exam..
is the turning point of my life.. whether to b in a good path or bad 1..

hmmmmm...
nth much special things happened in school for these 2days..
this year time i'm sitting with tai and min which r 2 of the best student..
lol.. h0pe tht there's no changes made by our new class teacher..
ytd was the 1st day of school and went tuition after..
my tuition started at 4.15 and end up in 7.00 in the evening..
OMG~! i was nt at home for merely 14 hours! lolz..

oh ya.. b4 tht.. i got my result for 2009 end year exam..
once i gt the result.. i was lk.. wtf? am i in deep shit?
i was so disappointed with my result.. it was 23/27..
at the tail of the class.. and i'm the oni 1 to failed history in this class..
is tht wat i call ashamed in a top class??
oh pls dun look me down.. i'm getting start pulling myself up from a deep shit pool..

i really nid to work double harder to get myself of the tail of the class..
if i work hard everything would b smoother later in the year..
when there's a will, there's a road.. i hope tht's right.. lolz..
cheers!

the end..

Untitled

2009-12-29T01:27:00.002+08:00

well..
after all the years..
next year is the year tht all my frends hav to study harder..
is the year tht decide the path of our life..

hmmm..
giving out present is nt about the cost of it..
just the 'xin yi' from urself..
buying expensive present, making a charming present doesnt show any love..
make the one eu love feel ur 'xin yi' out of tht present..

make clear of urself..
whether worth to buy a present for the eu love anot..
make clear of urself..
whether who is she to eu..
make clear of urself..
after all ur effort and there is no reponse, whether eu shud put it down or nt..
make clear of urself..
do eu really love the one tht eu're proposing..

whn is too late..
ppl will think eu use money to buy his/her heart..
whn is too late..
eu will find is stupid to do such thing to him/her..
whn is too late..
ur heart will b broken down into pieces, losing self confidence..
whn is too late..
eu'll find tht eu're wasting time and effort on him/her..

watever eu do to him/her tht is really came from ur heart..
he/she will feel it..
whether right or wrong..
he/she will forgive and cherish watever eu do..
if eu're the one..
he/she will never hurt eu..

happiness r nt given by anyone..
eu r the one who reach for the happiness..
sadness r nt selfborn expression..
eu r the one who made urself sad..
love r nt provide in any circumstances..
eu r the one who find the love out of ur heart and cherish it..

path of ur life, ur heart, ur feelings, ur thaughts, and ur wills r nt sh0wn..
find urself a good path to walk through..
make urself clear of wat eu wan and make every decisions wisely..
once fallen and mistaken..
there's no turning back..

i've learn from many mistake..
i've done many mistake..
i've made many ppl dislike me..
i've made someone who i love feel annoyed..
i've made myself sad and disappointed..
i've made myself dull..

chances r nt always given..
but once there's a chance..
cherish it..

look into urself..
ask urself..
wat shud b done and wat shudn't b done..
is every decision eu made is clear from ur mind..
is it worth to play on relationship or having 2 mates at once..
hw would they feel?

watever it is..
choices r made by ourself..
wat i've done, there's no turning back..
changing the face can change nothing..
facing the change can change everything..
dont compare oneself with another..
tht's insulting urself..

dont turn back and chg the beginning..
move forward and start a new beginning..

New Year! l0lz

2009-12-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

well.
in a blink of an eye..
CHristmas is 0ver and now looking forward for new year..

hmmm.. time passes so fast..
this Christmas season i've been to many places to view the deco of it..
pavillion.. klcc.. times square.. leisure mall.. Pyramid.. sg wang..
but i still love pavillion's deco the most..

well..
this christmas was the most loneliness i had for all these time..
went to evon's church to hav a celebration..
exchange gift.. eat.. chat.. photo.. but sadly..
we didnt managae to take pic together.. i mean just oni me n her..
hmmm..
half of the day i was vr down..
walking alone in shopping mall at pavillion and ts..
bunch of friends were enjoying there... lolz..

well..
nth much to say..
hope eu'll lk my present.. ^^
f0rm 5 life is coming.. let's face it together..
2010 here i come..

hereby.
i wish to my friends..
do enjoy the holiday and cant wait to c eu all in school..
next year woukd b a tough year..
and might b our last year studying together..
i really miss the time whn we're still in 4S1..
lolz.. lets pray.. hope we'll b together forever no matter whr we r..
Friends forever.. ^^

ALL THE BEST!
and

Happy 27th.. =) get well soon..

2.22am****
27th December 2009****

Christmas is here s00n!!

2009-12-17T00:32:00.004+08:00

t0day..
16/12/09..
an0ther 0uting with frendz!

..:: NameListz ::..

`` Julius
`` Ev0n
`` Tai
`` CarmEn
`` Min
`` Ycy
`` Ryan
`` Ting
`` Alex
`` B00n
`` Lim

went t0 redb0x early in the aftErn00n.. xD
the price is nice..
the sound system is sux..
the food is uhh~~!!
l0lz.. but i h0pe they enjoy laa..
even i dun..
my throat was terrifying making my v0ice weird while singing..

hmmm...
傻瓜 this song really killing me..
especially she sing it.. is w0nderful..
had quite a l0t 0f fun there..
but..
whn singing N0thing G0nna Change My L0ve F0r Eu..
i was looking at her.. my heart were saying tht t0 her.. l0lz
hmmmm.. l0lz.. speechless..

after tht we went t0 pavilli0n with0ut..
ting, alex and boon coz they went f0r L4D2..
0nce we reached thr we t00k picture with my ph0ne! xD

the 1st pic 0nce we step int0 pavilli0n!

thn we went f0r m0vie..
we keep deciding whether t0 watch wat m0vie..

st0rm warri0rs....z0mbieland..
st0rm warri0rs....santau..
finally..
we..
watched..
The Princess and The Fr0g! ==
bef0re the m0vie start we hav a walk and drink..
all gam mai play me and ev0n.. ==
carmen, ycy and taii.. ><
but i enjoy.. l0lz.. swt.. ==''

well this m0vie quite nice.. funny.. musical~~ l0lz..
hmmmm..
0h ya.. pavilli0n GSC's seat r c0mfy!! xD
is the 2nd time i seat with eu during m0vie.. l0lz..
thn we went back ar0und 6.30..

t00k s0me pics bf0re went h0me..

ev0n smile laaa~~ ^^

terrible thing starts..
m0n0rail was sux!
in just tht 2 stati0ns peri0d..
my heart were pumping extreamly fast..
w0rrying b0ut tht 2 girls..
this and tht bla bla bla..
she even stuck in the train.. @@
but lastly we all safely came 0ut fr0m tht sandwich baker.. l0lz..

went h0me..
bath..
dinner..
0nline..
and nw..

g00d nite!!
hapii day!! ^^

12月16号2009年, 半请半雨天..

hmmmm?

2009-12-14T00:31:00.001+08:00

eu're beautiful..
eu're smart..
eu're cool..
eu're adorable..
eu're charm..
eu're my everything..

i dunno hw t0 cherish..
in fact i always find out trouble..

y am i so stubb0rn..
y am i so stupid in every act?
y am i so childish?!

chg Julius chg!
dun b stubborn..
nonody will like it! ==

12月13号2009年, 晴天..

haih....

2009-12-13T00:39:00.005+08:00

well well well..
nth much to blog..
holiday passes vr fast..
nt much ppl online..
getting up with the tuition life and getting ready to face f0rm5 challenge..

christmas is coming too..
everywhere in KL shopping mall do have many attractive deco..
the feel of christmas in my heart is growing stronger! xD
Cold War starts again.. ==
y always lk tht?
my fault or ur fault?
v cant get vr well with each other these days..
argh!!!

well..
sry for everything..
eu're free nw..

12月12号2009年, 请天..

Hapii 0r Sad?

2009-12-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

well..
0ur c0ld war started again..
countdown 4days le.. lolz..
mayb is good.. can do own things freely..

hmmm...
nth to blog actually..
Christmas is near and i'll get my new phone soon! ^^
errrr...
i duno i shud b hapii or sad whn i heard tht news.. lolz..
anyway.. best wished..

12月12号2009年, 请天....

wat's wr0ng with me!!

2009-12-04T19:35:00.000+08:00

wat the hell happen with me..
in this 2days i hav made her pissed 0ff.. in just these 2days!

what's wrong with me~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shud i just shut up..
uhh~~

12月4号2009年, 雨天..

i felt loneliness..

2009-12-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

this moment..
duno y..
i just wanted someone to talk to me..
i felt vr lonely..
i hope my blog wont leave me alone.. lolz..

dota alone..
msn alone..
SDO alone..
haih..
wat's up with all my dear frends? hmmm.. bz holiday for them..
boring holiday for me..

good or bad?

2009-12-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
since a long time i have been update my bl0g..
well..
many things had happened..
since is holiday..
day by day passed abnormally.. ==

ytd whn to celeb milk's birthday..
is a sudden invite from her..
whn with kok, carmen, milk and her..
surprisingly..
i sit with her during a quite interesting movie Mulan.. lolz
the feeling is strange.. for the whole movie..
took ph0t0s.. l0lz.. nice 0uting th0ugh..

today..
whn out again..
this time round with tai, min and ting..
watch Christmas Carol..
for me..
i love this movie..
gave some important lesson..
the circumstances of the movie makes me love christmas more..
in addition..
we watched it in 3D..
the snow is lovely and beautiful..

this year didnt work..
thr's no income coming in..
i'm short of income this time..
i've nt enuff money to buy any gift.. omg!
uhh...

well..
today..
i'm hapii during the bright sun still up high in the air..
i'm down whn the moon raises..
since morning till nw..
didnt sms n msn..
is normal wat!
y am i thinking so much?
i'm still out of my mind..
haih..
hope everything would just brush it off..

Christmas Countdown : 22 days

12月3号2009年, 雨天..

...::: things goes over and come over :::...

b0ring h0liday

2009-11-24T22:50:00.001+08:00

last time..
during h0liday..
a l0t 0f ppl 0nline..
but wat happen to this h0liday?

h0liday lk exam..
less ppl 0nline..
it's really dun feel lk h0liday.. l0lz..
haih..
feel strange this few days..

next week start tuiti0n again..
haih..
the m0st b0ring h0liday tht i ever had..

...::: b0ring :::...

Last Gathering for 4s1.. ^^

2009-11-21T00:31:00.001+08:00

4S1 guys.. eu guys rox!

The family of 4S1

...::: 18th November 2009 :::...

...::: best school family ever :::...

tagged by Suii Ev0nnE

2009-11-20T20:17:00.001+08:00

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. JuLius
2. Ju
3. Julie ..::ting call me tht::..
4. DragonBall ==

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 28 Feb
2. 1 Jan
3. 25 Dec
4. 21 Dec 2012 ..::Doomsday?::..

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. DotA
2. Msn
3. Listen S0ngz
4. Fb-iNg

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. DotA
2. KicK a footbAll as far as I coUld
3. ChaT wiTh frEndz
4. LisTen tO soNgz

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. the person wh0 taggEd me.. >.<
2. HumAnz
3. hUmaNz
4. humAnZ

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. b00ts
2. Limited eDition JersEy ..:: Man U ::.. xD
3. Car, ph0nE, LapT0p
4. Usain B0lt's speed, bEckhaM's freEkicK skiLL, EinstEin's Brain

FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
1. DotA
2. ListeN MusIcz
3. Sd0
4. Fb

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. England
2. Japan
3. Switzerland
4. Taiwan

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Vodka
2. Juice
3. Champagne
4. Screwdriver

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. HeaDph0nE
2. wAx
3. monEy
4. swEEtz

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. WhitE
2. Black
3. BluE
4. SilVer

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. Ts
2. Sg waNg
3. PaviLLi0n
4. PasaR mlm

TOP FOUR YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Family~
2. Friends~
3. muSicz
4. f00tball

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. prEsents received
2. suM1 w0uld plAy pian0 f0r me~
3. j0ining ManU reserves~
4. surprisiNg biRthdAe

TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. Blue A0i
2. mE
3. ZuhaIri
4. SheriLyn

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. ntH better 2 d0
2. tagged by Ev0nnE
3. f0r fuN
4. s0ng

THE PEOPLE WHO I GOING TO TAG:
1. ShEriLyn
2. Blue A0i
3. Kuroshuji
4. huManz
5. Ev0nnE

is everything still in ur heart?

2009-11-10T15:42:00.001+08:00

i duno y..
is he still in ur hearT?
deep beneath ur broken heart?
do eu still think of him?

i dunno y i cant let it go..
although is a past tense..
and is non of my business..
y am i kip thinking about it?

y my eye sight kip on aiming at eu?
y my heart kip thinking of eu?
wat am i up to?

i wish to talk to eu everyday..
but it just could nt happen..
i dunno wat eu say..
i'm scare of ur response..
ur cold response do hurt me much..

i do look lk avoiding eu..
but nt my heart..
i still care..
i still concern..
but i dun deserve to do this..

i jsut wanna know..
where is he in ur heart..

i'm kinda stupid thinking bout the past..
it annoys eu..
i noe..
and eu do dislike me sometimes or always or duno~

11月10号2009年, 雨天...
4S1 加油!!

i couldn't let go of my blog..
without it..
i would b in the grave.. =X

I wish.. I wish and I wish..

2009-11-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

2 years plus..
i've been in love with a girl..
but nw..
everything changes..
the feel i hav towards eu is fading away..
as lk eu said..
mayb we're more comfortable being a frend..

there's something i kept in mmy heart for a long time..
i dun wish everything to b lk nw..
i wish to b lk last time..
there're too many thingss around me tht will bring my mind back to eu..
it mayb stupid..
but for me..
is everything and is memorable..
since 06.07.07 the bus ticket on this date i've kept it till nw..
and 06.07.08 and so do 06.07.09..
these 3 ticket with ur birthdates on is with me..
i've been keeping it long time..

many ppl asked..
and many ppl say..
'' if i were eu i would let it go''
yes.. i'm doin and trying my best..
everything goes wrong for me but nt for eu mayb~~

i admit i often jealous..
i'm sensitive..
mayb this is bcoz my love for is too deep..
tears after tears..
laugh after laugh..
memories are still in my heart..
i wish the clock could turn back..
turn back to time whn we're as close as never..
i wish and i wish and i've always wish..

something tht i've never done it..
and there'll b no chance i guess..
the words tht kept in my mouth for a long time..
well..
let''s end this..

Evonne..
I LOVE EU~!!

Forever [ -LuVz- ]..
11月3号2009年, 晴天..

evrything ends..........
~~BLOG CLOSED~~

Gambade!!

2009-10-21T16:38:00.000+08:00

exam is just around the corner!
let's prepare our mind to face form 4 final war!

hmmmm...
many things changes from time to time..
jealousy in my heart would nvr gone off..
lying to myself saying tht my heart has opened..
all is just a fake and lies in my heart..
y would i b jealousing if my heart really had opened up?

further and further sumone is goin away..
sooner or later..
contact will b getting lesser and lesser..
mayb oni can b contacted through MSN or something..
hmmm...
mayb is another obstacles..
after all..
i had to retreat even if i dun things will b nt as lk before..
i had lost evrything..

whether i'm jealousing or envying eu..
talented, smart, intellegent, clever..
hapii to c eu all getting along..
and i'm moving away..
without any misunderstanding..
dun worry..
i'm nt mistaken or anything..
something wont b happening means wont..

let's hope and b prepare..
to face the upcoming war..
pick up the shield..
choose ur weapon..
train up ur mind..
and let's go to face the war!

4s1..
b ready..
let's do the best out of our best!

10月21号2009年, 雨天..

...::: prepare our mind to face the challenge :::...
...::: face the change :::...
[ -LuVz- ]
[ -4.47p.m- ]
[ -21st October 09- ]

Untitled

2009-10-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

no inspiration to write blog recently..
hmmm..
grey day go on everyday..
daily routine..
day by day..
things changes frequently..

trying to b good to everyone..
but failed..
hmmm..
anyway..
just recover back from minor dengue..
take blood for 4 consecutive days..
pain lk duno wat..
luckily it recover~!! ^^

exam is just around the corner..
many of my gang are studying..
some of them still enjoying gaming..
so do i half study half play.. ^^

for the past..
i may b a bad guy..
trying my vr best to chg myself..
but my past has spoil everything..
there'll b no turning back..
no matter hw hard i try to chg..

in the mean time..
everything seems to b lk cold and calm..
just lk the breeze ocean..
hope i can b lk normal and lk before..

10月18号2009年, 雨天..

...::: no turning back :::...

...::: life is full with ups and downs :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -12.24a.m- ]

[ -18th October 09- ]

中秋节party! ^^

2009-10-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

well..

3rd october 09..

was the best mooncake festival tht i had in my teenage life.. ^^

having great fun with my buddies~~

we're invited by carmen to her house..

so much fun~!! ^^

tai, me, lyn, hua, ting, ycy, min, nie, julia, tew's brother, carmen..

at first we tot tai was nt coming..

but at last he came..

but once he arrived eu wished him bye~~~ haha..

he get back in the car and close the door.. xD

at last still nid to come down with his guitar.. haha..

but we miss out many ppl..

yuk, evon, JE, cyc, lim, zuzu.. haixxx..

we sing song..

we walk along the streets with lantern..

we joke around..

we chat around..

we take pictures..

we eonjoy it!

i love eu guys!! ^^

here are some pics..

group pics~~ but min, hua, ycy, nie, julia went back >.<''

me and tai.. xD

me, taii and boon singing tong hua.. boon sing.. ^^

star.. xD me, tai, boon, ycy's hand..

walking along the streets with lanterns!! ^^

me with candles on my nails.. ^^

tht's hw the mooncake festival end..^^
memorable 1.. hehe..
guys.. hope there's another party lk this next year..
even we're facing SPM..
fun is still goin on among us..
next year mayb at Nie's house ^^
i love eu guys my life!

10月5号2009年, 请天..

...::: 好的新开始:::...

...::: hapii always! :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -12.40a.m- ]

[ -5th October 09- ]

中秋节快乐!

2009-10-03T02:01:00.000+08:00

今天是中秋节了!
haha..
well..
is Mooncake Festival~!
nth much special actually.. hmm..

many things in my heart i dun dare to speak it out..
is kinda lame and meaningless to sum1..
one sided love will nt work out.. sir eu're right! ^^
the one who suffer is always the side tht oni giving out effort and love..
but feeling cant use to b forced..
trying to understand many things but cant actually..
i'm trying my best to treat her as a normal friend..
but the response i get it seems nt tht i expected..
for me.. a normal friend for nw is more thn enuff barhx..
bout best friend i dun think i could b as close as others..
hmmmm....

well..
tonight there'll b a party or a festive class gathering?? lolx..
wat i expect is it will b a GREAT party or outing..
hope there's no obstacles..

i'm here to speak out tht..

4s1 is the best ever~!!
i love all of eu~!!

carmen..
tai..
lyn..
min..
hua..
ting..
tewz..
jie yi..
ycy..
nie..
julia..
lim..
yin mei..
zuzu..

i love eu guys~!! as friend~~~~
lolx.. i'm mad already..
evon..
wat i wish is just tht we can b lk last time..
tht's my oni hope..

中秋节快乐~!!
10月3号2009年, 请天

...::: game 0ver :::...

...::: 永远都那么爱你:::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -2.14a.m- ]

[ -3rd October 09- ]

end hurtly.. start a new beginning?

2009-10-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

well..
nth much to say actually..
go school as normal..
go tuition as normal..
everyday rain..

it seems many things changes..
i'm mad now.. lolx..
planning for holiday outing.. too early? lolxx..
final exam yet to come.. must work harder..
prove tht i'm nt USELESS~!!

hmmmm...
i'm trying hard to treat everyone fairly..
no one is better or good.. just all are same..
especially her.. but.. it seems for her lk nth~~
the gaps are widening.. nw thr's a big hole between us~~
all come to an end..
should i start from zero? or hav a new beginning?

scene captures by our eyes will last in our heart forever..
picture captures by camera are just a flash back memory tht wont last forever..
every words said will kip in our heart..
every words recorded will once be deleted..
being happy, life goes through happily..
being sad, life feels meaningless..

10月1号2009年晴天..

...::: game over :::...

...::: 来个好的开始好吗? :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -2.15p.m- ]

[ -1st October 2009- ]

2009-08-31T16:09:00.000+08:00

all the while i was just dreaming..
clouds cover up the sun..
leaving me dark in the reality..
envy of other couple..

name written in the stars was just a wish to me..
loving eu was just a dream..
or is it a nightmare?
day by day..
dreaming of the same old matter..

but this dream has change me a lot..
wat i dream nw has come to an end..
this dream really mean a lot to me..
this dream has faded and it doesnt came true at last..

hereby the wind will blow eu the happiness i wish for eu..
as the right one eu were seaching would came to eu..
hope the star will bring eu wat eu dream n wish for..
collapse, corrupted, broken and finally faded away..

as for Stephenie..
i'm here to wish eu 2 happily together.. lolx...
i wonder when would the day came to me?
she'll find hers someday later..
well.. waiting to day to come..
it could b a disasterest day in my life..
God Bless Me.. =(

...::: withdrawn day 27 :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -4.23p.m- ]

[ -31st August 09- ]

2009-08-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

inspiration finally come to my sight..
as it gav me the idea or writing this blog..

it's been a while since YCY come back to tuition..
i miss him though =)
but y long after eu hav recover with ur sickness..
eu still fill ur eyes with tears?

nth much special things happen today..
hmmm...
guys..
i noe i dun hav the right to say or comment at any1..
i'm just nth in 4s1.. ( i guess.. )
as lk sum1 said..
'' eu hav no right to say any1.. '' in chinese..
'' ni mei you zhi ge qu shuo bie ren.. ''
so..
i think i dun nid to care so much bout wat happen next in my class =)

there's something hidden in my mind..
y is A fight with B whn C ask A wat happen A said non of C business??
is thr any big deal if C knows A fight with B? hmm...

after martin tuition..
me n ycy go search for sum1 but failed..
surprisingly.. Julia, Lyn and CYC waited for us..
the reason is scare my face turns to charcoal..
actually.. i'm trying hard to chg my attitude..
i'm easily emotional.. i admit at this point..
i noe most of my so call frend dislike my attitude..
but.. i've been trying my best..
as lk i said earlier..

'' changing the face '' can change nothing!! "
'' face the change '' can change everything!! ''

well..
for wat i've did..
i apologise here..

I'm So Sorry for being a hater in school..

let's talk bout the hapii moment..
she registered for the P.Moral trip to organic farm~~ ^^
b4 she went to c tht gold fish..
she showed me tht she's using the wallet tht i bought for her~~ ^^
at tht moment..
nth in my mind but oni can feel the happiness in my heart!
satisfied~~
she is treating me better nw..
compare to the previous past..
hope this will last longer..
but still..
there's a gap larhx..
i hav to face it..
oh ya..
a song entitled..
Sha Gua.. flash back her voice n her performance in my mind..
this song will remind me of her..
i will listen to this song every nite b4 i sleep.. =)

Julius b strong!!

thts all.. Nite bloggie~!!

...::: withdrawn day 14 :::...

...::: happiness is cherish by ourself :::...

...::: forever love :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -12.09a.m- ]

[ -19th August 09- ]

Journey of Life

2009-08-16T14:52:00.000+08:00

Don't compare urself with any1 in this world..
If eu do compare, eu're insulting urself..
A lock won't b manufactured without a key..
As God won't giv problems without solutions..

Life laughs at eu whn eu're unhappy..
Life smiles at eu whn eu're happy..
Life salutes eu whn eu make other hapii..
Smile always as we live our life.. =)

Every successful person has a painful story..
Every painful story has a successful ending..
Accept the pain and get ready to success..
Whn eu think eu're strong, thr r ppl who r stronger..

It is ez to judge other's mistakes..
But it is difficult to recognize our own mistake..
No one can go back and chg a bad beginning..
But any1 can start a new beginning nw and create a successful ending..

If a prob can b solved, why need to worry?
If a prob can't b solved, wat is the use of worrying too?
If eu miss an opportunity, don't fill ur eyes with tears..
As the tears will wash away a better opportunity infront of eu..

'' Changing the face " can change nothing..
" Face the change " can change everything..
Don't complain bout others..
Change urself if eu do wan peace for life..

Mistakes are costly whn they happen..
But as time flows..
Collection of mistakes called experience..
Which may lead to success..

Be determined whn faces obstacles..
Be humble n calm whn eu earned urself a victory..
Heated gold bcome ornament..
Beaten copper bcome wires..
Depleted stone bcome statue..
So..
Be determined to face the challenge ahead..
Gain the pain in life..
Eu'll b valuable..

Learn from mistakes..
Don't just blame others for the lost..
Opportunity doesn't come always..
Cherish..
As the path of ur life is set by ur mind..
Remember my frend..
Future is in our hand..
Hold on tight to achieve it..
I'm here waiting to c the success of 4S1 in future..

As name written in the stars..
Julius.. =)

...::: Withdrawn Day 13 :::...

...::: Learn from mistake :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -3.07p.m- ]

[ -16th August 09- ]

Frendz

2009-08-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

as for today..

is a total foolish day..

uhh~~

firstly..

me n lyn tot tht Umaas did told us tht today gt additional class..

but..

whn we went thr after tai, ting, zu and me put the beg in the class..

thn oni we realise tht the class is conducted by Mr Kung!! maths teacher form 5 class..

omg~~

after tht..

i really hav to say million's of

THANK YOU~!!

Tai...

Lyn...

Ting...

they accompanied me to check out the price of my WEAPON~ xD

time fly as wind blow..

went to McD bcoz of Tai wanna eat~~ reasons.. =P

accompanied lyn back..

thn we went back by taxi..

soon after..

clock strikes 5.30pm in the evening..

went pavilion with family..

finally..

i bought my WEAPON~!!

tht's my WEAPON.. xD
it cost about RM510.. =0
well.. dun think tht i'm rich barhx..
haha..

hmm..
as like normal..
sms her early in the morning..
she said tht she's bz!!
half a day didnt sms her.. miss her so much =(

well..
tht's it barhx..
hav to get some sleep for tomorrow's football..
try out my new WEAPON~!!

Nite bloggie~!!

...::: Withdrawn day 12 :::...
...::: smile always as life smile at eu if eu were hapii :::...
...::: end :::...
[ -LuVz- ]
[ -1.01a.m- ]
[ -16th August 09- ]

Untitled

2009-08-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

well..
as for today..
duno whr to start..
lolx..

ok.. at school..
we hav 2period of PJ but oni play for 1.. teacher wasted our time..
seems nonsense.. >< size="1">bcoz of it is an open book test.. ==
i also scored a gud result in Maths too!! this 1 is fair n square 1.. xD
96% is the score~~~
Mr. Leow told us story bout ghost n spirit thingy.. bcoz we said we dun wish to study.. xD

after school..
as usual~~ friday~~
its BADMINTON~!!
this time is oni 7 of us.. so little~~

Julius
Tai
Lyn
Ting
Min
Carmen
Babi

we booked for 2 hours as usual..
but i oni played for 1 hour..
bcoz..
i accompany her to the comic shop!! == the environment is hot n terrifying..
she swt lk hell~~ i used my hand wiped her sweat but she said..
dun touch.. lolx..
we chit chat for about an hour..
she read a comic quite romantic..

a guy observe a girl for a long time..
the girl lk a book which hav a poem tht she lk it vr much..
as the guy noe.. he bought tht book too..
n wrote tht poem at a bench situate at a bus stop (nt mistaken)
she replied it!! thn she waited thr n found out tht guy is from a BAD school..
lolx.. bla bla bla.. skipped~~~
tht guy wanna prove to the girl he really luv her..
bla bla bla.. n finally they manage to b together~~ aw~~
whn will b the day tht will come to me? =S

i look through her phone..
pics.. pics.. pics.. all of it is wonderful~!!
eu're so pretty!! ^^
she also tell me tht today is a GREEN VALENTINE DAY~!!
suddenly..
some feel occur in my heart..
but i let the feel runs away as the wind n time passes~~
haih~~
wat will happen if i cherish the feel n folo wat it says?
it's been a long time we hav been together chit chatting for such a long time..
i really cant forget the moment..
hoping tht the moment will come often as i always can b rite by ur side.. =(
but will it b? neh~~

skipped tuition again..
cough lk mad.. uhh..
H1N1 f**k off!! dun come!! xD

the day ended..

Happy Green Valentine Day Evonne~!! xD

...::: withdrawn day 10 :::...

...::: chances given once,twice but nt the third :::...

...::: cherish every moment every chances :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -10.15p.m- ]

[ -14th August- ]

Exam is 0ver!!

2009-08-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

Finally..
exam is over!!
did badly in this exam.. uhh~~
i wonder hw she did?
hope she'll get a better result.. ^^

i was been sick these 2 days.. uhh~~
damn unwell..
hmm..
guess wat..
add maths paper majority are from text book..

and..

and...

and....

and.....

text book are allowed to bring in!!
the teacher just chg the unknown lk from a to x..
2x chg to -x.. bla bla bla..
hope can get better result for this Add Maths..

after school..
as normal..
went to tuition..
but wat the hell..
no place!! sit at the back..
firstly..
i saw her bag was there n bhind her was empty..
but bside thr gt ppl sit..
lolx.. Tendou called me sit the otherside..
i stood n stun thr for so long thinking wanna sit thr anot..
finally i dun giv a f**k and i choose to sit with Ting, Zu, Tai n Lyn..
uhh~~
after class tot wanna say bye to her..
in a blink of an eye..
she was disappeared!! ==
suan barhx.. she's rushing for time..

well..
tomolo badminton lk no one wanna go..
tew bros nt goin coz scare of H1N1..
the same for Zu..
as for Vinnie.. Julia n Mei..
Vinnie said lazy.. duno true or nt or mayb i go she dun wanna go..=S
Julia gt tuition and i dunno bout YM..
as for me.. i said i wanna go i will still go even there's oni 4 person..
lolx..
tht's me..

oh ya..
1 more thing..
i was trying to get Sumone's msn or hp number..

and..

and...

and....

Ooi Arng misunderstand tht i fall for her!!
my ears is red lk apple.. lolx..
we just talked for the 1st time today!!
dun misunderstand ar!!

haha..
tht's all barhx..
hope for a better tomolo~!!

...::: withdrawn day 9 :::...

...::: bliv in sense is better to bliv in words :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -5.38p.m- ]

[ -13th August 09- ]

Exam!!

2009-08-09T19:07:00.000+08:00

well well well..
guess wat..
tomorrow is my monthly test..

AGAIN~!!

is time to study..
but i didnt.. xD
duno y really dun hav the mood to study..
mayb is bcoz many things happen recently..
haiz~~~~
hope i wont fail any 1 of the subject..
especiall..

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS~!!

erm..
there's something cute i wanna mention..
text book are allow to b in the class during exam for AM..
cute huh?

well..
there's one more thing..
erm..
her dai sou.. or duno wat should i call larhx..
has left Malaysia and whn to England to study may nt b back..
is sad coz someone who r close to eu for so long thn they left..
here i wish her all the best in future..
even i didnt talk to her b4.. =)

hmmm....
i think thts all barhx..
Julius Wong study larhx dun play larhx..
lolx..

4s1 加油~!!

Moments, memories..
once captured in our heart..
it'll b there forever..
tidal, hurricane, even thunderstorm..
couldn't erase from our heart..

so long live she in the hearts aglow of urs..
heart cries when thee left..
leaving shadow and memories bhind..
wishes eu hav a smooth path of journey..

-JW-

...::: withdrawn day 5 :::...

...::: memories and friendship will nvr b erase from our heart :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -7.16p.m- ]

[ -9th August 09- ]

Exam is here

2009-08-07T21:37:00.001+08:00

Well..
lately less ppl online..
just bcoz of exams~ ><
YOUNG TAU FU..
lolx.. xD
this is bcoz she less exercise and her flesh is soft..
omg~~
exercise is healthy noe? haha!!

oh ya..
another so call poem has been made by a ACTED GIRL n LIKE TO GOSSIP PPl..

You are my love..
Over the hills..
Under the clouds..
Nothing can stop my mind..
Gasping for air as my tears flow..

Everything to me is oni YOU..
Vine waving as wind blow..
On this land of greenery views..
Not oni eu appear in my mind..
Neither do my heart keep thinking of eu..
Eager to find the path to ur heart..

I cant see the truth in ur mind..

Lying to myself for the past years..
Only myself noe how much i love eu..
Viewing through ur beautiful eyes..
Everything aorund came to a stop..

You're the one i love..
Only this moment i could speak it out loud..
Urge to say I LOVE YOU!!!

haha..
comment ya..
even though it looks lk annoying..
well..
study time!!

4S1 gogogo!! score excellent result again!!

...::: withdrawn day 3 :::...

...::: a restart is nt bad after all :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -9.48p.m- ]

[ -7th August 09- ]

untitled

2009-08-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

4th August 09..
something had happen..
coming days it wont b same..
y all this come all of a sudden?

this matter is getting from bad to worst..
last nite..
tears flows out..
2 hours of time it nvr stop..

i'm tired..

deeply hurt..

depressed..

screwed..

wat shud i really do to face this all alone?
well..
yea.. mayb eu're rite..
frend would b more comfortable for both of us..
i noe many ppl backstabbed us..
is really annoying..
and..
i also noe eu dun lk it too..
pls..
dun object me.. i noe eu'll say i dunno eu well..

i'm short..

i'm nt smart..

i'm small gas..

i'm always the emo 1..

well..
hope our relationship of frend can last 4ever..
dun nid to say sry or wat..
yes..
nw i'm awake..
i cant understand eu well..
i duno wat eu think..
i duno hw eu feel..
but..
i really didnt regret in loving eu..
thts all..

erm..
actually..
i've been standing hard for the way eu treat me differently..
and i hope this will stop..
is really hard to stand..
well..
sry for every problem thn i caused..

frend forever? ^^

...::: withdrawn day 1 :::...

...::: letting go of something mayb a gud start :::...

...::: learn from mistake :::...

...::: end :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -10.39p.m- ]

[ -5th August 09- ]

Tiring Day

2009-08-03T21:53:00.001+08:00

well..
after an exhausted day of the school photography session..
day 1 of our job is..

DONE~!!

still gt another day to go.. >< 4S1 we done a GREAT job~!!
it tooks roughly 10 to 15 mins to take a pic..
oni 1~!! imagine tht..
this wait tht.. tht wait this.. wat the hell~
after whole day long..
finally we came to an end..

as usual..
after school we went out to eat..
today me, min and neville~
went to eat at a nearby restaurant..
thn came back i went to the library and search for her..
surprisingly..
she is reading BIOLOGY..
so ''hardworking'' ==
lolx..
thn i took a stupid poem book which she call it as a DICTIONARY ==
for reason..
the word is small~~~ ==''

but i felt tht i'm so useless..
for nearly an hour i'm with her..
we talk nt even more thn 50 sentences i think..
omg..
i can feel tht she feels boring whn she is with me..
so sry..
haih~~

sun shines, flower blooms..
moon glare, owl cried..
cloud shape as i wonder wat it is..
shadow under the tree is where i hide myself..
self talking, bird chirping..
wind blow as leaf falls..
every hour, every minute, every second..
picture of memories slide through my mind..
wat am i thinking of?

tht's all for today..

...::: path of life is set for us :::...

...::: accept and go through it :::...

...::: still waitin :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -10.11p.m- ]

[ -3rd August 09- ]

h0pe f0r a better day

2009-08-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

Well..
i'm tired of all those colour thingy~~
so..
simple the best..

lately..
many things had occur..
good things..
bad things..
watever thing it is..
all problem start bulking up nt oni in me..
my frends are having prob though..
but..
wat makes me worry is..
SHE~

from seconds onwards..
she's gonna backup her piano lesson..
its been a long time since she learn piano..
well..
wat i can oni do is just..
standby her side..
giving just mentally support..
stand hard to face any challenge..
and..
i'm always thr to support eu no matter wat it takes..

for another dearest frend of mine..
can say is quite private barhx..
but.. sry if i had say it out..
ancestor just passed way..
he is so down..
pity of him..
he's grown unlucky to hav broken family..
but as a best buddy of him..
support and care is always needed..
cheer up bro..
we're here.. 4ever mayb..

well..
for some gud things..
it sure is..
is so nt him~~
so..
due to the sensitivity of this issue..
i would lik to zip up my mouth.. lolx..

i think..
thts it barhx..
it is 2.11a.m in the morning..
wat giv me the impression to write this blog is SHE..
y can't i just cheer her up?
felt tht i'm so helpless for her..
omg~
wat i wish is just to console her..
or or or..
watever larhx..
am i really nt qualified? =(

anyway..

all the best!! eu can do it!!
thts it barhx..

Nite bloggie~

...::: frend in need is a frend in deed :::...

...::: i'll b thr whnever eu all needs me :::...

...::: still waitin :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -2.16a.m- ]

[ -2nd August 09- ]

Sickness Strikes

2009-07-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

Well..
i'm feeling so nt well since wednesday night..
as time passes on..
the worse it gets..
31st July 09..
i fall sick..

i rmb..
last nite i awake at roughly 1a.m..
i VOMIT till my face is pale~~
OMG~!!

thn..
i being awoke by my phone alarm tht ring regularly.. lolx
it was almost the time for school..
i sms HER early in the morning..
guess wat?
SHE REPLIED~!! ^^
haha..
so then..
i continued sleeping..
kip wondering hw's school, hw's she, hw's EVERYTHING..

arm's of clock strikes 12.30 mid day..
i opens my eyes and 1st thing 1st..
i take my temperature~
guess wat again?

it..

reduce..

to..

37.0 degree!!

lolx.. just 0.4~~
the night b4 it shows me 37.4degree..

well..
i really miss all of my frends..
especially..
SHE~~xD
but surprisingly..
Jia Yee send me a concern!!
nt oni her actually.. lolx..
Lyn and Tai so do Wen Yi..

as usual..
on msn.. didnt off till nw..
Zuzu and Ting and Alex..
asked me..

How are eu?

lolx..
i'm fine frend..
hmm....
i wonder hw's the BADMINTON DAY goin on.. lolx
guess wat again??
Tai told me gt 12 people!!

Tai..
Lyn..
Alex..
Boon..
Ting..
Zuzu..
Min..
Babi..
Carmen..
Julia.. [ surprise? ]
Vinnie.. [ surprise? ]
Yin Mei.. [ surprise? ]

Julius.. [ name left bhind cuz of sickness.. >< ]

well..
whn i was having my nap..
Vivien called me..
she asked..

Vivien : Julius ar? can i noe where is Vinnie ar?
Julius : Har? i dunnoe worhx.. oh ya.. she went badminton woth lyn gua.. [ smart guess ]
Vivien : oh.. eu didnt go meh??
Julius : nope.. i'm sick..
Vivien : oh okay.. take care ya.. bye~~

lolx..
well..
thts it barhx..
tonight mayb gonna PK with Ting and Alex
song titled..
愛不疚..

Julius~
加油!! xD

...::: fighting against sickness :::...

...::: still waitin :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -9.40p.m- ]

[ -31st July 09- ]

PISSED OFF DAY~!!

2009-07-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

Well..
in the early glimpse of the morning haze..
cooling condition..
raining dazzly..
guess wat..
once i opens my eye..
the clock show tht it is..

7.30a.m~!!!
I WAS LATE TO SCHOOL~!!!

here goes the day..
the traffic is stuck..
every single road was full of cars..
1st day of getting late to school~
i'm a good boii tht nvr get late to school.. xD

finally..
i've reached to school whn the clock strike its arm pointing..

8.20 a.m~!!!

omg..
late for an hour.. lolx..
as the rain stop falling and the bell rangs..
ITS TIME FOR MORAL~!!!

well..
it's a freaking 2 period of moral lesson though..
we did KERJA AMAL in the canteen..
eww~~~~
the cloth is oily.. with those left over bones and rice bits and omg~~
but..
is quite pity for YH coz he is depressed and stressed bcoz of the teacher..
we've planned all this on tuesday but the teacher came in dumbly..

apa yang kamu orang nak buat?
planning tak de apa pun tak de..

thn..

YH.. MY.. and JY.. quickly try to get things solved..
lastly..
sumone broke into tears as i console him he cried even worse..
so..
i think i better zip up my mouth.. =X

finally we did our kerja amal for the 1st part.. ==
thx for the cooepration and ur drops of sweat..
it came out as a good result and it worth.. thx YH

after school..
Evon said tht she wanna wait for ice to go home..
so i accompanied her at the foyer..
guess wat..
as sunlight touches the ground..
i saw..
HAYATI and ONG~!!!

Hayati : eh.. rambut eu cantik ar.. tak de orang tegur ke? ==
Ong : Julius.. y r u hiding from me? ur hair ar.. belakang ok.. tapi.. depan dan tepi potong la..

infront of her i kne nag..
aw..
fish~~~~~
lolx..

reached home around 2.30p.m..
eat thn straight online with a good mood to train MAPLE..
but..
i on my blog..
and click click click..
saw SUMONE's blog..
it wrote.. HEY SHORTY.. it means me..

the blog wrote bout my past..
saying tht i've been rejected many times but still acting cool in class..
kne reject means hv to cry 24 hours? [ fuck eu noob shit ]
the worse thing is..
SHE read tht blog~!!!
oh no~~ i've no courage to face her..

well..
really..
anger.. fish.. tired.. sad.. happy..
thts hw the day passes..
later on gt tuition..
so..
thts all fur nw..

...::: stand hard to face problems :::...
...::: nth can chg the way i lived :::...
...::: still waitin :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -4.09p.m- ]

[ -29th July 09- ]

Special for the 1 I LuVz

2009-07-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

i wonder if the time could turn back..

i would b sitting thr and kip waiting..

whn eu're with me..

hope the time will stop just rite thr..

day after day..

i'm getting deeper n deeper into ur heart..

i would..

opens up my arm..

turn them into wings..

and..

b the GUARDIAN ANGEL to protect eu..

if it is the last opportunity for me to look into ur eyes..

i would stare my eyes deep inside and flashes back the memories..

everyone will go is just the matter of time..

appreciate every moment..

whn eu're alone..

i'll b watching eu like the seagull's view..

the picture came across my mind..

is the picture of memories..

as the moon glare at nite..

i'll b thr for eu..

never letting eu alone..

oh..

god sake..

i will always stay in ur heart till it last beats..

if my shadow doesn't appear again..

it means i'm already gone forever n always..

i'll look at eu..

till my last breath..

and..

i'll kip the breath to say the 3 special words..

I LOVE EU~!!

...::: J[u]Li[u]s :::...

Frends is my everything.. but did they treat me fairly?

2009-07-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Well..
is the 2nd day of my blogging..
day passes vr fast.. lolx..

hmm...
today whole day our class dun hav teacher..
lolx..
oni English we studied..
hav quite a lot of fun by playing the so call 国王game..
lolx..
but i mostly kne with YCY luckynya~~ xD

during a moment..
there's a wind blows through and something comes up..

You hav been in my heart for a long time..
Only thou can be seen in my sight..
Urge for hapiness..
Nor i can giv eu everything..
Goes far apart where the linings disappear..

Else where could feel eu're in my heart..
Vital for me as eu bring love towards me..
On the stars i could glare brightness to eu..
Nothing can replace eu in my heart..
Not as wat i've wish tht i could b ur guardian angels..
Every moment i'll oni think about eu..

[ -JW- ]

any comment bout tht?
lolx..

well..
after school we whn to tuition..
problems raises from sea to sky up above my head and finally burst to rain.. =(
1stly..
SOMEBODY ask us about wat me n MEI noe..
we kip refuse to tell bcoz of some reason..

beg..

beg..

beg..

and..

BEG~~

thn..
lastly..
there's nth left bhind in my mouth..
i felt sorry for wat i've promised to others..

well..
actually..
IS EVERYONE TREAT ME AS A TRUE FREND?
questions.. questions.. questions..

some dun trust me..
some thinks tht i'm a playboy..
some thinks tht i'm annoying..
some thinks tht i'm irritating..

but actually i'm treating eu all my best..
and..
i'm trying to b the best for eu all..
frend..
frend is my top priority..
well..
i'll appreciate every single thing of eu all..
REMEMBER ME AS UR FREND~~

lastly..
ev0n registered Asiasoft and Maple SEA!! ^^
but the F**king verifying email didnt receive by her.. >.<''
why huh?
lolx..
oh ya..
she kip repeating and reminding me nt to take her pic..
and i did kept the promise of nt taking any pic of hers..
coz she said..
if i noe eu take my pic.. no frend..
lolx..

well..
today is quite a moody day barhx..
lolx..

...::: hope for a better tomorrow :::...

...::: still waitin :::...

[ -LuVz- ]

[ -10.20p.m- ]

[ -28th July 09- ]

Hello blog~

2009-07-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

27th July 2009..
is my 1st day of blogging~!! xD

well..
i'm just introduced by my frend to this blogspot..
lolx..
let's start bout my story today..

hmm...
let's start will my freaking hair..
lolx..
is quite or can say is DAMN ugly.. ><
well nt tht ugly actually..
just tht the shape tht the guy cut is really..
OUT OF SHAPE~~
as grass can grow so do hair? lolx..
just the matter of time..
hmm...
duno wat to say..
oh ya.. b4 tht.. there's something tht i nid to speak out~

frend is ez to find..
true frend are hard to find..
somehow..
frends do betray sometimes..
bliv in wat eu think for..
appreaciate as though they're still around..

hmm....
tht's all fur today..
lolx..

nite bloggie~~

Hapii 27th Ev0n~ ^^